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what is there to do??
Well, there’s

1. Anime Expo= July 2nd-the 5th
2. Transformers movie= June 24
3. Father’s day=June 21
4. drawing
5. blogging
6. watching anime
7. reading manga
8. writing back to pen pals
9. getting stuff ready for the semester [Fall]
10. clean and organize room
11. go places [other than around town]
12. twitter
13. play video games
14. get a summer job [yuck]
15. visit parents
16. hangout with siblings
17. hangout with friends
18. go swimming
19. reading other novels
20. finish sudoku books
21. finish Kakuro book
22. exercise!!
23. sleep [let’s try to avoid that one]
24. take pictures of everything
25. and more!!

if you guys out there have more, let me know!!
So, i have no reason on being bored….

Love,

Panda!

Your very own source into the scandalous lives of Riverside’s [somewhat] elite. Here we are for the what just happened last week.

While yours truly was attending a Bridal Show at Riverside’s Convention center, some things were boiling among our loyal subjects…

Reported, M was confronted by Lonely Boy. What could there be to confront? Seems like Lonely Boy’s has begun to grow even more. The words told to M were, "Its sad how B’s friends aren’t there for their so-called BFF. When as for me, I have been there ever since." Lonely Boy, ever since what? Obviously, Lonely Boy has no clue what he’s talking about. Therefore he was only told a one-sided story. Do we need to rewind back to about 2 years ago??

In the time of the year it was New, a situation brewed into something completely unreasonable. L has hosted a party of the welcoming year. P was no where to be found, but then was discovered working for the night and spending it with her mother. Therefore she’s excused. On the other hand, W had just shown up with a lovely belated present. At the corner of her eye, C had seen the exchange between these two and thought it wasn’t fair that B didn’t receive one too. Aren’t we all grow ups here, C? There is no point for childish greed. But without thinking, C felt the need to confront these two about the unfairness. W became furious at her and blew up in anger. He said unto her, "How isn’t it not fair?? C, I have bought you and B everything. From buying dinner to being your damn taxi driver! There’s your present." Well, it’s true. C and B how can you expect someone to be oh-so-kind when they have paid you kindness in almost every way?? Another thing happened to B that may have something to do with his trust issues. According to L, his relative, they did want B living in their home anymore and was given the boot. L wasn’t able to defend much for the house wasn’t his. But the reasons why B was kicked out is this: staying home and do nothing. No job. No help around the house. Only took the position of being a freeloader. I mean when you work your ass off and then have a person who wants a ride everywhere and you pay their way all the time. Would you do it with no pay back??

Fast forward to as of today, Lonely Boy needs to straighten his facts before his stuffs his foot in his mouth. Watch out Lonely Boy…When W, L, and M combine they might destroy what’s in front them with a giant head of pride. Lately it just seems the battle of BFFs. Let’s hope we see the finale of this. B, Julius Caesar also thought he had friends, but the closest one ended up destroying him. No matter how loyal a dog can be, one he can bite back.

You know you love me…
XOXO,

Gossip Girl [me]

Come on, let me be your Gossip Girl. ♥ Please? Ok! Here we go.

Here’s to your one and only source to the scandalous lives of Riverside’s elite. [Not really elite, but if you watch Gossip Girl you know this line LOL].

Lately, B has been going through some really tough times. Sickness and who to really trust among his group of amigos. Sadly, B’s girlfriend is probably now slacking off on her job. Watch your back C, who knows who might sweep you up now? Or can it be your little version of  "Lonely Boy" who just broke up with his girlfriend of half a decade? I mean, we can all see through the fronts you two put up. Let’s go back a bit…

