I just came back from Genting Klang. I am very tired but yet I am very happy because although only 18 people attend but we still have fun.

V really enjoyed ourself because it’s been a long long time we did not meet up and joke around. This gathering was organized by me and it’s consider a successful party.

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Some of them are busy eating while we are busy taking pictures. Well, you know la, GIRRRLLLSSS!!~ (”,)

(Left to right,Pic above) San, Jie and me

Cheng and I

We are the CRAZIEST Marketing student ever..hehehe..I miss our 2 years memories…

Sometimes things happen for a reason and if you put it in the positive way, you might feel better. But, that does not mean you won’t feel bad at the same time. It depends on how you deal with the problem. In the matter of fact, people will surely feel bad and miserable first then only they try to figure out a way to make themself  feel better. I, personally will feel miserable and sad for just a small little things and I am trying to think positive, it makes me feel better and not over obsess.Or, I could say I am very low in my EQ. =(

WHAT IS AN EQ??

EQ is Emotional Intelligence Quotient and it is used to measure Emotional Intelligence. EQ describes an ABILITY, CAPACITY, or SKILL to perceive and manage the EMOTIONS of one’s self or others.

How would you feel when your bestie hide something from you?? How would you feel when you found out you are the very last to know?? I am trying my best to advise myself, telling myself not to take this too serious. Maybe I should learn how to take things easy.

WHAT IS THE GOSSIP GIRL TV SERIES ABOUT??

–> Gossip Girl talkes about the upper-class privilege and wealth of prep school teens on Manhattan’s Upper East Side — a world where secrets are hard to keep with the all-knowing Gossip Girl , a blogger with an unknown identity, following and recording their every move.

FEATURING:-

Blake Lively as Serena Van Der Woodsen

Lighton Mester as Blair Waldorf

Taylor Momsen as Jenny Humphrey

 Keeping track of the shifting friendships, jealousies and turmoil in this wealthy and complex world isn’t easy, but it’s what Gossip Girl does best.

THAT’S WHY EVERYONE LOVES

x0×0: Gossip Girl

Chace Crawford as Nate Archibald ( yeah I know He is cute!!)

Ed Westwick as Chuck Bass

Penn Badgley as Dan Humphrey

The reason I adore GOSSIP GIRL is bcause it is scandalous, Glamourous and the characters are SIZZLING HOT and GORGEOUS. I believe every one of us would like to be like one of the characters, which have a perfect life, partner and friends. And not forgetting: POPULAR!!!!~

There’s a “GOSSIP GIRL” living inside every one of us….(”,)

This is the 1 and only pic we both take. Yeah it’s kinda weird but that’s the fact. Maybe he doesnt want anyone to know about us. Yesterday he called me in a sudden, asking me can I pick him up from Pudu. Well, I am not a driver or a slave you know? Why am I suppose to go to you whenever you need me?? I am not the silly girl anymore. And so I decided to ignore his call and messages and went to bed.

The weird thing is, I had a dream about him last night. I was hospitalise due to cancer in that dream. And my friend King brought him out and speak to him. Asked him to treat me better as I am “LEAVING” soon. (TOUCHWOOD!!!) He really did treat me better after that, but it was just a dream. When I was awake, I saw his message, asking me whether wanna go out for a drink last night. It’s weird isn’t it?? Everything happened in a sudden. I doubt he really want to have a drink with me.

But, I don’t have the intention to reply him because I want him to know I am MYSELF, for now and forever.

The twin brother and us, hanging out at Sunway Pyramid for dinner. Then, We continue our second round with CE and friends to Cineleisure for movie. We wanted to watch X-Files but it’s full!!~ So we were forced to watch Kung Fu Hip Hop. It was disappointing. Especially the last part when Jordan held his whole body with 1 THUMB!!! It’s really ridiculous…I should have save that 10bucks for another better movie. =(

I did not sleep well because my mind is turning round and round. This is what we call STRESS!!!~ The worst part was when I get to sleep then I had nightmare. What is the nightmare about??

