Current Mood: studying 

I used to take Japanese classes in college. But I only took Japanese 1 & 2 and the about a month of Japanese 3. Now that I’m about to Anime expo VERY and VERY soon!! I feel I should practice my Japanese because last year I was barely carry a Japanese conversation with an artist that was there drawing a few drawings for me at the Copic Marker booth. [sighs].

But with Anime Expo sooooooooooo close, everything is made for us to go. But now the only thing we can do is just wait forever which is what it feels like. Well hopefully I can re-learn everything with enough time!! LOL

Always,

Panda

Current mood: cranky

As the title says….I have already put my 2 week notice last Friday. Because with Anime Expo just around the corner, they wouldn’t let me get that time off. So, I decided to quit because of that and due to the fact that I wanted to leave there anyway. I have always complained about my job and its my first job, so its only a stepping stone to starting on how the world that we live in works. I believe that somewhere deep down inside me I am going to miss Del Taco. LOL. But then in a way I’m not. LOL!!! oh well…hehehe!

  Always,

Panda :3

P.S. Expo is almost here!!!

[sighs]…..Yes, it just about to be 2 years exactly that I have graduated. Almost all around me everyone is graduating in some way. My sister is getting promoted from 6th grade to 7th and so is my boyfriend’s cousin. My co-workers are, well some of them. Gosh!!! It just gets me all whelmed up in tears about mine….it was amazing feeling. If any one asked me, “Would you do high school all over again??” Immediately I would say, “Heck yes!!! Over and Over again!!”

Here is my picture of my Senior dance crew. It was all went too fast for me. 4 years went slipping through my fingers like nothing. I miss everyone. But in the world we live in is all about the survival of the fittest . Or is it??

          Sometimes when I hear some of my younger co-workers saying they want to go to school and just drop out…it makes me sad because less and less people are graduating. They don’t even realize they have real good. I think they are only working to get a bit of extra cash on them to go out and stuff, but me on the other hand….I’m stuck paying damn bills ’til I die!!! LOL Who isn’t?

       Anyway, I just hope people realize it aint fun once you out of school. Call me childish, but when back when I barely began high school…I told myself to in school forever so that I didn’t have to face the real world. Obviously that didn’t work. [sighs] I do wish I was back in high school though.

     My classmates…I hope you all are doing well and living it up. I miss you all!   ^-^

Love,

Panda

Current Mood:  [Sad]

Damn….I’m sick and it really sucks!!

Like the picture said its just one of those days. LOL I’m sick and on my monthly .period. >_<;;;  it just sucks. Arghhhh!!!! My lovely and only boyfriend has been taking care of me [don’t know how when he’s playing his videos games] I’m kidding LOL he is playing them but if I need anything he did it or get for me.  I love him and all I need is his love and care…to feel better. Hope soon.

Always,

Panda

Current Mood:   [blushing]

Yeah, Just like the Elvis Presley song. LOL. I’m sorry, but it making me thinking about my boyfriend.

         “I’m in love…I’m all shook up.” [laughs] Can’t stop singing.  Seriously, its funny how when you fall in the muddy puddle of LOVE…you tend to do things you wish you did on a normal basis. [giggles] Its true, no?? You wanna look really nice and have everything really perfect. Even though you really don’t even care how you really look. ^-^  You all know what I am talking about.

         Love makes you feel crazy emotions you never thought that you ever had. As for me, at times I feel like wanting to spin around [in public], I am singing all the time, smile like crazy, and dream like no tomorrow! LOL.  You are just so warm at the thought of that person. I just really love the person am I with. So…much…the words aren’t still exact. But I really do love them.

Always,

Ninja Panda

Yes, by Maroon 5. LOL I’m playing the song right now. If you really listen to it there can be many different meanings besides the actually by the group. To me, its like….any girl in any way…to someone they are beautiful.

I’m gonna be SUPER honest here. My boyfriend. [giggles]. Never in a million years would I come to think that I would fall for him. When I was pouring out to him about what happened to me, little did I know I was falling for him. Guys never and I mean NEVER made me feel “beautiful.”  I always heard “you’re hot” “you look sexy” and other stupid stuff. That always made me feel like they just liked me for how I looked like. But when he came around….everything changed. I felt like I was dating for the first time. ^///^[blushes]. 

It was all really cute. How we started dating. BUUT!!! Back to the subject, I been there were you don’t feel this “beautiful” you that people claim to see. But we have all our rough times. I just believe that God does have someone for everyone. You cant just give up. Why? Because with everything else in life…you gotta trip, fall, get up and walk again over and over and over and over!!! Until…the time where you see yourself that you have fallen again and you don’t have the strength anymore…that person is the one that’s going to pick you up and help you. Not take advantage of you. Just think about it. We’re all [yes, even guys] are beautiful in own way.

Always,

PAnDa

Yup you heard right- or read right. LOL Certain theatres are going to be playing the Japanese live movie of Death Note! Trust me its AWESOME!!

The first time I saw it was last summer at Anime Expo 2007. Super cool! If you have seen the anime and read the manga its just a short version of it. The way this movie ends…it has a 2nd movie to it. But the actors are pretty damn good!

        So, if you really have enjoyed either the manga or the anime, its worth seeing this movie. Or even if you just heard of it or just plain curious…go see it!!

       I really hope you have fun and don’t regret of not going to go and watch it [if you were able to]. If you have the chance go and watch it.

Well, and if you did or are planning to…let me know of what you think!

Always,

Panda ^-^

Current mood:

Now whatcha think about that?? I was just driving to my boyfriend’s house and noticed the car that was in front of me was all decorated like if the people in just got married. But the writing said, “Married for 60 years.” As showed.

Made me think…”Wow, if you know what it takes to keep up for how long you live, that’s amazing!”