Last week, C wanted a gathering of close ones for simple night of fun. But things were mixed into the wrong kind of cake. M, L, P, S, and Lonely Boy attended. What now? No B? Lonely Boy seemed to have only one plan in his mind. That is probably to sweep up C without her even knowing it. Lonely Boy, there was eyes watching your everything move. Sometimes, we wonder why people tend to become someone else completely when their other half isn’t present. Is there any need to do this, C? Holding Lonely Boy’s face all oh-so-close, are we sure C hasn’t realized his trap? Let’s not jump into conclusions, but exchanging whispers and laughs isn’t always a sign of friendship and what kind of fun were you thinking of? Now P, we can’t be looking frustrated knowing Lonely Boy isn’t quite your cup of tea. M, L, and S only stood by in hopes the happening was more part of a dream than part of the night’s memory. Poor P, no matter how she wants to fix this mishap, all she can do is stand on the side lines and grit her teeth in anger. As Lonely Boy has his piece of cake and enjoying every bite of it.

Later that week, B’s situations have grew bigger than expected. L, realizing how P feels, wants to correct the mishap with her. But how? B is having trust issues and will only think L and P are only creating stories wild on their imagination. B its O.K. to think that, but when your friends are trying to watch your back…it can be useful in the future. C then claimed B had no more trust into L, word of mouth spread like wild fire on dry grass. The grape vine then finished with L. L, why the tears? Wondering where did he go wrong, L now wants the light of justice to fall on the mishap of that one night. Then L’s phone went off. A text from T. Saying M was feeling the same of the mishap. P questioned L for the somewhat relaxed face expression. L only responded with, "We’re aren’t the only ones feeling this way." P, we already know when that smirk crawls on your lips means something is going the way you want it to. Uh-oh! A BFF may be a devil in disguise. Or so the King Elvis Presley sang so.

XOXO,
Gossip Girl [me]

Went to visit my daddy.
And then he mentions, he has to move out of his house in 2 weeks.
He has my little brother and little sister.
And no where to go.
My heart is very broken.
So broken not even ex-boyfriends match it.
My dad does not have a place to live.
And I can’t do a damn thing about it.
I don’t have money and I don’t have a home.
I hate this part right here….
My dad starts crying,
And says, "The diabetes and cancer isn’t the thing that’s killing me…"
"Its thinking of all this crap all the time that’s killing me."
My insides torn hard and burned like crazy.
Seeing my dad just made me hurt over and over again.
Please God…take care of my dad.
For he doesn’t deserve this…if my mom was with him he wouldn’t be going through this.
God, please take care of him…please…

Hmmmm…..let’s go ahead and start with January! LOL ^^

January:

2nd: was my 20th Birthday, yay! [but I had to work that day too T-T ] But the manager from my job went and got me a cake and then I came home from work and my cousin made me a cake too! It was awesome!!

17th: got me a SideKick Slide phone [it was freaking expensive! at the time] but my other phone broke and it was a “911″ to have a phone…

31st: the day me and my boyfriend started to date!! [it was uber cute!] We first met in September 2007.

February:

14th: was suppose to be my day off and be with my boyfriend, BUT!! then I  got called in to work! Argh! I was mad but thank God got I got off at 1 p.m. to get ready for my date with me boyfriend. He gave me a huge heart-shaped chocolate chip cookie from Mrs. Field’s saying “I love you” and a bouquet of roses and white carnations. Awww so sweet!! He then gave me a necklace with one angel wing [its meaning will be explained later]

29th: my boyfriend took me to this Japanese restaurant in the Riverside Plaza, which you can only go there with a reservation! Its was really good. But when we were getting seated I fell onto the floor because I slipped [they warned you that the floor slippery and I was wearing heels T-T] and then I ended up with a big bruise on the knee I fell on. Damn that hurt. 

March:

2nd: Went to the Aquarium of the Pacific in Long Beach for another part of our first month my boyfriend and me had together! I had lots of fun. Learning a few more new things about the sea life. [I normally watch the Discovery Channel or the Animal Planet channel now]. Afterwards we then went to the beach for a bit [it was SUPER cold!!!].

[cont. with April and so on….]  

current mood: sick

It feels really horrible…its the first Christmas I’m going to spend with my boyfriend and I’m sick!!! [whines] I hope I get better enough for the party part…

I wish you all a Merry Christmas and hope all of you are safe and dont drink and drive!!!

