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Archive for February, 2009

Airport trip~

Friday, February 27th, 2009

Today, Natey and I went to pick up our friend from the airport~[music]

The airport is so cool~ [shine] We rushed over there and got there about an hour early, so we had a lot of time to kill! It was such a rush~ [cloud] All for nothing…

Ehehehehe… Oops. [sweat]

The airport is so full of weird and neat statues…

See??
First off…

[statues]

Ehh?? Who’re these guys??

[statue2]

These were outside, it was cold and grey out. I hope this weather lasts a while. [heart]

[statue3]

These guys were popular! [shine] There was a mother with her kids around this piece, they were sweet and moved for me. Awwww~[glow]

I wonder where they’re supposed to be rowing to?

We made the trip back home after that, and then we went out for dinner~

We had fun!![star]

[Natey]

He’s such a silly boy. [heartheart] I love him so much.

More tomorrow!! This will be a fun week~~ [sparkle]

Bad hair day.

Tuesday, February 24th, 2009

Oh no

I did something bad…

I don’t know what to do to fix it, now…

This is bad…

I… Cut my bangs too short. 

I really shouldn’t have done it! Next time, I should definitely go to a hair stylist before attempting cutting my hair on my own.

Natey says it’s cute… But I’m really not used to it…

I want to change my hair. Maybe I should get it layered, somehow?
I’m bored with my hair and it’s so difficult to manage.

If I layer it, won’t is get messy when I pull it back??

What should I do…

Puppy!

Thursday, February 19th, 2009

Little Chrissy. [heart]

…I don’t think she wanted to be photographed. [sweat]

“Chrissy, look over here!”~~[music]


“Go away.”

Ahh, oh well… I’ll leave her be. [sweat]

Chrissy looks sad, here…[down]

I feel a bit lonely right now, too. It’s ok, though, because I have a lot to work on~[rainbowshine]

I think I’ll also take Chrissy for a walk~! [glow]

Thursday.

Thursday, February 19th, 2009

Today, I woke up alone at home.

What??[nervous] I thought Nate was here for some reason…
I guess I don’t remember… [sweat]

It’s nice and sunny out, today.[sun] I went for a tiny walk earlier, but then I decided I wanted to come home. I don’t feel like being out much right now, I guess… [sweat]

I’m glad I’m awake, though. I feel like I have so much to do~[rush] I’m trying to make jewelry, but I’m out of ideas lately! What do I do? [nervous]
It’s like “writer’s block”, except for crafting and not writing…[sweat]

I want to show off what I make here, soon.[ribbon]

Recently, I bought Chrissy a stuffed animal. [cat]
Little Chrissy~~[heart] She was feeling sick, so her last stuffed animal got dirty. It was her pillow, too! She had no one to cuddle with while Nate and I were gone…

Giraffe

It’s a giraffe~~![shine] It’s pink. Isn’t it cute~?[music]
I haven’t given it to her yet, to make sure she’s all better and won’t get this one dirty, too.

I hope she likes it. [heart]

Now I need to get back to work…[sweat]

A sad day…

Wednesday, February 18th, 2009

Lately, I’ve been setting up and going to doctor’s appointments.

This is pretty hard for me, since I’m not too used to going to doctor’s appointments!
I’d been to them, but I hadn’t been checked up on in a while…
And it’s been a long time since I’ve gotten a bloodtest.

Aaaaah…nervous~

Going yesterday was hard… I was nervous and shaking in the seat the whole time in the waiting room. Fortunately they said everything was normal, it was a hard appointment to go to but they issued me a bloodtest…

I woke up pretty early this morning, considering I stayed up late last night…
Nate woke me up and helped me get straight out the door.
And…
I went…
I chickened out…

I actually have a really, really big fear of needles. [sad]

I wish I didn’t…
Nate was supporting me a lot. I’m glad he went. I have to go again, but I’m not sure I can go without him… I’m so scared.
Even in hard times, I’ve never been so scared in my life. Adrenaline, maybe?
I guess that’s the animalistic reaction to fear.
I couldn’t let me arm go out straight, I couldn’t pull away!
I wanted to.
I just couldn’t get myself to!! [nervous]

Now I’m disappointed and have no one but myself to blame…
I need to go again, I need to get it done.
It’s important to my health.
Nate said he’d go again with me, if I promise I won’t pull away…
I can’t promise.
I genuinely did want to get the bloodtest earlier and get it over with so I could get my results back, but I still ended up pulling away…
My heart was beating so fast and I felt so dizzy.
I don’t know what to do so I don’t do that again…
I can’t promise.
I hope I can do it, soon… Before this week ends.
I need to be strong and do this.
So maybe soon, I can promise, get this done…

I feel really defeated.
When I do go next, though, I definitely will get it done.
I can’t cower out again. I don’t want to disappoint myself, or Natey…[heart]

Sigh… [sad]

Blog START~ ♡

Tuesday, February 17th, 2009

Hello, everybody!! Star~

Today is the start of my new blog, Peace Advance~~music~ I’ve never been good keeping blogs up, but hopefully I can have some fun with this one~ Now people can check up on how I’m doing whenever…

Also, I’ll make an effort to post things I make in here! I hope everyone likes it. heart~

I hope I can keep this blog up!!