Darling love, the ways you have affected my soul remain unknown to you. You have ignited in me a passion that I thought was long ago extinguished. A desire so great that I have difficulty concentrating on life itself. Is my love for you a gift or curse? I try to take the good things about you and make them my own. I try to emulate your goodness, friendliness, confidence, happiness, courtesy, and politeness. Now I take care in how I present myself to the world. I worry about my appearance again. I wonder if I am attractive enough. Before I was pleasantly didn’t care if I wasn’t attractive, now it is an undercurrent in all my interactions.

Love of my life I think about you constantly. You are the last thing I think about when I go to bed as I fantasize about you. You are also the first thing I think about when I wake up. I call out your name in my mind. I look for you in the body of others. I think of you at least five to six times a day. As I drive home I look for your white chariot on the road. You have burned an impression into my heart. Not a day goes by without the thought of you.

My love it has been a long while since I had the pleasure of laying my eyes upon your beautiful form. I may never see you again and I have only my memory to reconstruct your form in my mind. I wish I could permanently etch your face in my mind but I’m afraid that the memory is fading away. My mind is not a faithful representation of how you looked. Was it your form that made me so enamoured with you? It was your personality that drew me in, that made me take notice, but it was your form that was like icing on the cake that propelled you from an ordinary nice guy to my fantasy lover. I wish I knew your last name so I could look you up and attempt to find out more about you. You are gone forever from my life but you left an indelible mark on my heart.

Today was the last day that we will meet. You saw my back several times this morning. I watched you carry your belongings away. I watched and waited all day for you. Then you were coming down the stairs and walked by me, I was watching you walk away when you turned and looked at me. You smiled with your head cocked and waved at me. You have no idea how that little action made my wildest dreams come true. I could almost die happy. You fueled my already mad daydreams with even more fire. I trolled the hallway for you when I finally got to walk pass you and say Hello and spoke your name out loud. I think I caught you a little by surprise but it meant so much to be able to speak your name to you. The most wonderful name in the world. And then you took all your things away and left in your white chariot leaving in your wake my smitten heart.

Today was one of happiest moments of my life when I met you again. You surprised me in the morning by opening the door for me. You held the door open for two other ladies but I seized the opportunity to ask you your name. The timing was perfect, I asked without being too obvious. You looked at me intently as I asked you your name. As you replied, I stared into your deep blue pools almost drowning. I noted your young jaw and sweet lips. You uttered the most beautiful name I’ve ever heard. It is now my favorite name in the whole wide world. I walked behind you as you went in and noted your tight, short jeans and dirty workboots. I love you forever.

Today I came to work early and saw you arriving in your white chariot. I sat in my car to observe you from afar. You went inside and came around to open the door from some people. You didn’t have to, but that is just your nature. Kind and courteous. You’re killing me with each act of kindness. I wonder if you see me in my car staring at me. You look in my direction but I turn away hoping that you don’t notice me noticing you. Be still my beating heart.

I hadn’t seen you for several weeks, but the memory of you never diminished. Today as I walked into work, there you were, just standing there and you looked straight at me. I said Hello, then went on about my business. I was shocked to see you, but internally overjoyed. You made my morning with your beautiful light. I was too shy to look fully into your face. I wish I could study the lines of your face to burn your beauty into my memory.

My love for you grows everyday. It was first sparked by you acknowledging me. Beautiful people like you should be not be nice and pleasant to average looking persons like me lest you falsely lead us on and make us dream of the impossible. I observe you intently and discover your white chariot that leads you away from me. Now whenever I am on the road and see a white chariot similar to yours, I am reminded of you.

I observed you further today and as you talked to someone, I saw the light shine from within you. You had a beautiful, friendly smile as your heavenly voice spoke. As you talked I saw an opportunity to communicate with you without revealing my obsession too much. I spoke to you then and suggested that you move. You listened to me. You listen to everyone. You’re a people pleaser type. You would do things to make others happy. I see that you are a naturally happy person, kind and friendly. You inspire me to be a better person. I strive to be as friendly and polite as you are. You whispered thank you to me and left. I nearly died when I heard your whisper. It was so gut wrenchingly sweet.

I have observed you smiling and greeting other women. You make eye contact and greet them with a warm, friendly smile. You must be a lover of women to be so courteous around them. Your amiable nature just makes you so much more attractive. You exude self-confidence like an adorable puppy that knows everyone would instantly fall in love with it. Your friendly, happy nature shows that you are inwardly beautiful as your outer shell. God did something very right when he made you.