Hmm..it’s about Jess. I dreamed about her, telling Ade about her stuff and Raymond. She even remind Ade not to tell me because I cannot be trusted, I will spread news around. Then, in the morning when I woke up. I felt so real. But, honestly, I am really scared if Jess really thinks I’m like that. I would definately get a heart broken. I hope it’s not real and it’s just a dream.. It makes my day so miserable again…sigh…

Anyway, I’ve already think about yesterday’s problem and I have my answer in mind. I am confirm with my answer because I notice I really need him by my side..cause I loved him..

Birthday celebration of Hao and Kit at Coco Banana tonight is a must for me to attend, because they  meant alot to me. I was alone just now because all my girls did not turn up. The others are searching for partners and own entertainment. But I was sitting there and drink. The one I did not expected suddenly turned up.

When party begins, people start to get high and shake their asses. Dirty dance is definately included. Then the so called “MK”  went to the dance floor and get wet. Dancing like it’s no one’s business.

Have you ever felt happy and miserable at the same time?? The mood was totally in a mess. It was simple and yet so complicated. I should really get rid of this. I thought I’ve gone thru this all this while but I finally notice I am not. I am still standing at the same old position. Maybe I should learn how to appreciate what I have and be satisfied, Never ever demand too much. Since I know things so clearly then I shouldn’t let myself repeat the same mistake. When desire are impossible to achieve and dreams are impossible to reach, then you should learn how to let go. There are lots of things in this world that you can’t have it all. Being greedy will only bring you ZERO in the end!!~ Never play games with a player who can play better.

I have a story to share…

There’s a retarded bird learned how to fly, during the learning period, it fell for a few times. It hurts alot but the bird really enjoy the feeling of flying in the air. Then, now the bird is afraid of making the first move to fly again because this time it might break it’s wing and she will never be able to fly again. She can only stay in her nest now.. so, Will you choose for a short excitement with pains or a smooth and easy live??

BEFORE PARTY..

WHILE PARTYING…

AFTER PARTY!!!~

KIT IS DRUNK…(I know I know, it looks horrible..)

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Another drunk man..ah bee..

On Monday, I’ve already sense that J and Ray got some problem but I wished I was wrong. But unfortunately, it already happen. They broked up on saturday night after Genting. I don’t know is it whether D broked up that’s why J also thought of ending up her relationship. Ray is explaining to me, he says that he is sorry for J. He really got no time for her and this few days already left her out.

I just don’t know why am I crying for J. I can imagine the pain she is going thru. I know how hard is she handling her feelings, she looks tough on the outside but definately not in the inside. She always keep things by her own. I just hope she can share her sorrow with us. She know we will always be there for her, and will always have a shoulder for her to lean on. She has been crying for the past few days and we are still clueless.

I text her just now and she is still act nothing, I told her I’ve already know everything and she told me she is as strong as I thought. She’s the one broke up but the silly me is crying for her. This has not happen in my life before, maybe this shows how much I care for her.

If you looked inside a girl, you would see how much she cries, you would find so many secrets and lots of lies but what you’ll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.

I am just sad. I didnt want this to happen to my friends.
1ST- D
then,
2ND- J

Who’s gonna be next?? Will it be Ade?? She’ve been complaining bout her relationship. I really don’t wish to see this.

I am an emotional girl. Even a small little things can make my day turn grey. That’s what happen today. My mood can easily be affected by my loves one. I really care for my besties because they are the one who make me who I am today. I will never trade them for anything.

My little princess Wing Sze went back to Germany on the 15. I really miss her. This little girl has a mixture of Hong Kee and Malaysian blood. And she was born in Germany. Here is a few picture of her when came to Malaysia for her holidays.

 When she is the age of 3

SHE IS ADORABLE ISNT IT???

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SHE LOVE THIS LIL PUPPY ALOT, SHE ASKED IF SHE COULD BRING HER BACK TO GERMANY..haha..

