I reached Kluang yesterday afternoon. I met his parents and I had my dinner there. Then, we also went for a drink at OZO. There are no clubs in Kluang, only pubs. So, all we can do is just drink and play games. I drank alot last night and I got so drunk until they need to carry me with 3 person. hahaha, that was so embarassing but I did enjoy. Lolx.. there will no be a 2nd time.

Anyway, I miss his mum’s cook. Especially her butter prawn. It was awesome. =) And, I am glad to meet his parents. His mum is friendly. hehe..=)

I just finish my paper yesterday and I am rushing to Singapore today to prepare myself for my interview on Monday.

I bought a bus ticket from a ticketing agent but he gave me the wrong ticket. I wanted a 12pm afternoon bus but he gave me a 12am morning bus. I went all the way to Bukit Jalil only I notice my ticket is a 12am bus. I was so frust and I have to go all the way back to Subang and change it. But the bus for afternoon is already sold out. So, he refund me.

Then, I went back to Bukit Jalil to get a bus ticket. I was lucky. I got a 1.30pm bus ticket.

While I was concentrating in my studies, suddenly an unknown number called me and I thought it would be my mum. Who knows, it was KENNETH!!~ Gosh…He asked if I know who is him? I answer I don’t know. And he says that he is my bf. I said my bf does not speak cantonese and so, I asked him why did he call. He says that he just drop by to say hi.

If this scene happen 2 years ago, my feelings would be extremely happy and excited. But today, my feelings can be described as USUAL. I know I have already let him go long ago. I know I will not go back to him.

I know Kenneth too well already. Whenever he calls, there must be some reason behind. The naive mindy has gone away, and Kenneth will never get the chance to cheat on her again.

He does not worth my time my effort or my money. I can still treat him as a friend, but if I found out he is trying to take me for granted. I am gonna say BYE BYE.

 I hope J will not feel sad when he knows that I did chat with him on the phone jus now. I have avoided him for 2 months already and I really didnt expect him to ring my cellphone.

I’ve tried tying myself up and avoid from clubbing. I thought I was doing great but now I know I am not. Clubbing is still my heart, I don’t know how long it will be but I know I cant live without it now.

Here am I wondering, if he want me to pick either clubbing or him. What will my decision be??

I just need a dance floor, a Rnb song and the lights off to shake my stress off. Why is that so difficult?? I am not those dirty flirty slutty girl. I just need to release my stress and this is the only place I can make myself feel better.

I don’t want to lose him as well, I really love him. But, we are apart. And I know he don’t really like it to club without him. Whenever he mention about the duration we can stay, it really freaks me off. Or maybe I should say I am the one avoiding this question.

I did not think I will give up him easily, I just put in my heart and soul. But, I cant understand why is he worrying so much. I know it’s my fault but I just cant help myself.

I really hope everything can run smoothly. It’s not easy to have 2 person in love with each other at the same time.

He told me that if I continue to stay like that, it will only brings me lots of problems not only now but also in future.  When I was watching a show, I notice an actress’s character was exactly the same like me. Now I know how terrible is my attitude. =(

I was reading an email about the sanitary napkins/pad that we all( ladies) always use.

IF u ever wondered what were the ingredients that made popular brands so
‘free! and light and carefree’, well here’s the bit:

The material that makes the pad so paper THIN, is cellulose gel. YEap,
it’s not even cotton!!!!!!

DO NOT wear the same pad for more than 3 hours of a maximum!!! After
this duration, the genital area is prone to bacterial action and may
result in cervical cancer or other complications!!!!!!!!!!

REMEMBER! NEVER NEVER NEVER

 WEAR THE SAME PAD FOR MORE

 THAN 3 HOURS!!!!

Have you heard that tampon makers include asbestos in
tampons? Why would they do this?

Because asbestos makes you bleed more, if you bleed more, you’re going
to need to use more. Why isn’t this against the law since asbestos is so
dangerous? Because the powers that be, in all their wisdom (not), did
not consider tampons as being ingested, and, therefore, didn’t consider
them illegal or dangerous.

Tampons contain two things that are potentially harmf ul: Rayon (for
absorbency), and dioxin (a chemical used in bleaching the products). The
tampon industry is convinced that we, as women, need bleached white
products in order to view the product as pure and clean. The problem
here is that the dioxin, which is produced in this bleaching process,
can lead to very harmful problems for a woman. Dioxin is potentially
carcinogenic cancer-associated)and is toxic to the immune and
reproductive systems. It has also been linked to endometriosis and lower
sperm counts for men. For both sexes, it breaks down the immune system.

