I have to admit that my boyfriend is not a romantic guy that will plan a candle light dinner or give me a surprise. But I think I need to change my mind from Sunday-04th January 2009…

     I suppose to bring my white gold diamond ring to galvanization before Chinese New Year. So my boyfriend promised will bring me go back to that jewellery shop to do so. On Sunday, he was like so excited to bring me go to that jewellery shop. I was thinking maybe he want to trade in my current ring and change it to bigger one.. He-he~ Then when we reach there, he did not show any intention to get me a bigger ring… well,i think too much…wuu~  But surprisingly, he asked that salesgirl to take out nice white gold pendant to let me choose. I was shocked and thought he just want me to take a look. Then i saw a pendant which is a key with 21 in front,and of course a small diamond. He said that was nice. So he asked that salesgirl to let me try on. It was beautiful~

     Then he asked that salesgirl about the price. Guess what, i never know that this small little white gold diamond pendant and a thin white gold chain cost RM818, some more is AFTER discount. God…  My eye ball was about to drop out. Actually I am sensitive. I cannot wear necklace or earring. But recently i learned a new way to wear earring, which is wash the earring with water, then straight away wear it without dry it or touch with hands. This method unable the bacteria to get to my ears piercing holes. My boyfriend knew i am sensitive. But that salesgirl explained that this is 18k white gold, so far no patron complained about sensitiveness. She said that i can buy one and try. It should be no sensitiveness. Buy with RM818 to TRY??!!  I always said that my boyfriend is like a worm that live inside my stomach, because he just knows what i am thinking, althought not all the times la… While this time he noticed that i really love that necklace, althought i said is too expensive, i do not want. So u know lo, he reserved that for me. he so sweet~

     Today is Wednesday, which is the day to collect my ring and my necklace. I was so excited. My dear boyfriend helped me to wear the necklace. I feel so happiness. Thanks, dear lou gong zai… I really appreciate every moment with you. The necklace is the earliest 21st birthday present i received. But you know what, having you is the most valueable  present i have ever had. I love you, I will always do…

     Today is my first day of 2nd semester. I think my anxiety level got interupted by some hormones, or my neurons unsuccesfully hit the threshold, that’s why i do not get nervous like i used to be every year on first day of the school. I used to be imsomnia the night before the first day of primary school, secondary school, tertiary school and college. But very magically, I do not feel nervous this time. So, I guess my body was having some chemical loss…

     In this wonderful first day, to get a wonderful starting of the year, I had a wonderful western breakfast with my beloved boyfriend. So sweet….   

     I am so excited to meet my lovely coursemates+friends=psycho gangs. Hilary, Evie, Jia Min, Yen, Mitshell, Grace, Yani, Oga…… Wow, I miss you gals alot la!!! Weird, no guys…… Obviously… Please, Dear God, get some macho and cute guys instead of ‘emo’ guys to my class… Beautiful scenario create better atmosfere to study hard… >_<      Ha-ha!!

     This semester I only got 3 compulsary subjects, yeah~ But i not yet take my LAN subjects… sad~ Hope I manage to sign up for this semester LAN subjects class. Dear lecturer, please let me squeeze into the class, I am not too fat, just need a small little place to fit me, do not tell me is full again this time ya!

     Today is PSY 106 class, which is Dr. Albert’s ‘Quantitative Methods’ class. “Gosh, i hate Mathematics!!! Can i skip this class?” Oops, sorry, is my little fragile heart grousing and moaning. What i know about this subject is i need to do Mathematics. I need to know formula. Statistic is all i will be ‘communicate’ with, in this subject. If u ask my level of confidence in this PSY 106, I will say is 2-low, while my level of stress should be 5-very high. Oh God, I had learned helplessness in my previous bad Mathematics experiences! Ha-ha… Never mind, I will try my best to get along well with statisic. I have quite strong adaptiveness to new and fresh things.

      Wonderful breakfast brings wonderful thing happens. Today my coursemate+friend+big flower=Jia Min had gave me a Hello Kitty eraser, which she bought for me from Hong Kong. Great! It is a sweet heart shape, combined by 2 split half heart into a complete heart. Behind the eraser, 1 side of the heart printed with ‘Mimmy” while the other side printed with ‘Hello Kitty’. Under the words is a space that enable you to write down your name. Althought it only cost $10 Hong Kong money, which is Malaysia Ringgit RM5, I still feel great and happy. I do not care about how much is that gift, but i appreciate the good intention of her being remember me when she went for vacation. It really makes people feel good when you know your friend still put you in mind when comes to buy a souvenier. They can eventually do not want to get a souvenier if they think that you are nothing to them. So, folks, be thankful to people that always put you in mind, this kind of ’species’ (friends/classmates/coursemates/colleagues/neighbours/whoever) are getting extinction. Zhu Ren love Big Flower! I will manure and shower you on time ya!