Always,
Panda

Just the other day, [Friday, Dec. 19th] I went and finished my Xmas shopping and then got me a little something. Kat Von D lip gloss. I looked at the different shades and then fell in love with one.

And then my boyfriend told me I should get it. Then I did end up buying it  after the sales representative told me that the lip gloss is really good keeps lips moisturized for quite some time. And it does! It was a bit pricey but I think it does its job and it very worth it.

If ya wanna check it out more go over to Kat Von D’s page at Sephora.

Always,
Panda

What else can there be in that  title?? LOL I’m kidding, but then again I’m kinda serious. ^-^ How’s your x-mas stuff going?? well here’s mine:

1. Cali [short for California] just got super uber cold!! Its been raining almost every other day.

Yesterday, we just barely got sun. All last week, just clouds and more clouds and then with water.

(here was when I was driving, I hate driving in the rain because people speed even on a rainy day like its a freeway.)

2. Vampires! Oh my! For those of you who are watching Vampire Knight and Vampire Knight Guilty online, so far "Guilty" has 10 episodes out from Japan or now 11. The anime just went further than the manga out here in the U.S. (even further than ShojoBeat; for those of you who are like me subscribed to it) Stuff happened that left my jaw hanging down in shock…crazy! If you would like to watch the anime online visit ZOMGAnime website. This page shows all the Vampire Knight episodes they have.

3. Anyone watches Gossip Girl?? As for me…of course I do!! LOL For those who have been watching it somewhere in the world with me, what do you think is going on with Chuck?? I believe Chuck should be with Blair and when she finally confessed her love to him…he just took off!!! I was crying when this happened. I mean how can you just do that when you been wanting to hear those words? I don’t know, I just cant wait for January 5th, they show more new episodes. Tell me what you think… And if you would like to watch the few last episodes they showed, visit  the CW for the Gossip Girl corner for your liking.

and last #4. X-mas…its creeping up on us very fast! I just finished my shopping list yesterday. Thank God! LOL I have been getting really busy. Went to take xmas pictures with my boyfriend, then sent those out as X-mas cards for both of our families. I got presents for my sister, my brother, penpal, 2 of my closest friends, and my boyfriend. Hopefully everyone likes their presents (they better dammit!! Or I’mma kill them LOL). Just hope everythings good for that day.

Well, I got to go and get ready to go and play tennis with my brother and its 32 degrees outside. Hope it warms up by the time I leave. All of you take care out there! and Happy Holidays!!

Always,
Panda

What do you think?? Is it very old fashion?? Stamp hassle? What?

Me, personally I love it! I like the fact that someone is willing to sit and write to you. Makes you feel even more special than you ever were before. ^-^ Oh, well. LOL

Well, I just wanted say this because I just got some penpals and it just feels good on the fact someone’s ok with taking the time to read and write back. LOL

What do you think?

Always,

Panda 

Yay! In December’s issue I got published for cosplaying as Yuki Cross from Vampire Knight!!! Ain’t it cool??? That just made my week this week!!!

To me its very special because I mean come on! Out Of how many people cosplay Vampire Knight…I was published!!! Yay!!!

here it is!!! Enjoy!!! [click to enlarge]

YAy!!!

love Panda!!! ^-^

I don’t know if you ever heard, but you are able to make a bracelet from Starburst wrappers! Pretty neat huh? LOL

I just made one for me and I’m going to make for my penpal. Yup! I just got a penpal from Japan. I’m so excited because last time I had a penpal it was when I was in high school. Then now I have a new one. Hopefully we get to talk to each other for a long time. Well, I hope she likes the bracelet. ^-^

Here are the directions on how to make a Starburst wrapper bracelet.

