Even though I know this is better than him being in jail, I still miss him like crazy. Everything has to be on a schedule, when he can talk to me, when I can see him, when we get to be alone, everything. I can’t wait til he’s done with this stupid place and we can just be together. The scariest part is that he still has to go to court in afew weeks and they might send him away for awhile. Like 2 years. Its’ really stressing me out, to the point where I’m starting to develop a stutter and can’t sleep worth anything.

So to top it all off, almost every single person I used to call my friend is so mad at me they don’t want anything to do with me. Its over stupid stuff too, that wasn’t even true. So I just told them to all go to, well you know. I’m just really tired of there always having to be so much drama in my life. I can’t stand living in an episode of freaking degrassi.

So on top of all that, now my cousin is living with me. I love him to death, but he’s always got to be right next to me, and he keeps breaking my stuff. He broke the kool-aide pitcher, he broke the lid to my $65 lotion, he broke the lid to my shampoo, he broke the vcr in the back bedroom, everything in the house is sticky, he pees on the toilet seat, and he used my razor and not on his face. *eewww* All of this and he’s only been here like three weeks.

So I’m like beyond stressed out. I can’t get a minute alone. My grandparents are going out of town this weekend so I asked him if he could stay the weekend at his girlfriends house and at  first that was the plan. Now he wants to bring her over here. *sigh* All I wanted was to be able to take a nice bubble bath by candle light and listen to music. Now I can’t even do that. Its’ driving me crazy.

And I can’t talk to my boyfriend about it because he got in trouble over there and now he cant use the phone. I havent talked to him in 6 freaking days. I’m going to go see him tonight, but jesus.

I dunno, maybe I’m complaining about nothing, but it sure feels like something.

*nip <3s steve*