I left only 9 days to finish my revision for my final paper, but there are too many negative externalities. I just cant concentrate. ARGH!!!~

I don’t have any choice. Choice is nothing to me because no matter what I must pass this paper. I don’t want to screw up everything.

I am so afraid… Is there anything I can do to make myself concentrate?? Whenever I look at the paper, my mind just go . I just need to suffer for another 9 more days then I will be FREEEEE!!!~

We had a misunderstanding again just now. He says that he just cant put those feelings away and I thought it was so unfair to me. I did not know that I explained so much and I made him misunderstand even more. I start to wonder, am I doing too much??

I thought I can make things more clear, less misunderstanding after I explain so much. But I was wrong. I always tell him the truth but this is what I got in the end??

This is turning into something that I want to hip to.

I am not blaming him, but I am just sad and disappointed. Now I finally know how hard is he trying to make me smile everytime when we argue.

I am trying to be understanding this time. I am trying REAL HARD. I am a impatient person, this time I did not screw him up it’s consider good enough already. Because I love him. I am learning how to hold my anger. I am glad I am doing well.

今日Warwick約咗我, Jess 同Adeline饮茶. 原本想study唔想出街,不過Warwick 话拜六要去Birmingham 喔,咁所以我就答应咗佢.

 初初我地去到SS18 Bazaar 买D野食, 跟住去SUKU 饮茶.

我地好耐冇一齊食飯,饮茶,講笑囉.不過大家仍然有點似當年話今日懷念講d搞笑事.

後來轉眼過咗2Hours, 我就諗住走. 佢地都话Okie. Warwick就送我返先.

今日既mood唔好, 宜家諗到自己問題多到發癲.

你估我真咁鍾意諗咩??

Final exam 期又到啦,不過冇信心有冇得Pass. Jie 話咪成日Online, 要记得Study. Exam 搞到我日日瞓得唔好. 气死我啦!

新加坡D工唔知得冇得到, 又冇叫我去 Interview. 

又唔用E-MAIL通知人!!!  想我點呀 ??? =(

想整死我咩??

I just came back from steamboat and movie with jess and cheng. When I got home, the first thing in my mind is to on my msn to see my sweetie. But he did not reply me so I thought he was sleeping. I rang him and he picked up, answered me with a sleepy voice. He says that he is sleeping so I just wish him goodnight.

He suddenly bump up infront of my screen, I thought he wanted to chat but he says he want to get back to sleep. I felt so sad and lonely in a sudden. I don’t know why. It’s hard to explain. I finally understand how it feels to be alone infront of the screen. I just miss him soooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!~ =’(

I was looking through my friendster and I click on Cheng’s account. I saw his convocation pictures. I really wish I could turn back time so I will not fail my FOA.Everyone is going futher for Advance or even Degree but I am still wasting my time here resiting this stupid paper.

 I miss my days in DMK. I have the best classmates, best coursemate and even the best hang out gang. They were helpful, supportive, funny, outgoing, caring, cooperative and the most important thing is we share the bads n goods. Aint like the other groups, they gossips among each other. I felt so lucky that I was arranged to be in this group.

At first I don’t really stick with those girls because I am not really welcome by them. I’ve always have my gang which is with the guys. They treated me like their buddy and they took care of me very well. Althought they always insult me but I know they are just trying to make fun of me. Later on, I get along quite well with the girls and I found out they are not as bad as I thought.

Besides that, I get to know a few guys from group 3. They treated me very well too. We always study in a group at Boy’s house whenever finals is around the corner. We even go clubs together. hehehe..

I really miss those days with DMK 1 and 3. Those time when we used to giggle and burst of laughing in class. If I have a second chance to choose, I will definately choose DMK 1 also.

 Just one word for DMK group 1..they are AWESOME!!!~

Far distance relationship is really hard to keep. Maybe you guys can only meet once in few months. That is really hard!!!!~so so so so hard…You cant meet when you miss your partner, cant hug, kiss or even spend time for the mall. You cant be like the normal couples, spend time with partner for most of the time.

Far distance relationship needs alot of toleration, trust and understanding. Now I finally understand how tough it is. You just have to control ur feelings. When you feel like hugging or kissing your partner, you know you cant have it. That’s so sad..sigh…=(