well, I finally told my friend about my delhema in my previous post. I am so glad that she has such similar thoughts to mine on the idea. Unfortunately, I can only tell her half of the deal. I am sure she thinks similiar on the other part but I am not 100% sure. I am going to wait a while for that.

And no, I don’t like her or anything… the issue had to do with everyday shiz.

I need something to eat.

AHHH. yi miloo yini tishu. no kueshno wi. owesa sputo o bii. ;___;

bui habchos yini duremas…owesa. OWESA. wi? WIIII?!?!?!? orimena brepni yi… orimena… nokemena.

well, I guess I am. I mean, I am happy because I finally got over someone that eu amei for a long time… or so I thought I loved.  I guess I realized it would never work between us, so I let him go, and I feel great. Lately I have been noticing other guys. :p Like this really tall guy .___. His name is Julian. :p I love that name.  But lately I have been going crazy over someone names Luke. o.0 Such a weird name, yeah. ha. I don’t think I love him or anything, hahaha. That would just be silly because we really don’t know eachother. I don’t think he knows of my exsistence either. Or he does but doesn’t think twice of it. We have a class together! D: Well, two. I think it’s jsut the infaturation thing or whatever, though. Like the random whisp of… lust? I dunno. Someday I will. haha. I don’t expect much to bud from those two random crushes, but a simple high-school fling will do. Ha, like walking in the hallway hand and hand, standing by each other’s lockers in between classes, stuff like that.  I guess if something budded from that, it would be a bonus. I am moving after school though for college, so I don’t think it will last long.

I had the freakiest dream. Okay, it was sometime in the morning, and the whole family was up. My room, FOR SOME REASON had a huge shower in my room, so my room looked the same except for a giant shower in front of my closet. Then after the shower, we were all in the living room. It was dawning, and we were all sitting in the living room. There was a zombie attack, and for some reason my step dad and my brother, Jarrid, had been attacked. It was so scary, so they took showers and afterward we all were sitting there… waiting. All holding hands… saying things. Out final…

I was so close to crying it is not even funny. I am about to now. It is so scary, and the dream seemed like it was real life at first so I was just… I can’t type anymore, I am about to hyperventilate.

I just feel like being random today. I made an epic plan though! Instead of going straight to Japan after High School, I think that I am going to go to college here first, get some basic credits, and bring up my GPA, then I don’t know after that. I want to go for graphic design or photography, since I can’t become a doctor. :/ Photoshop is fun though. xD

My mouse died recently. Well, one did. His name was Cosmo. Ma and I called him Kamikazi Cosmo because he was crayzay! and it had a ring to it. Say it out loud some time.
Anyway, we think it was from being too oveweight. We must have taken the wheel from him too many times or something. I tried putting him in a ball though, but he would never want to run in it. I never thought that my Cozzy-poo would die this soon. I am close to tears right now, despite the fact that I only had him for a few months. :/ I’m so blue now. I remember when I first got him… he chased Sophie all over that cage! xD We had to get two cages! Then we ended up connecting them with some serious tubing! It was a mousy metropolis! I remember posting about it some time ago. Jeez, what happened to the weeks. ;___; I need hugs.

夏場です！　私の夏はたいくつな！　私は親友を持っています。　≥_≤ 　　私の古いの親友はばかです。　>:0
私は食べなくでわ行けない。

This past week at my grandma’s house was sad. I realized all that I had left behind. I didn’t want to leave it all, but dad was supposed to leave, and he granted custody to mom. He ended up staying due to disease, but now he is leaving again. ;__; I had friends there, and lots. Here I have nothing. Not one decent friend. I have been here three years and it took that long to notice it. I am drowning in my misery. D’: And I want to go to Japan, but I don’t even have money. Speaking of Japan, I got my post cards from Rinko! But still. I just want to have my last high school year in Marinette, where I will probably be more happy there. Eh, now I must seem like some soppy drama queen. I sure hope not. >.>

Whatever. Here is some spiffy website I made on iWeb:
[da link]

Okay, I am still learning Japanese, right? Well I have been spending most of my day to learning and studying. I know you should only do a little at a time, but I might leave earlier than expected. I don’t know for sure yet. I wanted to be prepared though, you know? Seriously, at the rate I am at now, I am going to be full on fluent in no time >.> I just cram cram cram. I need serious speaking skills though so if anyone can help me with that, please email me.
Jeez, I am so pumped! I plan on moving about 10 minutes away from the Shinjuku station. I doubt I will be able to, but let me dream. [it is 240000 yen for TWO people! X0 expensive, but Tokyo is an expensive place] I found another nice place for way cheaper than that. ^__^ My friend and I are saving up our money now. We don’t have much, but we need enough to last for a few months while we go to ARC. I think I am going to be an English teacher there… I really want to be one! -is over excited- Ahh, I can’t wait. I can’t take home life anymore. It is so stressful. I mean for the past week I was fine then the dog like “went” every where RIGHT AFTER we took him outside! OMG I was gonna kill him! X0
inhale…. exhale
Jeez. Well I have Japan to look forward to, ya? Well, break is over. Back to studying some sentence structure, and more vocabulary.

I post too often… honestly.
But doods! I seriously want the Ab Rocket thing! Super results in 30 days! I seriously need to loose my extras… the trial is 15 USD! xD for 30 days! I just have to work extra hard, and loose it all before I send it back. MUHUHAHAHAHA!!!!
-more pwnage-

Psych is coming back! MUHUHAHAHA… AGAIN! hahaha, that show is so funny. xD
Ahh, I gotta fly now. Making adoptables for a site I go on, and I have lots of studying to do.