And for those of you how would like a Japanese penpal! ^-^

Love always,

Panda

Current mood:  refreshed

Well its November now. LOL So far its going good. Yesterday, Halloween was alright it was my month-anniversary thing. We have 9 months together now and still going strong.^-^

But soon I have to go back to school…cuz finding a job is being a “female dog.” Plus, the weather out here in California is being a bit weird should I say. Its been really cloudy lately and windy. I just want it to be cold already.

Halloween was alright because I hung out with my bf and my friend Erica. We had fun. The day before we went to RCC [riverside community college] for their Halloween dance. It was really cool. They had a costume contest the guys and the girls. It ended up pretty interesting. if you wanna see  the videos. Visit Youtube and search for: RCC Halloween dance. And enjoy!

Well, I’m going to go on my way for the day. Well, ya’ll take care!!

Yours Truly,

Panda

Current mood: uber excited!!!

This weekend I am going to throw a casino/Vegas theme party for my boyfriend’s 22nd birthday. I’m very excited because I’m dressing up as Lady Luck for his party. LOL more like a playboy bunny version of it! I soooooooo hyper and excited about it!!! I have everything for my outfit and stuff. ^-^  The ears, fluffy tail, skirt with pinstripe, vest with pinstripe, white dress shirt, cuffs, heels, dice earrings, and a tie.

its going to be on this Saturday and I’m going to be cooking too. I’m making homemade salsa for dip and other Mexican dishes. Hopefully everything goes well. We are going to have apple pie too because my boyfriend told his mom he wanted apple pie for his birthday LOL.

But the only thing that hurts me that my boyfriend is barely working because his boss is barely able to paid him for the business is barely getting any business at all. Yesterday, we went to the supermarket and I looked over at him to realize he was starting to get very discouraged. He almost hasn’t worked for a whole week and we barely have any money lately. We’re trying to get this party going so that he can have something cherish for his birthday. Well, as in part I want him to have what he wants. But this freakin’ economy is killing alot of things. God please help us in what we need…

-Panda 

Soon Halloween is gonna be here. Yup! I wanted to cosplay as Konata from Lucky Star, but I might just end up cosplaying Yuki from Vampire Kinght again. LOL Well, from Expo. Can’t seem to really say anything much now cuz I don’t have the money right now for it…but I would love to cosplay as Konata more than Yuki. Oh, well. Time will tell.

Or?

I just want something different…ya know??? But we’ll see what happens no? LOL Obviously! Take care!

Always,

Panda

Current Mood: curious

I always heard of people making rock candy, but never really knew how it was made. And now that I have remembered…I wanna try it. ^///^

      I mean I have had it before. Its really yummers! Very sweet and the cool  part about it is how you can let it become big as you want and the color that you want as well. Sorry I know I’m becoming really excited to do this ASAP. Hopefully, soon this will be started and I’ll let you know on how it turned out. [hopefully pretty and yummy].  ^-^;;;;

Always,

Panda

I had thought that many things wouldn’t have changed by the time you really grow up. Obviously I was wrong. Completely wrong. Sickness was always cured with mom’s remedies and love. Dad’s strength helped you to keep trying or open the jar of strawberry jam. Especially, when you make your famous PB&J’s.

   Then time comes around when you become old enough to realize you have to do all this stuff. Like paying bills and having a job and going to college. Maybe you get married, maybe have kids, maybe move to a different country, and even maybe never do those things and become famous! LOL but lets get serious….

     When I really was young…I have always imagine that my father was this tall and strong man that nothing wrong could happen to him. Honestly, it came to where I believed my dad like Superman. Nothing can stand in the way of Superman, right?? With the child in me, it still believed that until I got the news that I couldn’t believe my ears. My dad was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and Prostate cancer. Both at the same time. Never thought it had happened to be true. Deep inside and as the oldest daughter, its very hard on me right now to be the strong one for my younger brother and sister. But I’ll try…

Always,

Panda

Current Mood: amused 

My boyfriend and I found this anime pretty interesting! Its called Lucky Star!!!!! LOL its really cute and it kinda reminds me of Azumanga Daioh a bit.

