I am really trying to get over him…. I thought I did, since I decided not to feel anything for anyone… but guess what? he still has power over me…

Yesterday he was telling me that Leo suddenly stopped talking to him and that he even ignores him… He told me the only reason he can think of for that situation is that Leo is interested in dating me and that he might think that makes them enemies or something…

I told him I do not know what is inside Leo´s head, that he did told me that he is interested in me, but I told him that right now I do not want anything with no one…

He told me “ok…” and that of course (since I was sick on bed doing nothing) made me think a lot of things…. would that give him green light to search for someone else (or to be with her)? would it make him think he doesn´t have a chance with me anymore? would that relieve him so that we can have our friendship back the way it was?

And well…. everything started to remember me of him… everything! That is the negative side of not doing nothing all day long… You think too much and you start making a storm in a glass of water… plus medicines! hm, well just imagine…

Right now I feel sad, but I know I will be better tomorrow, with my strenght back and I will keep my idea of having a cold heart for a while… they can´t hurt you if you don´t feel anything