     Well, I think i talked too much, hey, people excited ma……   Oops, sorry, again my little fragile heart mumbling… But I still want to add my ‘2009 Wish List’ here la… He-he~

• More Hello Kitty (definitely)
• More fashion sense with glamorous apparel, eg: high-waist skirt, butterfly sleeves tops, boot cut jeans, 2 1/2 inch high heels…
• More nice skin care & cosmetic, eg: SKINFOOD, Majolica Majorca…
• More health (food poisoning prohibited!)
• More inspiration to study, to do assignments, to do exams
• More love from my Dear Boyfriend!!
• More $$$$ ( Wa-ha-ha)
• More……
• More……
• More……  

     I hope all my wishes be granted! ( I know is quite a lot, but… I am greedy la!) Ha-ha~ Ganbatte! POWER UP UP!!!

     I had been suffer from sickness since Sunday night. I vomit, diarrhea, fever and dizzy because of food poisoning. I also do not know what i have eaten and cause me food poisoning. I ate too much… Kluang coffee, kluang wantan mee, curry chicken, Muar wantan mee, asam fish, sambal squid and prawn, peach aloe vera tea, KL bak kut teh…… Everything went right all the while… My last dishes was KL bak kut teh… But when i vomit, i cannot trace bak kut teh, but only the side dishes-vegetable. I guess the vegetable was not clean, that’s why i ended up food poisoning. This was my first time of food poisoning. I vomit about 8/9 times; while diarrhea more than 10 times, until nothing to let me ‘clear out’, I started to ’clear out’ oil from my body. Can you imagine? I was hydrate, my thighs felt so pain, I fel dizzy and want to vomit. I almost going to faint. 

     Now, luckily I am still here and can blogging some more. I lost weight from 53kg to 51.2 kg. I know is not a lot, but it only tooks me about 3 days to lost 1.8kg. It should be consider a lot right? But trust me, i rather be fat than losing weight by food poisoning. It is not fun at all! I felt myself almost dying that moment when i so sick. Thanks God for spare me from dying…  

It was my first time attending a prom, it really gave me an amazing experience! It was organized by Department of Psychology, and the annual ball was given theme as “An enchanted Night”. A ticket is RM105 for early bird that reserve one table. So me and my friends reserved one table, besides cheaper, but we also can sit together and have fun.
I bought a white dinner dress. I love it so much! It got a white big ribbon in front at the waist line, u know, i cannot resist ribbon… Haha~ I went to manicure and pedicure, i put on silver nail color as i bring a silver dinner bag. Then i went to blow my hair at a saloon. Wow, guess what? A dinner cost me about RM400 and one day time to prepare and get ready! @_@ faint~
There were about 200 guest. Everybody was dressed up so nicely and lovely. But still got some gals wore like going to clubbing, not really understand the dress code… So sad..
We were all busy taking photos before we can go in to the hall. Self potrait, half-body, full-body, even from the back side also got! Haha!!We really appreciate the invention of camera!! Thx CAMERA INVENTOR!! (i dunno who?!?!)
We were sitting at the most front table, with a lucky number 6! The opening was Latin dance from our Psychology student, it was an amazing and wonderful performance! After that, still got Caroline performed by our lecturer. Then still got qoir, band, solo and so on.. Our emcee is very humour and able to make the situation become very warm and funny. There was also a lecturer band, known as ‘HELP street boys’ from Dr Goh, Dr Albert, Justin from Career Sense and also the other two admin staffs. They are great!!!! I never know that our lecturers are so talented!!! They can play keyboard, drum, guitar, bass and sing well! I salute them!!
I really enjoy this ball. Althought the food was not really so marvelous, but i think all the performance were worthy. If i do not attend, i will never know that our Department of Psychology was full with talented people, not only students, but also lecturer and admin staffs. So guys, do not think that Psychology students are just psycho people ok! We are talented peple that know how to work hard and play hard! Work Life Balance!!! Yeah!!! Cheer for HELP Psychology students!!!

     There was a bus stop, an old lady was sitting there with a board and newspapers on it. She was selling the newspapers. Her face was full with wrinkles and fine lines. I guess her age is 6o something or maybe older.

