I notice that things have changed when the 1st day I reach Sunway. I feel so left out when I heard Kit telling Claudia things about he and Adeline (tracy’s friend) which I totally have no idea what was it about. Last time Kit used to tell me his stuff but now seems like someone already replaced me. I am not angry but disappointed.

Just now while I was chatting with Cheng, we talked about the release of result tomorrow and he said that he was afraid he might fail, and I asked him what subject was that and the reply I got was “AIYA YOU DON’T KNOW WAN LA”. SIGH…

I know I did not overact or being too sensitive on this phenomenon. I am really sad to see them treating me like a “HI-BYE” friend. Where were my previous “FRIENDS”?? Seems like I am losing my friends and my previous life. I always thought I am doing good right here until this few days, I know I was wrong.

My clubbing life, my besties, my outing with my clubber friends…WHERE WERE THEY?? I MISS THEM SOOOOO MUCH…I just need them back to me so badly.

My phone used to ring so often while I was in KL but now in SINGAPORE,I only accept calls from 1 person, My boyfriend!!~

Sooner or later I might be an UNKNOWN person to them. Will l?? I just hope they keep me updated time by time but unfortunately things don’t always turn out the way you want.

But I know, things happen for a reason and I truely deeply hope god does not take them away from me because they meant so much to me.

Honestly, I do not know how my life will be after this 7 months here in Singapore. Will I continue my “PLAY HARD STUDY SMART” way or continue the boring lifeless way??

I just hope to paint my life with colours, I want to experience more stuff and not making myself regret. I am only 20 this year and there are plenty of things waiting for me to explore. I am here to seek for the DO WHATEVER I WANT MINDY and never let anything to hold me back.

While I was leaving for Singapore, I felt so sad and yet so happy.  I can get to see my sweetie in 5 hours time and I will not see my family and friends in few months time. I know I will miss my friends family and KL live so much because this is the 1st time I leave KL for so long.

Although I only spend 3 days in KL this time, but I felt so happy and glad. Especially when I first met my mom, I’ve never felt so happy before because this is the 1st time she treated me so well. I know I will miss my parents so much.

But if i think the positive way that I can learn to be independent. As what people said “NO PAIN NO GAIN“. I hope I will get a valuable experience and get to know my sweetie better in this 7 months in Singapore.

I was so worry last night about the job application. I was afraid if there are no reply from any company then I will have to go back to Malaysia. And, this morning I received a call from Tan Tock Seng Hospital and they said that I am shortlisted and ask if I am still keen about the job. I’ve consider about everything and I decide to take the offer. I thought it is better than nothing.

I really don’t want to look for job and get so worry everyday. Might as well just take the offer because it is just a temporary job. I finally can work here and spend a long time with my boyfriend. =D I am so happy…huhu!!~

This is my third week here in Singapore and I am still struggling for a job. I hope I can get good news tomorrow. I am here praying hard to god, Please bless me. =( I am tired but I just cant sleep, I am just too worried. I have only 2 more weeks to go, if I am unable to get a job. Then I think I have to go back to M’sia which I don’t wish to. I want spend my 8 months here with J. I know I will miss him so badly. GOD!!~Plz help me.