This song is pretty much describing how I feel right now.
Am I not enough for you?
They say to be careful who you listen to, be weary of where your information is coming from
I’m not saying I 100% trust my source.
I’m saying that what I heard lacerated my heart.
I thought that was over.
I thought things were getting better.
You always say you love me.
You always tell me I’m yours as you grab my butt and walk me to class.
but I feel like I’m second best.
when we started out, a year ago, you seemed so happy.
but you don’t seem happy like you used to be.
things get complicated.
I want everything back to the way it was before you cheated.
before you used my blade.
before I forgave you, but never once forgave myself
is that the game?
To make me feel terrible while making yourself feel better?
I cried real tears at school today.
I wore them as badges of courage upon my face, knowing I did what has always scared me.
I confronted you with what I heard.
I told you my opinion.
I feel like the keychain you won at the fair instead of the big teddy bear.
I’m second best to her.
I want to be your arm candy.
I want to be the girl you’re proud to date.
You’re telling me to lose weight.
I’m 104 lbs.
I know that’s probably less than her.
I just want to feel pretty, but I never do.
Not any more.
I gained 20 lbs since we started dating.
I feel fat.
I have a zit.
I feel ugly.
This year has been the best year of my life.
I don’t want to break up with you.
That’s the weird part.
I guess sometimes love can leave you blind.
I try to hide the truth from myself…
you still love her, don’t you?
You have a crush on her.
She’s the one you really want, and I’m just someone you use to take your mind off of her.
You talk about her.
Every time you do that, it’s like a kick in the ribs to me.
Only worse.
I’d welcome a kick in the ribs at this point.
You say you love me, but who do you see when you look in my eyes
me, or her?