Love of my life you’ve left me. I still remember your fair smile. You could light up a room with it. Your gentle sweet voice. Those were the things I loved most about you, the sound of your voice, your genteel personality, and your sweet smile. I will never forget you.

Darling lover, it’s been months since I’ve seen your face. I may never see you again, but I shall never forget you. I keep your memory alive in my mind. I fantasize about you constantly. You are better than counting sheep. Thoughts of you make me happy.

Looking back, we’ve only had a handful of encounters. How could I in that short of time fallen so fast in love - so infatuated? I must be a hopeless romantic, idealizing some unattainable crush. At least for a brief spell, those few happy moments, you were real - the interaction was real. I existed in your presence and you acknowledged me.

Darling love, I am still alive. I lived today in memory of you, of your existance. I remember you eventhough I hardly know you and you probably have long forgotten me by now. But that indelible mark you’ve made on me will stay with me. You haven’t faded from my dreams. I keep your memory alive in my mind. You are like a king’s feast, enriching my life and inspiring me to be better. I want to look good for you.

Darling love, the ways you have affected my soul remain unknown to you. You have ignited in me a passion that I thought was long ago extinguished. A desire so great that I have difficulty concentrating on life itself. Is my love for you a gift or curse? I try to take the good things about you and make them my own. I try to emulate your goodness, friendliness, confidence, happiness, courtesy, and politeness. Now I take care in how I present myself to the world. I worry about my appearance again. I wonder if I am attractive enough. Before I was pleasantly didn’t care if I wasn’t attractive, now it is an undercurrent in all my interactions.

Love of my life I think about you constantly. You are the last thing I think about when I go to bed as I fantasize about you. You are also the first thing I think about when I wake up. I call out your name in my mind. I look for you in the body of others. I think of you at least five to six times a day. As I drive home I look for your white chariot on the road. You have burned an impression into my heart. Not a day goes by without the thought of you.

My love it has been a long while since I had the pleasure of laying my eyes upon your beautiful form. I may never see you again and I have only my memory to reconstruct your form in my mind. I wish I could permanently etch your face in my mind but I’m afraid that the memory is fading away. My mind is not a faithful representation of how you looked. Was it your form that made me so enamoured with you? It was your personality that drew me in, that made me take notice, but it was your form that was like icing on the cake that propelled you from an ordinary nice guy to my fantasy lover. I wish I knew your last name so I could look you up and attempt to find out more about you. You are gone forever from my life but you left an indelible mark on my heart.

Today was the last day that we will meet. You saw my back several times this morning. I watched you carry your belongings away. I watched and waited all day for you. Then you were coming down the stairs and walked by me, I was watching you walk away when you turned and looked at me. You smiled with your head cocked and waved at me. You have no idea how that little action made my wildest dreams come true. I could almost die happy. You fueled my already mad daydreams with even more fire. I trolled the hallway for you when I finally got to walk pass you and say Hello and spoke your name out loud. I think I caught you a little by surprise but it meant so much to be able to speak your name to you. The most wonderful name in the world. And then you took all your things away and left in your white chariot leaving in your wake my smitten heart.

Today was one of happiest moments of my life when I met you again. You surprised me in the morning by opening the door for me. You held the door open for two other ladies but I seized the opportunity to ask you your name. The timing was perfect, I asked without being too obvious. You looked at me intently as I asked you your name. As you replied, I stared into your deep blue pools almost drowning. I noted your young jaw and sweet lips. You uttered the most beautiful name I’ve ever heard. It is now my favorite name in the whole wide world. I walked behind you as you went in and noted your tight, short jeans and dirty workboots. I love you forever.

Today I came to work early and saw you arriving in your white chariot. I sat in my car to observe you from afar. You went inside and came around to open the door from some people. You didn’t have to, but that is just your nature. Kind and courteous. You’re killing me with each act of kindness. I wonder if you see me in my car staring at me. You look in my direction but I turn away hoping that you don’t notice me noticing you. Be still my beating heart.