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WE WERE IN PIZZA HUT, HAVING OUR LUNCH..=)

 HER FAVOURITE PASS TIME, EATTTTTT!!!~ hahaha…Anyone notice there’s a little flower on her head?? =P

 3Hours BEFORE she left for Germany….

Yesterday we had a bbq party at pendek’s clubhouse. It was quite fun because Denise can hardly join us. She drove her Mazda MX-5 to the clubhouse. I got the chance to bump in to her car and went around LDP highway. The feeling was AWESOME!!!~While we are enjoying the food, suddenly Adeline brought out some chocolate cupcakes and put on candles, then she gave me everything. And the sang birthday song to me. My birthday is 1 month ahead LERR..lolx..Because we can hardly gather like that, that’s why they celebrate an advance birthday for me. I am quite touched althought they are rude to me, they don’t even give me the chance to make my birthday wishes then they already snatch all those cupcakes and eat it. Lolx..I AM THE BIRTHDAY GIRL k?? no respect at all..sigh =P. I am still happy for the effort they put in..=) *giggles*

 Then, the bbq held for about 4 hours plus. Adeline suggested to go Genting after the BBQ. All of us agreed, including Denise. Denise seldom join us, at first she planned to go find Ruca after the BBQ but she sacrifice for Adeline.  I thought it might be another memorable night but who knows, Ruca suddenly called Denise and say he wants to end the relationship. SIGH!!~ Y must he say this now?? It’’s not the right time man..Althought I am happy today but I feel bad for Denise. I know she sure cry alone at home. But I know Denise is strong enough to handle this. What can the girls do?? Just to pray hard and bless hard for her. I just hope Denise know that actually ME, J, A, and C really cares for her and she can just ring us anytime when they need us…

Love my girls and thanx alot everyone who wished me yesterday..hehe..MUAXX!!~ (”,)

Yesterday while I was with Kit hao and claudia, suddenly claudia told me actually Kit do contact wit “her“. I was shocked and kinda curious, so i looked thru Kit’s hp. I found out actually “she” did volunteer to join Kit they all for a drink or something. I really didn’t know “SHe” would do that.But honestly it’s none of my business so I will just act like I don’t know anything.

Actually I was a little sad because last time me and Kit used to talk about EVERYTHING…I mean EVERYTHING!!!!~ But unfortunately, now he keep everything to himself. Now I know actually he knows alot of stuff but he just don’t want to show it. I was quite happy when Kit told me I did changed alot after I hooked up wit Jye. He says that I am a loyal and behave gf. I did not club, did not smoke did not drink now and less night outing also. I don’t know whether this is a good thing or not because it seems like I am changing to a different person which I am not. I don’t want to rely on jye, I want to be independent and I don’t want to act like someone else. I just want to be myself. An hour ago, I told Jye yesterday we played kissing game and he sounds a little unhappy and I know I shouldnt have done this. But it’s just a game and this are the things MINDY do..I am crazy fun and outgoing but now, I am just like daddy’s girl. The PROTECTED one. sigh!!~  Now I know how difficult to maintain both friendship and relationship. I know I should not play those games since I am no longer single, but I just want to be sporting. Even Alicia and Ridzuan(couple) played with us.

I just don’t know why I felt like crying when I heard Jye say he miss me. Maybe I felt sorry for him?? I have no idea. I just feel so down now. Maybe I am too selfish, it seems like I am doing things that satisfy myself and did now aware of my partner’s feelings. Am I doing the right thing??

Tonight, there will be a BBQ party going on at Pendek’s clubhouse. I just don’t feel like going suddenly. Just feel like staying at home, listen to the music and get some rest. I just feel like chilling my mind. I am really stress..I have too much worries. I was wondering, how can D just hang out only wit R?? She just stick to him 24/7, how did she do that?? I was quite impress actually. She can just forget about us sometimes. But, as long as she is happy, the girls would be happy for her too. The 5 of our heart always stick together will do.