     It even made me be super inspired to even think about getting married. I mean after what had happened to my parents about 9 years ago, it had made me think to never get married or even think about at all. But I only believe when the time does come through…I will say, “I do.”

Hehe. I mean what are your point of views? I really believe that you just have to learned each other’s ways of keeping each other together interested. But everyone is different. Hopefully the one I love is the one to make me happy until I die.

Always,

Panda

Current Mood:  Panic!!

Holy smokin’ freakin’ crap!!!!!

Last year was super awesome, but I think it could have been better. LOL. This year its going to the super best! Because my boyfriend and I are going to cosplay as characters from Vampire Knight. Yay! its going to be so cool! ^-^   I’m going to be Yuki and my boyfriend is going to be Zero.

Like the picture shows. Hehehe! But today I am at my mother’s house [for about my previous entry I got over it] because she said that she would help me fix my cosplay costume for some final touches. Hopefully before expo I will have the finale pictures! Hehe.

        Yup, Anime Expo is just around the corner. I got the hotel covered, expenses covered, stuff needed for my cosplay outfit covered, and plans made out. I guess its just that as closer it gets the more I freak out LOL.

     Hope everything turns out good. I’ll keep ya updated!  >_<;;

                                           Always,

                                              Panda

Have any of your parents ever made you super upset?? Who hasn’t!!!? [sighs].

          Long story short. My mother left myself and younger brother and sister. I was only 11 when this happened. Then my parents actually divorced when I was 15. All this time even now that I am 20 years old, I had to figure out many things on my own. I have fell flat many times on my face and got back up. Now that I am trying to make my own life [like I have been all this time], my mother wants to put her 2 cents every time! Especially, in my personal relationships.

        Just now, my mother found out I have been sleeping over at my boyfriend’s house every now and then. Its only been twice! She wanted to call me up acting like I’m a damn child and tell me what’s right and what’s wrong. I mean I’m 20 I’ve made my share of mistakes and know how to take care of myself. All those years she wasn’t there for me, now she wants to be my mother that should have been way back when. The times when a young growing little girl needed her mother to teach her the things to look out for in life. That’s when she should have been my mother.

Always,

Panda

Yesterday, [Friday, April 25th] my boyfriend took me to go out and eat sushi. We have gone a couple of times and had great times. The place we go is really great. Its super close on pretty much being a “sushi club” LOL. Why? you asked. They play music that you would hear at a club, there’s a bar area, and just how much fun you can have by going there. ^-^

    I really enjoy going. Its not just sushi that they serve. They serve other Japanese dishes. Which is so awesome to me! Hehe…I mean we [my boyfriend and I] choose the “all you can eat” and we eat until we’re stuff! LOL.

Obviously, there are many kinds of ways making it and types. That’s why when you choose the “all you can eat” its hard to choose because you don’t wanna get full too fast.

The place we go is called Joe’s Sushi. Its very nice and amazing! Many people go there for birthdays and other reasons. We have went on Valentine’s Day and it was really crowded. >-<; Plus, you cant make reservations, its all first-come-first-serve! So it can get really busy in there. But it becomes worth it. [giggles].

Here are 3 of my very favorite kinds of sushi from there. The one in the picture to the right is called the “Volcano.” It comes in a four piece square and its served warm. [sorry the chopsticks got in the way].

The second one here, is called the “Golden California.” Golden due to the fact the rice is toasted. And let me tell you…it is sooooooooooo delicious!!! That sauce that is poured on top of it is amazing! This one is also served warm and sometimes even too warm. LOL.

And here is Albacore. All it is, a slice of albacore placed over a roll of rice  and topped off the way you see it here. The sauce it has a bit of some spices, but that what its makes it super good. Plus, this one is served in a bit of coldness I would say.

LOL. Food is good in every way it comes in served and cooked.

Always,

Panda

Well, for starters…its simple. My real and birth name is Amanda. LOL. Seriously. Though.

     Ever since I was little, my mom’s co-workers would call me that. Sometimes even my own mother. From there and time to time I was called Panda. LOL.

    It doesn’t really bother me whatsoever. My co-workers sometimes call me that. Very close friends do also. Some times it makes me laugh when I realized people actually call me Panda like a normal name at some points. [laughs.] Its just funny, but I like it.

     But then why a ninja, right?? LOL. Well, because my mother has also called me a creature of the night. I mean come on!! I was born during night time what else do you want me to be doing?? LOL. Just kidding. But some times I really am a night owl- or in this case panda. Plus, I really like ninjas [yeah I have been watching the anime show Naruto]. And thats how the name came about. Hehehe. ^-^

Always,

your one and only! Ninja Panda!! ^-^

Well, here I am. Looking down at a scraped knee. LOL. Its bleeding a bit, but its becoming worth it. You have to at least know that cheesy pick up line?? “Do you have a band-aid??” [girl replies whatever answer] “Because I think I scraped my knee when I fell for you.” Aww! Wasn’t that soooo cute?? [giggles]

      Yup! I’m speaking of falling in love. LOL. It will be my second time actually. It feels way better too. Brief story about my first time. At first it was all beautiful, but then it all came crashing down. When it did all ended, yeah, it hurt like hell. But then I just titled my head at a different angle and turned into something that made me stronger.

        Now about this “second time?” [giggles] Its a world that I had hoped for when I first fell in love. I enjoy every second of seriously. ^////^ [blushes] Its a feeling I yet can’t describe. When I’m with him, he says things to me I have always wanted to hear and feel the desire he has for me. [laughs] It mostly sends chills up and down my spine, but in a good way. You know? Yes, I get those butterflies in my tummy and blush insanely. But for sure I know that in his eyes…I am 100% perfect by only being me.

Always,

Panda