AH ! I’m happy that I maybe can get out of here ! I’m waiting for it ! If I get out of here I’m happy and wont visit home many times, maybe once in week. I hope that I get here ’cause then I get out of here ! Junailijan koti are maybe full and I have to be here long time before it, but I hope, I hope so much !
And just now I act happy but I’m not happy. I’m sad actually. I don’t want get out of here, but it’s better that stay here. I’m sad ’cause I’m the reason of my stepmoms anxiety. I don’t wanna be like this piece of shit. I’m the mistake.
I hate myself more that before.

ahahhahhaa! I’m laughing that sanriotowns blogs have finn writers ! But still I’ll write english even my english is very bad. It doesn’t matter.
And I can’t understand that why people write here in their own language even this place is international. Okay. Anybody in here isn’t ban to do it, but however. Who understand you if you write this blong on your own language. Okay, your friend that come from same country and they who understand your native language. But still english is most used language in the world if chinese wont count in.

So I’m sad today. Peetis holiday ends and she’ll get back to hospital and I’m alone. I wont go school tomorrow ’cause I’m very lonely then. I want sleep sleep sleep and sleep these stupid schooldays and live weekends! Then I’ll be happy, but I know that it’s impossible.

I’m waiting for that I’ll make a run ’cause I ate lots of sweet on weekend and I don’t want get myself fat. ARGH!

I’m waiting for answer that a question that I show some days ago here. And I’ll ask it so many times that somebody’ll tell me the answer, so I ask again. How I can change myself?