We went to Maison. WC didnt even wanna look at me. The whole night he ignored me and so i went to find Tom, Ric, Fred and Left. DOesnt wanna c his face. But somehow I still have fun. Got to snap some pics with Ric and Left. 

Besides that, the whole nite jiat was following me here and there. He says he is worry bout me. He dated me and bought me gifts. I don’t have feelings towards him and so i told him i have sumone in mind already. He asked me to give him a chance. But still glad he treat me that good.

She know J used to b so rude and cool is because he is afraid she fall for him one day. And it really happens. She just felt nice, comfortable and secure with him. He said he feels comfortable with her but he don’t dare to think about love. Distance set them apart. The night was so miserable and tears were falling while reading his message. J said he never regret knowing her, and so does she. J also said that he is so near yet so far, she is from planet and he is from mars. He says that she should stay in planet and visit mars once in awhile, he will always welcome her. Those words are nice to hear by the ears not the heart. She just love the way he cares and handle things. He is not a jerk. He will never be one to her. Believes me!!~ She will never wanna say goodbye to him.

All she needs is a break, She is tired of love. Will she be loved??

 J says he just want Mindy to b happy. He is making Mindy cry.. Tears were falling non stop..*SOB SOB*

Just now I went to Barcelona to meet J and Poly. Poly was dead drunk and J was busy hunting for me in the club. Haha..that’s so funny of him. He is as cute as i thought and as friendly as usual. Nice meeting him. I ask him for a favour, I asked if he could drop me home. Then, after clubbing we went for a drink. I just met them for about 1 hour plus. hmm..that’s so short. Poly was so cute when he is drunk. He is soooo blurr and he poke everywhere..That’s scary!!~ hahaha..anyway, i did take a few pictures with J. Hope to meet them soon again. Miss them!!~ (”,)

I thought I could have a wonderful night today but it seems like is worst than i thought. WN thinks that she does not have me with her in clubs will still be the same. Okie, that’s fine. Then don’t ever invite me to club with her anymore. She get to know S it’s also because of  me. Anyway, I think S fall for her already. Yeah, I feels hurt but I am over it now. He does not worth my care. He is not gentlement at all. Although I knew Tom and Ric for less than a month but they are so gentlement to me, they brought me drinks and chat with me. That’s so kind of them, aint like S. The whole night S is just walking around and chatting with WN, he left me there all alone. sigh!!~ Luckily Freddrick is friendly enough to come over and chat with me. He is more friendly than i thought. And he is soooo cute!!!~

When we are about to go home, Tom insist to fetch us home as it’s too dangerous to get a cab home at that time. That’s so kind of him. Although he is one year younger but I still admire this part of him. SO gentlement and caring. I feel so bad to trouble him and I am so thankful to have him that night. S only cares how WN goes home. sigh..what a failure!!~

Now..I am over him and wish him good luck. Does not what to get involve between S and WN. It’s enough for me.

Freddrick and i

TOM AND I

I have no idea what should I do that’s why I search for help from Jess and Pyang. Jess advised me to wait and Pyang asked me to text him more often since he is a shy guy. Waiting is really torturing. Sigh..tired of guessing..

Anyway, I really find myself enjoy chatting with J. He is just sooooo NICE!!! He pampers me sometimes, make me laugh and make me smile, makes me feel so comfortable. Although I have not meet him in person but I really wish to.

I woke up this morning and I start to think about Soon. I just can’t control myself. After I took my lunch, I just walk around in my house searching for something to do to keep my mind off S!!~ But I end up lying on my bed listening to some music. I am thinking what should I do now, approach him or keep myself off him?? I felt so emotional and feel like crying. The next minute, It reminds me of VJ. He is always there to make me laugh when I don’t even want to smile. There was once I text him and thank him, although he reply me in a rude way but I know he is just trying to hide the soft side of him. He always teach me and guide me in life. How should I thank him?? He always there for me when i need someone. I am so glad I have him. I doesnt want to lose J, doesnt want to say goodbye to him.