Althought I am very close with the 4 of them, but sometimes I would rather keep my deep feelings inside. I just don’t know how to speak out sometime. Sometimes you just need to solve your own little matter by yourself. I’ve been so dependent all this while and I should grow up now. Why am I writing an “ESSAY” now is because I really don’t know who else to turn to. I need a patient and good listener, Yes!!~ my little hello kitty. I am having a MISERABLE day. sigh..=(

It’s 5.06am now and it is officially July 19 today. I just arrive home 30minutes ago after my supper at Silva. At first I went for dinner with Claudia,kit,Hao,chinren and Dilian at Asia cafe. That was nothing special, actually we planned to catch up a movie after dinner but unfortunately the movie we wanted to watch is all FULL!!~ So, Chinren and Kit planned to drink(alcohol) at somewhere nearby. At last they set the venue at Ah bee’s house. Claudia does not want to join so Kit brought her home.

Bee,Kit,Hao,Me,Dilian,Alicia and Rizuan hang out at Ah bee’s house since 11pm. It started with some drinks and shots, then chin ren suggested to play some games. We played Big fish small fish, 007 and Kissing game. It was totally crazy and yet it’s fun!!!!!!~ Chin ren was the biggest loser of the big fish small fish game.He is really silly and his mind move really slow,Luckily he is there to cover my place or else I think I might be the biggest loser..hahaha..Chin ren got drunk because he lost continuosly 4-5times..hahahaha

 While the kissing game, nobody lose or win. But we need to kiss the person who have the same number like urs!!~ yeah I did get to kiss guy and girls but it’s just a GAMMMMEE!!!~ SO, no big deal bout it..even Alicia and Rizuan are couple but they are sporting too. Let’s give a clap to them =). We started with kissing at the cheeck, and they want something more challenging, so we moved on to lips-to-lips!! (”,) I get to kiss every each of them..LOLX!!! And same goes to them, the sweetest part was when alicia and Rizuan both got the same number, They were asked to FRENCH kiss infront of us..hahaha… And the funniest part was when Kit and Chinren need to kiss infront of us..CHin ren is really cute and he is really a joker to me.. =P 

Time passes fast, We spent about 4 hours at Bee’s house but it seems like an hour to us. It was really fun and memorable..hehehe…it’s been a long time I did not burst out laughing like no one is around. I think I almost lost an inch at my tummy for the vibration from my laughter…hahahahhahahahaha                                                                                             

kGOOD MORNING to everyone…I recovered from my fever and I felt luckily for not having a Dengue fever. But unfortunately, I still have a little sore throat. Well, I hope it won’t bother me for too long. It’s sooooo painful. I cant even swallow my own saliva!!!~ omg…what the hell is going on..

This morning when I woke up, I found myself having high fever. It just come so sudden. I really feel so dizzy and warm. Then, I took a hot bath and took 2 panadols before I went to bed and rest. I don’t want to fall sick because I still need to work tomorrow and having a BBQ party on saturday.. ARGHH!!~

My mum even suspect I got Dengue fever. I was so afraid. Anyway, I do feel painful on my bones. Oh god..plz don’t.!!~ I really don’t want a Dengue fever. It’s really torturing…god bless!!~ =(

This is the dengue mosquito

Do you people agree with “HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY“?? Last time I do agree with this, but now I don’t really agree with this. why?? Because sometime it’s better to tell white lies than being honest. An hour ago, J rang me. We were chatting happily and suddenly he bump out a question asking me have I ever *MUAX* a guy in the club. Well, last time I used to be a hardcore party people and everything I do is just from my heart. I just do whatever I want. Kissing a guy in the club wasnt a big deal for me and yes!! that guy is an european.When I am answering J, I was thinking of hiding this issue because I know he might think I am toooo openminded and bitchy. But unfortunately, the voice inside me is pushing me to tell the truth and so I did. It happened 4 years ago and I can swear to god that it was my first and the last time. I know, J don’t really trust me now and I am quite disappointed. After I came back from Singapore, I did not go to clubs. It’s because I want to gain trust from him and at the same time I do not want his friend to think I am a party hard people. I know it’s time to change, change to turn up in the club lesser because I am no longer single. It’s all about RESPECT.But, my honesty break down all my efforts . I don’t know whether I did the right thing just now. Or maybe if I did not tell him the truth just now, I can gain a little more trust from him?? 

