It’s been a while since I dyed my bangs - they used to be dark brown but I have been too lazy to do anything about my front hair since last summer, the color is a combination of my original hair color and faded dark brown.

I need to do something about my hair soon! ( ´ A `; )

I bought a lot of nice things last weekend !

The skirt was 6 euros and the black x white pinstripe belt was only 4 euros. I wanted to buy a couple of nice hairclips, too, even though I don’t need them (or can’t wear them before I dye my hair).

I also made a face mask for Halloween~!

I’m probably going to sell it because I need to make money so I could travel to Japan next year - it’s been my biggest dream since I was nine and I would be so happy to finally make my dream come true. ♥

Modelling for the items - I’m going to sell everything I’m wearing in this picture.
Flowery hairband (self made) : 10 euros
Denim dress (self made) : 25 euros
Trousers : 8 euros
Socks with lace and ribbon detail : 6 euros
TUK pinstripe shoes : 20 euros

I’m going to sew more this evening and put some of the things I’ve made on sale tomorrow. Japan, hopefully we meet next year!

I spent way too much money during last weekend and now I feel awful. @-@
I hate the fact that I never have any money and when I do, I just spend it and feel guilty afterwards. I need to stop doing that, seriously.

BUT we went to Linnanmäki with my boyfriend on Thursday to see the light carneval and it was beautiful even though it was cold and rainy during the whole evening. But everything else was just perfect! (*u*) ♥

It was so romantic! I’m definitely going again next year!

Last night I had a dream where a person I -kinda- know left me a comment on the above picture saying something like “Heehee, I think it’s time for you to dye your hair already ’cause everyone can see your roots 8)))))” which is true, because I really need to bleach the back of my hair again. D:

Yesterday I received a letter from Haaga-Helia Ammattikorkeakoulu telling that I’ve been selected take their valintakoe (a test for the people who applied to their school to determine who will get in) for data processing education… thing. I kinda had to apply for at least three schools or else I wouldn’t get money from the government and I wouldn’t be able to pay my rent and bills or buy food. I really do not have any interest towards data processing because it requires LOGIC! AAAAAA SHUT UP I HATE LOGIC!

Tomorrow I’m going to Espoo to other Ammattikorkeakoulu (OMNIA) to meet the school counselor and ~*maybe*~ I’ll get in to study travel industry there. I really would prefer studying at OMNIA over Haaga-Helia even though neither of those really are relevant to my interests. :–|

Wish me luck~!

My head is empty, so I bring you pictures instead.

Found my dream beanie last Thursday from Stockmann.

Got my hi-top creepers yesterday.

… and wore them with this outfit.

I wore this outfit today.

And went to grocery store like this. I picked the black & white scarf over the black one.

Am selling these tops:

I have only 0.50 euros on my bank account - how am I ever going to survive through October?

Gosh, now I’m updating like a madman! I just wanted to show you this skirt I customised a week ago. I’m still going to make an under skirt for it and add more details to the skirt. The skull I painted is still unfinished, so I still need to work on it a little bit!

I can’t wait to get my hi-top creeper boots next week! I’m so happy that I made that Paypal account, because without it I still would be creepers-less! ( * A *;)

Here’s an outfit I wore on the last day of September;

I’ve been listening to メリー, ムック, 新興宗教楽団NoGoD, Ｌｕｃｙ, ＢＵＧ and Ｆａｔｉｍａ a lot recently. Especially NoGoD, I hope that they wil perform in Finland some day! ♥

Yesterday I spent my day at this place where I had been invited to talk about my future plans regarding about work and studies. First we had to introduce ourselves and then tell something about our hobbies, interests, previous jobs and schools, what was our dream job when we were kids etc. Then we did some group assignments and talked about them, tried to figure out what school or job would be the most ideal for us and then we did some more assignments, filled out some questions and tried to get to known ourselves a little bit better. It was nice, but I was so hungry after we had been sitting in the small room from 9AM to 3PM. ( @ - @ )

I told them that I love drawing and painting and perhaps would like to become a graphic designer. There was a boy sitting next to me who also wanted to become a graphic designer and he told that he also loves drawing and painting. We both also have had serious social anxiety disorder as well as a deep depression for years. It was so weird to find someone who had almost exactly the same dreams as I did and has been through the same things as I have - and there was only five of us in that room and it’s a small village I live in!

I baked cinnamonrolls for breakfast this morning! Yummy!

I’m still alive even though I haven’t updated this blog in a while. I’ve been a little down recently even though I’ve tried my best to keep my “everything’s okay” appearance up. Last night I cried for over an hour because of something that I’ve supposed to forget about ages ago, but I haven’t because it hurts so much and I still haven’t gotten over it.

I want to keep smiling and not think about the past anymore.