     When i saw her and passed by her, i felt sorrow. She is so old and yet she still needs to sell newspapers to survive.. There was quite a lot of thoughts flow out in my mind. I am afraid.. I fear that one day i might become like her and need to struggle to survive. This feeling is so scary and horrible. I do not want to be alone and lonely when i am old…

     Besides that, i am quite frustrated that young people nowadays commit crimes such as robbery, pick pocket, rape, molest and so on. They got a pair of perfect hands and foots, why can’t they get a proper job and contribute to this society? Our society will become better if everyone do their part, just a small part.. I know we are not super and noble nor powerful, but every small little part will become big impact to the society. Everybody wanted to have a prosperous and harmony society, but this won’t got outcome if we do not give out our responsibilities! So, what out goverment is doing actually? They are doing and planning and suggesting F**king things! All we need is more effective rules! Crime rates will continue rise if goverment can’t come out with a better way! Everybody live in fear, fear to go out with a bag, fear to go out by wearing a skirt, fear to go take public transport, FEAR is all we have now!

     I do really admire and would like to salute a guy, he is quite well-know for his creativity by editing a song and make him nearly get into jail. I think what he wrote in that particular song is really relevant to the fact we are facing now, is just that some F**kers do not want to face the reality. If they would face it, i suppose our society and country will become better in the future.. But i think this day will takes a thousand years maybe… 

     Anyway, i  also would like to salute myself for choosing my current course, i really hope i can help this society to stop being sink into the darker hole… And i think all my coursemates will definitely agree with me as we share the same passion and same goal to achieve in different fields. GANBATTE!!!! MiHaRu is great!!

     I wonder why guys cannot just put down theirs ego…. They are so easily get frustrated by some small things especially when driving… just like my boyfriend does.. He always get annoy by others road users.. When he is on the outside lane, which means the fastest lane, there are a car wanna cut his car, then he will deliberately drive very very slow & make people behind get angry. I asked him why he do like that, then he said because behind that car is follow him too near, so he do not want to let the car cross. Then by the time when he want to cut people car, he will also stick to the car & scold when that car suddenly slow down and do not want to let him pass. Then i try to explain to him that actually this is just like a ’round’ that keep turn & turn. When he do like that, how others think about that is just like when people treat him the same way, and how he thinks about others. But i think he needs time to ‘digest’ what i told him. I do not want to sound like i am so annoying and make him feel troublesome. So… what can i do? PATIENT is all i need now…  

     一句很古板的话，至今却还是深深影响着现代生活。。感情丰富者总觉得爱情比任何东西来得重要，说什么‘有情饮水饱’，但现实生活能容许这事发生吗？很悲哀的，是少之又少的。。没有人能真的只靠有情饮水饱。。人，需要生存，没有所谓的面包，早已经不再人世了，不是吗？看过了好多事情，知道只有爱情，没有面包是不行的。。但，在抉择的那一刻，你能毅然潇洒，撇下爱情，随面包而去吗？你在爱情身上获得了心灵上的满足，却在面包身上拥有无止境的物质享受，残酷的事实，你又能怎样？你心想，“我就不能同时拥有两个吗？”抬头一望，身边的人都在‘积极’给与他们‘最宝贵’的意见，有人希望你跟随你心里的感情，别成为金钱的奴隶；有人却希望你醒一醒，望望这世界，钱虽然不是万能的，可是没有钱可就万万不能了！人啊，没钱烦，有钱也烦！到底有没有两全其美的解决法案？那就要看你自己的底线在哪里了。。

     I was excited about that as is my first time to work for this huge event. The paid was actually not so high, RM50/hour. We need to reach at 6pm yet the paid start count from 9pm-3am only.. >_< My job scope is to stand at the registration lane 1 to check the passbook and ic of the visitors. Besides that, i need to write down whether they are smoker or nonsmoker,if is, must ask them show their cigarette pack to let me jot down. We standby at 8pm but the visitiors came around 8.30pm so we were forced to start work instead of wait until 9pm.

     There were damn lot of people! I was sweating all the while and kept writing. When there were less people, is already 11pm! It was my very first time that my foot were pain and i wore sport shoes! Can you imagine how tough it is?

     People got lesser around 1am something. Actually we were quite free. But that was a sudden electric trip and we all asked to changed to the Sales Assistant(SA) clothes to sell cigarette! Damn! I never sell before and is about finish work! Why want us to change clothes for only an hour?! So me and my friend were partner. We walked around the indoor stadium. Suddenly got a guy said he want to buy cigarette. But he was fucking annoying! He wanted us to hang out with him after he buy the cigarette. He offered me RM100 and i can do whatever i like with that $$. But i rejected. He constantly offered me with RM200, RM300, RM500 and finally RM1000. But still, i rejected! What the fuck! He thought who am i? I do not want his fucking stupid money!! I am just doing sales for my company, not a prostitute! I was really surprise when i told my friend about this, she told me i can use that stupid chance to ask the guy buy more and i can give him 2 digit of my mobile no.! #*&%^$! NO COMMENT!

     Before i left, that stupid fellow still simply touch my shoulder!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!!! I need to wash myself with a dozen of Dettol!! 

