I had the freakiest dream. Okay, it was sometime in the morning, and the whole family was up. My room, FOR SOME REASON had a huge shower in my room, so my room looked the same except for a giant shower in front of my closet. Then after the shower, we were all in the living room. It was dawning, and we were all sitting in the living room. There was a zombie attack, and for some reason my step dad and my brother, Jarrid, had been attacked. It was so scary, so they took showers and afterward we all were sitting there… waiting. All holding hands… saying things. Out final…

I was so close to crying it is not even funny. I am about to now. It is so scary, and the dream seemed like it was real life at first so I was just… I can’t type anymore, I am about to hyperventilate.

I just feel like being random today. I made an epic plan though! Instead of going straight to Japan after High School, I think that I am going to go to college here first, get some basic credits, and bring up my GPA, then I don’t know after that. I want to go for graphic design or photography, since I can’t become a doctor. :/ Photoshop is fun though. xD

This past week at my grandma’s house was sad. I realized all that I had left behind. I didn’t want to leave it all, but dad was supposed to leave, and he granted custody to mom. He ended up staying due to disease, but now he is leaving again. ;__; I had friends there, and lots. Here I have nothing. Not one decent friend. I have been here three years and it took that long to notice it. I am drowning in my misery. D’: And I want to go to Japan, but I don’t even have money. Speaking of Japan, I got my post cards from Rinko! But still. I just want to have my last high school year in Marinette, where I will probably be more happy there. Eh, now I must seem like some soppy drama queen. I sure hope not. >.>

Whatever. Here is some spiffy website I made on iWeb:
[da link]

Okay, I am still learning Japanese, right? Well I have been spending most of my day to learning and studying. I know you should only do a little at a time, but I might leave earlier than expected. I don’t know for sure yet. I wanted to be prepared though, you know? Seriously, at the rate I am at now, I am going to be full on fluent in no time >.> I just cram cram cram. I need serious speaking skills though so if anyone can help me with that, please email me.
Jeez, I am so pumped! I plan on moving about 10 minutes away from the Shinjuku station. I doubt I will be able to, but let me dream. [it is 240000 yen for TWO people! X0 expensive, but Tokyo is an expensive place] I found another nice place for way cheaper than that. ^__^ My friend and I are saving up our money now. We don’t have much, but we need enough to last for a few months while we go to ARC. I think I am going to be an English teacher there… I really want to be one! -is over excited- Ahh, I can’t wait. I can’t take home life anymore. It is so stressful. I mean for the past week I was fine then the dog like “went” every where RIGHT AFTER we took him outside! OMG I was gonna kill him! X0
inhale…. exhale
Jeez. Well I have Japan to look forward to, ya? Well, break is over. Back to studying some sentence structure, and more vocabulary.

I post too often… honestly.
But doods! I seriously want the Ab Rocket thing! Super results in 30 days! I seriously need to loose my extras… the trial is 15 USD! xD for 30 days! I just have to work extra hard, and loose it all before I send it back. MUHUHAHAHAHA!!!!
-more pwnage-

Psych is coming back! MUHUHAHAHA… AGAIN! hahaha, that show is so funny. xD
Ahh, I gotta fly now. Making adoptables for a site I go on, and I have lots of studying to do.

xP tehe… I took up fashion again. buhuhahahahahaa. now by that, I mean that I am designing clothes again.

… Global Warming is bad now. ;__;

Eh, lately I have just been staying home. :/ I don’t want to stay here, but I have nowhere to go. Last night I actually went somewhere, but yeah. I don’t talk to my “best friend” anymore - she was just a horrible influence anyway. And I am still in love with my neighbour! Arg! ;__; Why?
On the bright side, it is beautiful outside! And I think I am going to draw a picture now. xP I should be studying though >.>

I just drew this. Please don’t steal.
Some comments/ critique please? I do know that the markings are a little much but yeah.

The thunder is so loud that it is making the windows and the things on the walls rattle. Flashes randomly spew out, lighting up the street as if it were daytime. The wind so fierce that it makes even the thickest of trees bow to the ground. All evening it has been storming, and we had a tornado warning too. The tornado watch stopped at 8:15, but I still think that one can form now. If the sirens go off, I have to get everyone to the basement. Well all have ready pacs that we just have to grab and we are set to go in the basement. My shoes are positioned for easy slip-n-tie so I can run to the parent’s rooms and get them up. They are Chuckie T’s [Converse All-Stars], so it is a little bit harder to get them on. We only have two working Mag-Lites, and the black one is dying. It is like a movie. I locked the doors too - I have an unnatural fear of zombies. >.>

I usually stay up most of the night because I cannot sleep, but tonight I will not sleep. I know that if I go to sleep, I won’t wake up, even if the sirens go off again.
I must go now; I need to conserve battery life on my laptop.

I finished reading Chain Mail, already. It was such a good book though, it makes me want to go out there and do what they did. :] In fact, I have been trying to work on something like it, but it is not working too well. :/ Going to go to the library some time and get some books on that; I am really into that stuff. Of course it will be in English instead of Japanese, seeing as I am better at English. Well, it is 3:22 AM; I have a lot of Japanese to study today. ;__; And I have to get some more lessons up.
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