“If people have no , let them eat .”

Of course of course, she did not say that! LOL~!

It is the week of Bastille Day and Pet Society is selling French inspired items. I ♥ Versailles!

I bought all the Versailles items for my pet! Woots! Oh, not forgetting…

It was a nice and expensive dinner. Thank you.

Dinner was at one of the restaurants at the Art Museum. We were going for the Spanish restaurant but we went to the wrong restaurant. Unknowingly, we went to an Italian restaurant (probably next door to the Spanish one), and only found out that it is the ‘wrong’ restaurant when we were seated and given the menu. We decided to go ahead anyway and have Italian food instead. Food was quite good.

After dinner, we tried to catch some stage performance but a sudden heavy downpour caught us all. Even the performance was held back because it was almost impossible to continue with everyone running off in search of shelter. We escaped to the Art Museum again, and this time to have coffee at Dome. I love that place, Dome at the Art Museum. I almost felt like I was re-living one part of my life, when I was younger and full of hope.

I am so upset with myself. I failed to confirm to a red light signal on 24 June and have been checking the traffic police website every day since that day, hoping not to see any update on my traffic offence. There was nothing for almost two weeks and I thought all was fine. I knew it was captured because I saw a flash of light from the camera when I went through that red light. Almost two weeks later, that was yesterday, I received a letter from the traffic police department. For failing to conform to red light signal, I get 12 demerit points and a $200 fine. Each driver is not allowed to have 24 or more demerit points in 2 consecutive years. That means that if I get another such summon within the next 2 years, my driving licence will be suspended. I am so pissed with myself.

“Where did I leave the flowers?”

I know I need to be strong and I am working hard at it. I dont want to care about anything or anyone anymore because I know I will get nothing back. As I was on my way home today, I cried. I miss being content with my life, I miss my smiles, I miss being busy, I miss being funny, I miss being loved. Seriously, when was the last time I felt that great? It must be a long time ago. How did I end up being the loneliest soul on earth? Why did it happen to me? Or rather, why didnt anything happen to me? Why am I not living with someone who loves me for who I am, someone who is willing to make my life complete, someone whom I can spend my evenings and weekends with just like what everyone else is doing? I dont have any answer. I am lost.

…As I fade into your background, I cry.
…As I walk in my flood of tears, I see the old me.
…I was happy.

It started with cramps and migraine. I am sitting here, trying to do some grading while my head is spinning away, and with migraine, I am also experiencing a burning sensation in my eyes. Oh whatever.

To make things more exciting than it already is, we now have two confirmed cases of H1N1 in our school. Several classes and staff, people who have been in contact with the infected, have been sent home this morning. I think it is just a matter of time before most of us get placed under the home quarantine order, which would probably result in a temporary school shutdown. I am fine with any measure taken by the school. If I ever get it, I wish they have internet connection at the communicable disease centre, the place that houses the infected. Oh no, I will miss all my babies. Sigh.

I love this picture. I took it to show off my new haircut, but apparently, it was too dark. I think I look better when it is dark. HAHA! Too harsh on myself? Well, it is the sad truth.

I went shopping last weekend and bought quite a few dresses, and instead of doing damage control, I decided to buy more online. I am so depressed and in need of true love I want to spend everything I have in my saving account and leave this world in peace. I was down to these two dresses on one of the online websites that I always visit, and both are really cheap. The cute pink one is SGD$16 and the classy black and white one is SGD$20. I bought one of them. Guess which one!?

…not only when I am happy and fun? I doubt so and that is what hurts me most. It hurts me so much I find it so hard to believe in us anymore. When I am not happy and fun, you hang up on me. You have reasons for yourself to hang up on me, and you believe so much in yourself that you are impossible to talk to. I am so unworthy of your patience. She is.

To have someone you care kick a bin, slam shut the laptop, walk out on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, hang up the phone on you, and hang up the phone on you, is indeed terrible. You do not want to be in my shoes. While someone else gets all the queen treatments, I get - go be sad for the rest of your life. Hey, whatever.

I sneezed like 1000 times this evening, and am still sneezing. I cried for half a day today and is still crying. I am down with flu and fever again, three times in two months. I am feeling so miserable, both physically and mentally. But, whatever.

I have only myself to blame. I chose this miserably lonely life.

Nijntje is a dutch cartoon character. Her alternate name is Miffy, which she is more commonly known as to the non-dutch people and me. I found this picture online. It is taken from one of Nijntje en vriendjes (Nijntje and friends) books, and has the text “Nijn - eleven” added to it. It is so funny! Hope you get the joke too!