I went to 1U with B. First we went to Dragon-i for a light dinner and then we went for a movie. Was quite nice chatting with him at first. Then, after the movie ends, He requested to go back to the shop to get something. I was so naive because i thought he wants to go to the 7-E. We sat down at the sofa and chat. Half an hour passed, he suddenly held his hand over my shoulder and lie my body on his chest. I immediately push his hand away. I felt so uncomfortable because it’s like disrespecting me. He ruined the 1st date. I’m really disappointed on his act. When I reached home, he did apologize to me.

I went to Inked studio with Claudia and Betty. We are ready to get our belly pierced. I was so excited because I really want my belly pierced long ago. I was the first one to get that piercing because claudia and betty was too afraid, afraid it might hurts. But to me, it was pain-free. (”,)

Benny says it need 2-3 months to heal. I wished it can heal before my Redang trip, so i can change to a new belly ring..=)

By the way, it was a good experience. It was totally different from tongue piercing.

When i got back home, Benny send me a message. And we chat for awhile. He asked me out on a date with him tomorrow and i agreed. Just an outing for a movie.

My final exam is around the corner and I was hoping to graduate successfully. All I want is to continue my studies to advance diploma. Who can tell me what will happen next?? =P I just don’t want to disappoint my parents and myself. I will try my best to give out my best shot.

Anyway, yesterday Mindy was chatting with him. He says that he does not miss or love Mindy. She was sad after hearing him saying that. But, he then explain to her. He respect every relationship that’s why he take words seriously. He did not say he miss or love her does not mean he do not feel that way. He just want her to feel the love by her own, not by his words. He also ask Mindy why is she feeling so but still in doubt. Actually he was right, she did feel so but she just want him to say it to her. She just want a confirmation, but now she does not need it anymore because as he said, she feel the love is enough. It is more than words. Action speaks louder than words. I agree with that statement. He always have his way of explaination or thought, that is his attractive part.

I just cant wait to go to the beach with him. What sweet memories will we have during the vacation?? I don’t want to expect much. I just go with the flow. Countdown in 66days. (”,)

Yesterday I was chatting with J thru the sms. He came back to Malaysia already. He went movie with his friend at around 11.30pm, so his movie is suppose to end at around 1am. I thought he will text me after his movie but i waited for so long, my phone did not ring at all. So, I decided to text him. I send him a simple message and he say he is having a drink with his friend. He say “chat later”. I just don’t know why I felt heart ache after reading that. I felt like he does not care about me. At that moment I was asking myself what if now we are couple. And I know I will be frust because he does not want to chat with me but when I cool down myself, I notice actually he was not wrong. He is just chilling with his friends and I need to give him some space. Everyone need some space and i shouldnt expect him to be right with me 24/7. I felt better after thinkingthe rational way. I am glad I am more mature than before.

After that, I just reply him telling him to enjoy and have a sweet dreams later, I went to bed after sending him that message because i was tired and sleepy. Today morning when i woke up, he drop me a few messages. I felt better after that. Felt very happy because it shows that he does care for me.

Just now at around 1 something in the afternoon, J ring me. We chat thru the phone for awhile. I was so shy. haha.. Although we were talkless but I still feel sweet. =) J is always acting tough and cool in the outside, but I know he still need someone to cares for him. He still want someone to love and pamper him. He is a shy guy but he just cover the real him. Even J didnt tell me all this but I can sense it.

Mindy do know long distance relationship doesnt last too long but she just don’t want to face the fact. All she want is to get with J. But he is very rational, he advise her again and again. Telling Mindy to let it be natural, telling Min to concentrate in her studies. He says that they might get together but not now. He says it happens at the wrong time wrong place. She tells him she will wait and he stop her to do so. Although she know waiting is torturing, but besides waiting she got no idea what else to do. He says if one day Mindy found someone she love, just go ahead while he will just be alone.

J said long distance relationship is hard to keep because if Mindy or J need him/her, he/she are not able to be by his/her side. That’s unfair to both party. Mindy also agree with him but Mindy is selfish. She never think of the future. All she want is just to get with J. He told her that she should concentrate in her studies first because that is the most important thing to her. She can talk about love after she finish her studies in 2 years time while J can concentrate in his work and achieve something. He says until then if they both still passionate for each other then they might just try to get along.

Mindy is clueless now. She does not know what to do. Maybe J is right. She should concentrate in her studies first. J ask Mindy for a favour. Asking her to concentrate in her studies and get a good gred for this last semester, when she finish exam and have her holidays, J will explain and tell her more.

Anyway, J did ask Mindy why she did not accept those guys who approach her. Mindy did not answer his question. Actually, the reason is because..they are not J. They can’t give Mindy like how J gave it to her. The feelings are so different. How can they replace J?? IMPOSSIBLE…

Jojo’s elder bro, Jiat. Dated me today, I was not so willingly to go out but I’ve already promise to go with him. So, I was thinking maybe I just take it as an outing with a friend. Honestly I have no feelings towards him and i’ve already told him. He said he wish i  could give him a chance. Today,We planned to go for a movie, before that he brought me to Shogun( Japanese buffet) for dinner. It cost about Rm70 per person. =P Then, after movie he also bring me to Laundry bar for a drink. We went home around 2am. Jiat paid the bills for all the expenses tonite. That’s very sweet of him but I don’t feel very happy hanging out with hIm, he is nice n caring but he is not my type. I’ve already have “HIM” in mind and I dint want to think about others.

Anyway, Jiat was the 1st guy treated me so good during the 1st outing. He even bought me soft toys..hmm…he is a good bf for sure but I just don’t have the feelings towards him..