 RESPECTing your partner is important. Last time when I am still with Pab, I notice that we both did not take the effort to respect each other and did not communicate well. He is a muslim(no pork) and I am a buddhist(no beef). He is not allow to eat pork and he was hoping that I do not take pork before our date. I was quite annoyed by the way he tells me, I thought he should be pay some respect to me. I admit I am a stubborn person. If he did not tell me that, I might have done it by my own. But after he told me that, I felt like he is forcing me so I respond in a impolite way. I was like “Okie, I did not take pork infront of you and you did took beef infront of me. Maybe you should pay a little respect to me. I think I am kind enough to not munching pork infront you!!“  Maybe if we both really do communicate well, we will not have this kind of conflict. I’ve learned from my mistake and that’s why I am respecting J and do things that are not beyong his limit. But after all this effort, what I gained is NOTHING. This really make me tears. Honestly, it does. =’(

Just now while I was checking my friendster, I saw Wei Chien updated his profile and I was curious about his lately activities, so I decided to view his profile. I found nothing special in his page but his blog reminds me of the past. After that incident, we did not speak to each other until TODAY!!!~ I’ve tried so many remedies but none of it seem to work. All this while I do not feel good, the feeling of losing a friend is really uncomfortable. He can just treat me like I’m invisible, so I did the same. I know my personality is a little like his. Last time I used to think, if he don’t apologize or speak to me, I won’t neither. But now I know I really care for this friend, should I make the first move and speak to him AGAIN?? sigh..Maybe I should try for the one last time. I’ve already put down my ego and speak to him. I hope he don’t take me for granted.Everything has a limit, and my patient too.

I just reached home from an outing with my chiqs and junior. Me, D, Jess,Clau went to Sushi King just now for dinner, and we went to visit R at the same time. Well, he is a training manager there and so he served us. We ate like a hungry ghost…hmmm…I guess we ate about 15-20plates of sushi and it cost us only Rm50. Don’t ask me why..you should know why. haha..=P

this is just the beginning..after that we reorder again n again…=P

After that, Digimon and A came and fetch us. We are going for dessert with ce and Allan. It took us about 20minutes to Klang for just a bowl of “Tong Yuen”. Then, ce complaint that he is hungry. So, we decided to accompany him for dinner and we drove all the way back to Subang again. It seems like the price hike of petrol is not a matter to them. Lolx. Although it’s not a special outing but I still feel happy.

Then, this evening. J told me that his family members know about me and him. He says that they comment about me,saying that I am chubby, playful and etc… His brother did ask him don’t we feel difficult to maintain this long distance relationship. Well, what I thought is maybe they are in doubt about me. They might think I am playful and just want to try something new,but all I can do is to prove to them by action. I know J care for my feelings and he thought I mind what his family comment about me, I wasnt sad or disappointed.Indeed, I am glad that his family did not say anything harsh. That’s good enough for me already.(”,) Although I am a little afraid of meeting his family but I am really looking forward to meet them.

Just now I sms my tequila ex supervisor and asked next week when can I work. He told me that I only need to work for 2 days next week. It really freaks me off because I really need that job although i really hate it. But that’s the only job that I can work for short hours and get a higher pay. I am struggling now as I am afraid i might not get enough cash for my trip. Sigh..i am confuse and clueless…sigh..=’(

Well, everyone knows we cant live without $$$. Money is not everything but it is SOMETHING!!!~ I planned to visit Singapore on August. I will be spending 3 weeks there and will be back after my birthday. Now, the only problem is my purse. I think that 3 weeks will really burn my pocket a hole. I’m searching for jobs that are high pay and short working hours as i need to study for my finals. I don’t want to complain all this to Jye because I trouble him too much d..He spent too much on me and his financial is tight this month.

Sigh..i really need to deal with my own problem this time..=’(