There’s this character named Konata [one on the right] that my boyfriend thinks matches me the most in personality. LOL When he said that I started laughing so hard because once I started paying attention to the character, she was reminding me of me. LOL  >////< LOL

      The anime is every cute almost just only about the day to day life of all these cute little girls [they’re suppose to be in high school] go through school life and their life outside of school! You’ll get some real good laughs too!

Always,

                                     Panda!

Current Mood: Love-struck 

Yes, this Panda is thinking about getting married. And seriously. What am I to do?? I get excited about it and then I get mad at myself for getting excited. What can I do about it?? LOL Well, I thought to myself that I’m never going to get over it that excitement as me being a girl. Oh well! LOL

It kinda reminds me of the day of prom. As it came near, I got more excited with each day closer. That day kinda made it feel like it was my wedding. My mom got all teary-eyed. And everything in my world had a whole new meaning…I know I’m weird. LOL. Well we’ll see what happens….

Love,

Panda

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! I cant wait anymore!!!! My boyfriend and I wanna get a pet. I have had pets before but he hasn’t. So both of us are really excited!!!!! ^-^  LOL

Well, at first we wanted a dog. But we don’t have our own place yet. So we think having a bird would be ok. And YUP as you can see…want a parakeet!!! I have had a few before and I really want one now!!!

Just the way they are small and colorful they’re they’re…JUST SO CUTE!!!!!! I love these kind of birds. If I could really choose what kind of bird I really wanted….it would illegal but I would love to have one…a penguin. A small fat one! LOL Or even a peacock! I know people do have pet peacocks but like in a ranch-like place though.

            Well, soon as we get him [yes I want a boy parakeet] and he has been added to the family…he’ll be up on my blog!!!

Take care and See ya!

Panda!

Yeah…I am. Again. Hopefully everything goes alright.

Always,

Panda

Current Mood: sad

Well, the title says it all. I miss it now.

Why does it have to be like this?????? Awwwww….

Anyway, I a whole bunch of stuff!!! I got shirts for the max $5! I stocked up on stationary like crazy and bought kitty hats too!!

I even got this artist to draw me on an Otaku I.D. Badge! It was cool. I bought a panda hat too!! Hehehe shopping there was great…

Yes, I cosplayed like I have mentioned before it was super fun!!! LOL here its is….

Here I am…LOL I had lots of fun that I wished it never ended. There was many cosplayers and they were amazing! This year I couldn’t tell what was the most popular cosplay because there was a little bit of everything there. It was awesome though!!

   Now I been thinking what the heck am I going to cosplay next year. Oh well. For those of you did go did you have fun??? let me know!!! ^-^

Love Always,

Panda!

Current Mood: Panic!  [again]

Konnichiwa!!! Haha! Now its 2 days until Anime Expo! How awesome is that??? well………

Its been kinda all chaos!!! Just bought all kinds of snacks and bottles of water. Dusted a suit case. Started packing. I still need to make sure I cut my hair to where its suppose to be and dye it once again. Take all the money out of my savings into my checking account. Pick up little bro. [Inhales deeply] AND……………………………just too much to do. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Always,

Panda a.k.a Yuki Cross [for Anime Expo]

My List is getting longer with Anime Expo getting closer…

I know you’re probably like Panda shut the hell up with Expo!!! I’m sorry but I cant! I’m so damn super duper excited!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL

I usually keep a white board near my door so that when I walk in my room I  see it. Usually my to-do-list is on it. I had to update it. LOL I “kinda” got carried away with the dry-erase markers….

I know I’m crazy > <;;;

Always the one and only,

Panda

Current Mood: thirsty 

Lately, it been really hot out here!! Then out in my job we had 2 days that the A/C was out!! My uniform was all sticking to me and it didn’t feel oh-so-great….

Then the A/C went out in my grandma’s house [where I live] and I just had to get out! LOL it felt like she had the heater on! but yeah that’s how its out here in California. Hehehe. ^O^;;;;;;

Always,

Panda