Yesterday was ladies night and I went to Maison with a few bunch of friends. My classmates, Rhu, Ashley, Wilson and also S. I introduced S to Nana since she is so desperate to know him. Nana was so excited when I intro her to S. Then, S’s friend came and join us. I get to know a few of his friends. Tom is one of them, he is a nice and cheerful guy. Bobo is the one who is interested with Tom. Besides that, I did have a little time chatting with Ric. Ric is a little too self confident and don’t really like him. I felt like he came over to hang out with us is because he is jealous with S. But anyway, no harm making friends. That is what i thought.S is a shy guy. I knew that and he does not chat much with nana at first. But, after that he did whisper to her and I don’t know why I feel ache in my heart. Now, I don’t know whether I intro him to nana is a right decision. Today, I saw he and nana chatting in friendster. Leaving tons of messages. That hurts my feeling even more. What can I do to overcome this feelings?? I don’t know what to do to express my feelings. Even nana does not know I have feelings towards him. I am afraid to express my feelings to S. I remember there was once I just text him a normal message and he thought I was drunk, he asked me not to think too much. I felt like he just want me to be his friend and nothing beyond. I just felt uneasy and heart-ache when Nana and friends keep on mentioning bout S. I am tired. I does not know what to do.

I am afraid if I tell him the truth, because it might ruin our friendship like how me and WC experience it. I does not want to lose a friend again. It’s been a long time I don’t have those heart ache feelings in Love. My heart was numb for a year. I just don’t understand why those guys I admire does not want to give me a chance, while those I don’t like keep on approaching me.

 SAN,BOBO, MARIA, ME, NANA

SOON AND I

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TOM AND I

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RHU AND I

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Here I am, wondering if i am a lousy friend? I still don’t understand why I am facing so many friendship problems? Or I am not good enough in handling problems? On Tuesday night, I make the 1st move to text WC. I told him i don’t want our friendship just disappear like that. I value our friendship that is why I took the efford to make the 1st move. What makes me text him so sudden?? Have you ever experience a friend of yours just walked pass you as if you does not exist?? Or act like you and him are strangers? That’s what I am experiencing now. But, all he told me is he does not want to talk about it and he says he need time to chill himself. Yeah, I can understand his feelings. But, cant he just make it not so obvious?? I don’t want the whole class to know that we are having problems.

Now, WC does not even want to reply my message. It seems like he is serious to end this friendship. Honestly I am very sad about it. But, I just don’t want to force him. That is his decision, I hope as time passes by, he will come back one day.

This morning while I was working, WC suddenly sms me and ask me whether i still remember what he told me at Maison. I still remember, is about telling me he is in love with me and ask if i would give him a chance. Then today, he ask me whether i treat him like how i treat others or I am only treating him that good.He say my action makes him misunderstand, he wish i could cut it down. ISH!!!~ what is this man, is this what i should receive for treating one good?? Okie, if he does wish so then i will respect and just do like what he wished. But, i just wonder how come he suddenly ask me those question. Did Jennerd told him something that she shouldnt?? Sigh!!~ but whatever it is, it already happen and it’s over..just let it be.. This morning i felt so miserable, I just cant wait to party during the night.

Luckily, the night at Barcelona did not disappoint me. Haha…I had so much fun there with my sweethearts. At first we went to BORNEO RAINFOREST for a drink, then around 11 only we  walk to Bar celona. It’s ladies night tonight so ladies walk in for free..While we are going to Borneo rainforest, Soon sms me. But i deleted his number because i don’t want to sms him until he make the first move and he did. So i asked who is him, he replied me and said I “mou sam” because I don’t have his number. He didnt know I did it in purpose. He actually text me to ask if I am going to Maison, and Ireplied him I am not. I don’t know I should feel happy to see his message or not. Anyway, it’s glad to see his message. At least he did not ignore me..

I was exhausted that’s why I did not go anywhere today. I just went out yam char with Jess, Choong Eu, and Siong. We even went to the Puchong hill. Just to have a look at the view of Subang. Derrick came with his friend after that. We chit chat for awhile and we left at 5.30am. Hmm, you know what?? While I was on my way to Hartamas, VJ sms me. He say he is bored!!~ WOW!!~ that’s the first time he text me automatically. Surprisingly…that’s so cool…hahaha.. I was quite happy actually but I did not reply him because my phone was out of credit. I wonder, Did me message me because he misses me?? hahahaha…I hope he is… =P