I just came back from Bar club, KL. Choong Eu was a little frust on Allen and Hun Yan because they went to the wrong club and uses their money to open 3 bottles!!!~ Me and Jess really pity Allen and Hun Yan but we can understand how does Choong Eu feels. He need to take a huge responsibility on this, he doesn’t know how to face his friends as he bring lots of problems to them. Besides that, David is the one who pays the most tonight. I feel bad for Choong Eu also, Me and Jess did convince him not to be angry with Allen and Hun Yan but we both were scolded by him. Then, after we reached home, Choong Eu called and apologize.

Choong Eu was frust at Pei Chew also because he purposely go back to Subang and fetch her and Jeremy but when he almost reach her house, She phoned him and told him she is not going already.

I really don’t know what to say. But somehow tonight was not too bad although alot of things happen. We still enjoy ourself!!~ (”,

I just came back from Bar celona. My mood totally screw everything up. I went there was actually because Meiling wants to pay me the balance that she owed me. But, end up i got NOTHING!!~ Guess what? when i reached there, I saw Pab. He was holding a malay chiq’s hand. I WAS SHOCKED!!~ I was so frust. I wonder what is the feeling between holding my hand and her hand?? It is all about flirting?? I know, he is trying to make me jealous. But I am not, I am just disappointed. That girl is not even his gf, every guy from that table did hug her before. OKIE, What i hate the most about him is, Everytime when he met me and my friends in club. He will want to challenge them in dancing as he is quite good in it. He wants to show me that he is really attractive and he is the best. Please stop those bullshits!!~ I DON’T LIKE IT, IN FACT I HATE IT ASSHOLE!!!~

The whole night I was just hanging around at Kit’s table because I really don’t want to mix with Meiling’s friend. Every of them took pills and I really hate it. I am moody for the entire night. Then, Kit’s friend broke a glass. In a sudden, I felt like taking those broke glasses and cut myself. I just feel like dying.

When all of them went to the dance floor, I was asking myself why don’t I just walk up the dance floor and hook somebody up. But, I cant do it. I CANT!!~ I need someone by my side now, I need it so badly. Someone who understands me and love me. Not player!!~

Anyway, tomorrow is my last day working for clinique. I was too bored today while working so I snap a few pictures. Check it out!!~

I went out with kit just now as I was too bored staying at home. We went for a movie at cineleisure. The movie that we watched is STEP UP 2: THE STREET. That movie was amazing. I really love it, the song and the dance steps are perfectly match.

Well, while we were queueing up for the movie tickets, S sent me a message. He said that he was shocked last night for the message I texted him while I was clubbing. I replied him that i am sorry for the message and for bothering him so much. Then, he asked me not to  be like that. I know I shouldnt have act immaturely but what else can I do?? I tell myself I will not text him anymore and I deleted his number from my contacts already. But, I will reply if he message me. Yea, maybe he isnnt the right one. Who cares?? It’s Over!!!!~

Besides that, Mr.VJ used a 017 number and texted me on saturday night and i didn’t know it was him. He act like a admirer of mine and played a fool with me. At last he give up for hinting me cause i was so stupid. I dont have any idea who is the guy, so finally he told me it was him. hahaha..

I, went to Barcelona again. But this time i went only with meiling and her friends. I felt like she is different from last time. A little more mature than before. And i saw keng sing there. We were kinda sporty as we rub it off what he  did to me before. Just hang around for about 15 minutes then i went back to meiling. Me n Meiling did enjoy ourself and i drank quite alot and I was so silly. Guess what?? I was damn stupid. I didnt know why i texted S. And he replied me in a direct matter. I told him i’ll never bother him again. I was frust, frust bout myself. I didnt know wat the hell i want. I promise myself I’ll never do that again. I am sad tonight, i am hurt. And i really mean it.

I need someone who can makes me laugh when i don’t even wanna smile, someone who can hold me tight and promise not to let me go, someone that could catch my heart not my eyes.

Today, me jess n peichew went to Barcelona. At first we saw meiling and then we saw yen chiew. We hang out with yen chiew for awhile and suddenly i met kit. So, we went to join Kit and his friends. I drank alot tonite. I had so much fun. Was dancing, drinking and Crazy-ing around. Ah hao was drunk, I saw him cry. It’s  because of Yu lynn again. I really pity him. But who would ever pity me?? Nobody understands how i feel. I am so lonely, who would ever come and listen to my heart??

I went to work at Sunway College as usual. Well, beside my kiosk, there was a small booth about  Ipanema sandals. Some Malaysian celebrity came. I saw Cassandra and Belinda. They got a really nice body feature. Anyway, I was chatting with WC while I was working. He told me about the merge of the phone company in future. And we had a little arguements on it. I really found both of us doesnt match as we have different opinions and perceptions. We often argue on a small little things. Hmm.. that’s so NOT cool…

Guess wat?? I am on9-ing while i am workin at Sunway College. This job is really nice and I do enjoy working on it. Besides that, I finally did 2 consultation just now. It was fun and exciting. At first I was nervous to approach those customer but I still did it.

Anyway, I really love this holiday as my holiday is fully enjoying. Even i enjoy while i work. Hmm..I cant wait to clubbing this week. It’s been a long time i did not club continuously.

Lastly, I am hunger for his love. Is Mr.S the right one?? I don’t know. Let time decide. (”.)

