So this person was actually happy about it. I can handle the situation, just need to be careful.

In other news…

I am kind of sad, or disappointed… I would have love to dance at the jazz cafe with Cardamomo the 29 and 30. I saw no problem about it, but it seems by bf did, he was so mad because I considered it….

Will he ever fully understand what a dancer life is or would he ever fully approve it?

I hope so, because he intends to marry me, and that is something he needs to accept about me.

P.S: Thank you conscience, I feel better now!

I think I did something bad…. i know that what I did at least made smile someone, and this someone might feel really happy… but I’m not sure If I should have done it…. But, it was done and it can not be undone, so I will have to live with it….

My hamster died two weeks ago… It has been hard to assimilate, every night I still walk to where he was to check on him, his food, water… He lived good and for a  long time, 2 years and 1/2, but I loved him so much… I miss him… I have an almost full food box…

dead is not easy, not even when a pet dies. You give yourself to a pet also. at least me. It’s not the first pet to die, and he will not be the last one… I will miss you bunches Lauri (:p) and hope to see you one day, along with Ricky, Raspita, Aray, Pipo…

Why do you have to come like this to me?

Why now?

Why didn’t you came to me before?

Even tough i would like to give it a try

It is too late for me now.

I would love to control this feeling in my heart

But the heart is not to be trusted

as he tends to trick you.

I need to think with my head

and not with my heart.

Why did you come like this?

Why now?

Why not before?

The gala award celebration has been done, Kimi got his world champion award, and he looked really handsome on his tux ^.^