I had the freakiest dream. Okay, it was sometime in the morning, and the whole family was up. My room, FOR SOME REASON had a huge shower in my room, so my room looked the same except for a giant shower in front of my closet. Then after the shower, we were all in the living room. It was dawning, and we were all sitting in the living room. There was a zombie attack, and for some reason my step dad and my brother, Jarrid, had been attacked. It was so scary, so they took showers and afterward we all were sitting there… waiting. All holding hands… saying things. Out final…

I was so close to crying it is not even funny. I am about to now. It is so scary, and the dream seemed like it was real life at first so I was just… I can’t type anymore, I am about to hyperventilate.

I just feel like being random today. I made an epic plan though! Instead of going straight to Japan after High School, I think that I am going to go to college here first, get some basic credits, and bring up my GPA, then I don’t know after that. I want to go for graphic design or photography, since I can’t become a doctor. :/ Photoshop is fun though. xD

My mouse died recently. Well, one did. His name was Cosmo. Ma and I called him Kamikazi Cosmo because he was crayzay! and it had a ring to it. Say it out loud some time.
Anyway, we think it was from being too oveweight. We must have taken the wheel from him too many times or something. I tried putting him in a ball though, but he would never want to run in it. I never thought that my Cozzy-poo would die this soon. I am close to tears right now, despite the fact that I only had him for a few months. :/ I’m so blue now. I remember when I first got him… he chased Sophie all over that cage! xD We had to get two cages! Then we ended up connecting them with some serious tubing! It was a mousy metropolis! I remember posting about it some time ago. Jeez, what happened to the weeks. ;___; I need hugs.

夏場です！　私の夏はたいくつな！　私は親友を持っています。　≥_≤ 　　私の古いの親友はばかです。　>:0
私は食べなくでわ行けない。

This past week at my grandma’s house was sad. I realized all that I had left behind. I didn’t want to leave it all, but dad was supposed to leave, and he granted custody to mom. He ended up staying due to disease, but now he is leaving again. ;__; I had friends there, and lots. Here I have nothing. Not one decent friend. I have been here three years and it took that long to notice it. I am drowning in my misery. D’: And I want to go to Japan, but I don’t even have money. Speaking of Japan, I got my post cards from Rinko! But still. I just want to have my last high school year in Marinette, where I will probably be more happy there. Eh, now I must seem like some soppy drama queen. I sure hope not. >.>

Whatever. Here is some spiffy website I made on iWeb:
[da link]

Okay, I am still learning Japanese, right? Well I have been spending most of my day to learning and studying. I know you should only do a little at a time, but I might leave earlier than expected. I don’t know for sure yet. I wanted to be prepared though, you know? Seriously, at the rate I am at now, I am going to be full on fluent in no time >.> I just cram cram cram. I need serious speaking skills though so if anyone can help me with that, please email me.
Jeez, I am so pumped! I plan on moving about 10 minutes away from the Shinjuku station. I doubt I will be able to, but let me dream. [it is 240000 yen for TWO people! X0 expensive, but Tokyo is an expensive place] I found another nice place for way cheaper than that. ^__^ My friend and I are saving up our money now. We don’t have much, but we need enough to last for a few months while we go to ARC. I think I am going to be an English teacher there… I really want to be one! -is over excited- Ahh, I can’t wait. I can’t take home life anymore. It is so stressful. I mean for the past week I was fine then the dog like “went” every where RIGHT AFTER we took him outside! OMG I was gonna kill him! X0
inhale…. exhale
Jeez. Well I have Japan to look forward to, ya? Well, break is over. Back to studying some sentence structure, and more vocabulary.

I post too often… honestly.
But doods! I seriously want the Ab Rocket thing! Super results in 30 days! I seriously need to loose my extras… the trial is 15 USD! xD for 30 days! I just have to work extra hard, and loose it all before I send it back. MUHUHAHAHAHA!!!!
-more pwnage-

Psych is coming back! MUHUHAHAHA… AGAIN! hahaha, that show is so funny. xD
Ahh, I gotta fly now. Making adoptables for a site I go on, and I have lots of studying to do.

Okay, uta-hime means Diva. [courtesy of tickledpinky on DA]

Aieee, I am drawing more ponies. My macbook talks to me! It’s voice is a male one named Alex. It is kind of scary too though. >.>
Bwa! I have to wait for my Japan Trip. -sob- I have to go to college first to get some credits and I need more time to save more money. My friend who is going with me said she will wait. Maybe she will go to college with meh!
I gotta fly. xP I will be back later to post again! -pwnage-

xP tehe… I took up fashion again. buhuhahahahahaa. now by that, I mean that I am designing clothes again.

… Global Warming is bad now. ;__;

Eh, lately I have just been staying home. :/ I don’t want to stay here, but I have nowhere to go. Last night I actually went somewhere, but yeah. I don’t talk to my “best friend” anymore - she was just a horrible influence anyway. And I am still in love with my neighbour! Arg! ;__; Why?
On the bright side, it is beautiful outside! And I think I am going to draw a picture now. xP I should be studying though >.>