I just reached home and I am really exhausted but I enjoyed myself. Yesterday, me jess claudia pyang and  digimon went to peichew’s house. Her Mom was so COOL!!~ She chat with us like she is the age of 20, she was so sporting and nice. After that we went to digimon’s open house. He house is..WOW!!~ especially his master bed room. It’s decorated like the French style. Our schedule did not end just like that, later on we continue by going to Scarlett. Although it’s abit late but we still have fun and enjoyed ourself. I also met Soon there. He is really cute.Haha.. fair and the guy next door. LOlx. I did dance with him and he said he is a lilttle drunk. Seems like I felt a little for him. hUhU~The club closed at 2.30am. Jess was drunk, she seems to have some problem. She always keep secrets by herself. This is the first time all of us see her drunk and see her crying. I think it’s because she really love raymond alot and she is afraid she feel for him too much and she’ll get hurt one day. She’ve been controlling herselfall this while. I really don’t want to see her like that. She’s the one who makes me stand on my feet when i was down on my knees. She’ve been supporting me all this while and did not give up me even once. I really need to thank her from the bottom of my heart. She did not tell us why she is so sad yesterday night and we choosenot to ask her. Then, after clubbing we went to choong eu house for second round but me n jess went in CHoong eu’s room and sleep. I was really tired. I fell asleep in 5minutes and i woke up at 9am in the morning. haha..everyone was still awake and they did not sleep. We start to gamble again and went for BRUNCH (breakfast+lunch) after that. It’s really nice to hang out with Choong eu they all and of cause including my dearest sweethearts (Jess pyang pyee claudia pc). I hope we can remain this kind of relationship forever.

I am working at Sunway college, selling Clinique cosmetic products. Today is Valentines day and i saw every girl is holding flowers or gift. I really do envy them as I don’t have valentine to celebrate with me. hmm..I should say it like this, I did not celebrate valentines day with my partner before. That’s so sad huh?? haha..yeah it is..lol.. But this year my valentine night was fantastic. I went to Bar celona at Sunway Pyramid with Jess Claudia Peichew Choongeu Hunyan Allen David Dave Jowin and Musa. The girls had so much fun although that night we were single. Jowin is eye catching but i think he had more interest in PC. In the middle of the night, Jess intro me to Musa. Both of us did dance together and snap some pics. I find him quite nice and friendly. And you know what?? He is studying in Sunway college as well. And he is a 22years old Singaporean. Besides that, We also met ah Fai there and we snap some pictures with him. I end my night after sukumaran because i still need to go to work at 9am tomorrow. But, Choongeu they all went for second round at his house. This is a memorable valentines night for me although I am single.

I just came back from my hometown, Muar. I was staying there for 4 days 3 night. At the first day, it was totally horrible because there were too many people and our family have no room to stay. Besides that, me and my brothers almost bored to death because there are no entertainment accept for TELEVISION!!!~ Luckily, the next day Chloe and Keith family came. Can you imagine?? A 10 year old kiddo taught me how to play mahjong. Haha..It was fun!!~ So, for the entire trip back to my hometown was mahjong, cards, DVD and EAT!!!~ haha..I think i gain some weight after i went back to Muar. I ate alot. lolx…But, the best part was the ang pao. I get lots of ang pao this year..huhu!!~ My dream for my new hp is getting nearer and nearer. (”,)

Today,I Went shopping with my girls and went for swimming with jess after that. And now i am chatting with my friends in msn. We mentioned about Ees and Jordon stuff. I am really frust on their act. I do pity boy. Besides that, it reminds me of my friends who live in a broken family. Now i finally notice how lucky am i to have a lovely family. Like Kenneth, Chin Ren, Hao and Kit, Claudia, they are from a broken family. I really do pity them, i feel sad for them. But, this makes me love and care for my family more than before. For the other part is like Boy and Wei chien,they are struggling for money to study. Although I am not from a rich family but at least I know I am living better than them, i am really sad to see them like that because i don’t know what can I do to make them feel better.

I wanted to tell Boy about the case about me and wei chien, and about me and jordon. I did went out for movie with Jordon twice before during the 4th semester, but no special feelings or action between us. I just treat him as a friend and THAT’S IT!!~ I did ask Jordon not to tell them about our outing because I don’t want to hear them gossip about us or rumours. And I don’t know if they will think I am a bitch to flirt around. Honestly I am not, at least I am not like Eres. I did not couple with any of them or make them have hard feelings among each others. But, at last I made my decision not to tell. Sometimes things are better left unsaid. Although I don’t know whether Wei chien or Jordon did told them about our stuff or not, but if i did not tell it out, the percentage of the others to know will be lesser. So, I don’t want to take the risk. 

I am afraid, Afraid of trusting someone so easily. I’ve learned my lesson from Kenneth and Pab, they “taught” me not to judge a book it’s cover. And I am learning to protect myself. As boy said “it’s better to trust yourself and stay strong, do not let little things hold u down.”. I really do appreciate for what he had been teaching me.

Lastly, this paragraph of words is describing how I feel and giving me strenght to stay strong.

“life is too short, laugh when u can, apologize when u should and let go of wat u cant change.
love deeply and forgive quickly, take chances, give everything, and have no regrets.
life is too short to be unhappy, you have to take the good with the bad, smile when u are sad.
love what u got and always remember wat u had
learn from ur mistakes, but never regret
people change and things go wrong
but remember life goes on!!!!!~”