     I really saw a lot of things during that job. Firstly, i notice that 85% are all Malays & Indian. They all wore damn sexy, some even wore a bikini only! My friend ask me doesn’t they dosa(guilty in front of their God)? I told her, if they didn’t expose themself or naked only they dosa!! Is so terrible! Secondly, I saw girls who took some drugs and start to get high and steam. They all acted so ugly and cannot even walk properly, some even fall on the floor. Thirdly, which is the stupid guy harassment!!! I really cannot stand it! I wonder how my friend can stand it and still can pretend nothing happen. Is it because I am over sensitive or should i said we got a different principle? I mean my job is just to sell the cigarette, not sell my body right? Fourthly, the management kept asked us go approach and sell! Do properly! But do they really care what happen to us? We can only quietly let people take advantages of us.. What the @$%^&*@#$!!!!

     Anyway, is a new experience to me.  Finally i know what is happening inside a Rave Party..Is not so fun as we thought..

     It’s been a few tired days… Been quarrel with U everyday… I am tired of getting this… I really do precise u so much! Can’t u feel that? I tried my very best to let U feel I am responsible, I am trustworthy and i try not to make u worry. Therefore, i let U know everything that happen around me, i tell u everything. But when comes to job, U just won’t understand me. I am big enough to know what is good and what is bad. I know what job i shouldn’t accept and which is safe to accept. Everytime when i get to offer a job, I need to think for so long about how to tell U, if i tell U, i worry that u will angry. My friends told me to accept and after work only tell u. But i refuse, because i know U will get more angry if i do so. I thought if I tell u everything, U will trust in me & believe that i am able to discriminate between good & bad. But everytime u kind of disappoint me. I need to argue with U, then explain to U, comfort U to make u understand me. I am very tired to explain to U about the same thing everytime. I really do hope this is the last time. I really do not want it to happen again. This is not because i do not love U anymore, is because I really do love U a lot, I do not want this matter to affect our relationship. Let’s give our best in making it better, ok? Love U much….

     Hi! I am back! It is been quite a time I didn’t blog.. actually I do have many many things to let it out from my chest…

     I was rushing for my assignments and had my mid-term too.. It was horrible as on the mid-term week, I need to pass up 4 assignments, which make me exhausted. I was quite afraid as I do not have any Biologic background but most of my coursemates do.. I was struggle so much to make myself understand the context and remember the definition.. On the exam day, I feel dying as the first question I already don’t know how to answer.. What can I do? Just shooting lo! Haiz.. Sad…

     Anyway, happy things will happen after sad thing right? I was told by the Sanrio corner promoter there will be a Hello Kitty Lucky Draw launching at Parkson Pavilion.  So, i take my word as i promise i’ll go there, and i went!! ha-ha! U need to buy a voucher to lucky draw. So, i had bought 4! I did times of lucky draw, a pair of devil kitty glasses, an angel kitty fan and 2 devil kitty totes. The next time i went i did 2 times. But this time no luck lo! Got 2 pairs of devil kitty healthy slippers.. Haiyer…

     My mid-term result finally come out!! Guess what? I passed!! I got B+! But i do felt sad as my friends almost all got A’s…. I need 3 marks more to get an A-!!! I hate myself for not work hard enough! Or olse i can get an A’s too! Well, no use i said it now! I must work hard for my final exam!! If i can get good result, i will reward myself something i desire for so long!! So ganbatte!!!

     Again, like i said, happy things ends, and now bad things come again.. Shit.. I was quarrel wit my mom..She just cannot understand what I am trying to tell her! She just cannot stand in my point of view to feel what i feel! I think we really less communication between not only me and my mom, but whole family! What can i do? Since young we don’t really close to each other like others family. They will have a chat when dinner time, they got family day to hang out together. But we seldom have dinner together, all seperate time eat. So we got no chance to do so call ‘chatting’. If now, u all really wanna talk to me or trying to be close wit me, I’ll feel scare. I already used to this lifestyle, i know people always said is never too late to change. But i cant accept this just a blink of eye. i may need time. Until now, my mom not really wanna talk to me. When she see me, she went back to her room. She just does not want to see my face. but still she called me when i didn’t go home at the moment of 4.30 am. So, i think she still care for me. Anyway, i did try to talk a bit to her now. Haiz…

     Forget about that, i got too many assignments, project and exams to face, i got no time for that. So i do not want to bother this first. I went to House of Joy for my Active Citizenship Project. It was a great experience for me. When u organizing a project, and it successful, u feel satisfaction. Thiswas my project, i am the leader. I do feel worry and nervous that i might end up in nothing or bad result. But luckily, everything went smooth than i expected!! Thanks God! I am glad that all the girls felt happy and enjoyable.

     So now, i feel relieve a bit to let out all my complaints and happiness.. Ha-ha! Now i wanna work hard again! Bye guys~~