I do, for real!

I have finally make up my mind and I’m going to have fairy with me all the time… yep, in my belly, near the hip bone

I’m not sure when I will do it, this week my life does not belong to me, it belongs to 5 guys, lol, to Cardamomo, we have a lot of gigis this week. But next week I’ll go check prices and all and depending on prices… go ahead at once with the plan

Fairies are soooo nice!

Since I got out of my grandma’s house, so many good things have been happening to me, it is as if that house is a negativity focus.

There is a possibility of dancing out of the country, which will be a wonderful opportunity,  and lots of gigs with Cardamomo, plus being a “decoration” on an event Prisca will be dancing… No one asks or complaints because I get home at 5am… everything is great!

I am happy, and I know a lot of better stuff will come to my life. As they say: “It can’t rain 4 ever”

So I moved last Friday to my new house with Hector and Jos. So far, It’s been good, the only problem I have is that we have not been able to put my curtains on the window, but leaving that aside, I feel good.

It’s  been kind of weird with Hector asking at what time I’ll be back, he is like the father of the family

I still have some stuff at my grandma’s house, I hope I’ll find them when I go get them. Sunday I went to get some stuff and I found even my recipes notebook already packed… they sure are happy that I left, until the bills come in of course, that’s when they are going to miss me

New house, new “family”, a new cycle in my life starts. Let’s hope everything goes well and that I don’t regret saying yes to them, jajaja

We are supposed to learn from our mistakes and move on forward and try not to make the same mistake again…but what if ti changed?

Let me explain: Gabriel.

I have never in my life been so hurt by someone as he hurt me,  I have never cry so much and so deep for anyone in my life. No one has ever make me feel the way he makes me feel and the way he made me feel when he left.

Yes, he destroyed my heart but… I am dumb enough to still be in love with him. I recently discovered it… what am I going to do? nothing, let it be. If he still likes me and wants o try it out again, I am not saying no, but if he is only searching for friendship, thats all I will give him.

I can’t help it, I like him a lot, and he can be cute and nice and adorable, fun, caring…. But if he is not the one, what can I do? Keep on with my life, walking forward and never back.

He has changed a lot, he is even more mature now, which brings my question: what if the mistake changed? Could he deserve a second chance if he asks for it? I am not waiting for it to happen, I am just wondering what if?

Not going to stop my life for a man, specially one who does not like me…

Although we might never be together again, I want to dedicate this song to you, my sweet little thing with deep beautiful green eyes…

Endlessly

Muse

there’s a part in me you’ll never know
the only thing I’ll never show

hopelessly I’ll love you endlessly
hopelessly I’ll give you everything
but I won’t give you up
I won’t let you down
and I won’t leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It’s plain to see it’s trying to speak
cherished dreams forever asleep
hopelessly I’ll love you endlessly
hopelessly I’ll give you everything
but I won’t give you up
I won’t let you down
and I won’t leave you falling
if the moment ever comes

hopelessly I’ll love you endlessly
hopelessly I’ll give you everything
but I won’t give you up
I won’t let you down
and I won’t leave you falling
but the moment never comes