I love going to the beach!!!! and this weekend was just great!

I did miss him a lot, specially because I was the only one alone, well Rodol was alone because Gaby was not able to go, but that’sa different situation.

For a moment I kind of hated them, but later I just focused on enjoying the trip, no mater what.

And well, I had fun with my camera

Always search for it.

Nor everything is so bad. I was without a car for a week, it was driving me crazy, but I got to see him every morning, even sleep next to him in the bus. We had lots of conversations, one which included the possibility of  him traveling with me again, and guess who comes to work with me again?

This will give me more chances to find out if he wants to be friends with me or if he is trying to come back with me or what.

At the moment, I am just enjoying his company, the conversation… If it is meant to be, then it will happen.

“Good things comes to those who waits”

So, I’ve been without a car since Monday. I am really tired to be running around by bus, considering that I have to get up at 4am and all the places I have to go to, moving by bus is really a pain.

But  not today. This morning, he sat next to me at the company’s bus. We talked for a moment and then we both fell asleep. So, for today, not having a car was good for me, because I could enjoy a moment, a short and simple, but wonderful moment next to him.

Waking up and smelling him, turn my head and see him next to me, that alone, made my day.

Part of the process of enjoying whatever the day brings and stop being a time freak planing my life minute by minute.

Take this out of my chest! I love you!

Well yes, my fairy, the one for my belly, just took a short ride in my car.

What I mean?

Easy, my car had an issue (yes another one!) and the money I was thinking to use for my tattoo will be used to fix my dear beloved car.

On the positive side, my car will be running better, I have the money to pay for it, and I have to work on Sunday.

Positive side of working this Sunday: Gabriel, I’ll give him a ride to work and back home

I really enjoy being able to talk with him, give him a ride, make jokes with him… It’s nice and it makes me feel happy! If the chance for us to come back together is there, it will happen when it has to happen, I will not rush things this time and just be patient.

As for my fairy, I will have her in my belly before December, that’s my goal!

I do, for real!

I have finally make up my mind and I’m going to have fairy with me all the time… yep, in my belly, near the hip bone

I’m not sure when I will do it, this week my life does not belong to me, it belongs to 5 guys, lol, to Cardamomo, we have a lot of gigis this week. But next week I’ll go check prices and all and depending on prices… go ahead at once with the plan

Fairies are soooo nice!

Since I got out of my grandma’s house, so many good things have been happening to me, it is as if that house is a negativity focus.

There is a possibility of dancing out of the country, which will be a wonderful opportunity,  and lots of gigs with Cardamomo, plus being a “decoration” on an event Prisca will be dancing… No one asks or complaints because I get home at 5am… everything is great!

I am happy, and I know a lot of better stuff will come to my life. As they say: “It can’t rain 4 ever”

So I moved last Friday to my new house with Hector and Jos. So far, It’s been good, the only problem I have is that we have not been able to put my curtains on the window, but leaving that aside, I feel good.

It’s  been kind of weird with Hector asking at what time I’ll be back, he is like the father of the family

I still have some stuff at my grandma’s house, I hope I’ll find them when I go get them. Sunday I went to get some stuff and I found even my recipes notebook already packed… they sure are happy that I left, until the bills come in of course, that’s when they are going to miss me

New house, new “family”, a new cycle in my life starts. Let’s hope everything goes well and that I don’t regret saying yes to them, jajaja

We are supposed to learn from our mistakes and move on forward and try not to make the same mistake again…but what if ti changed?

Let me explain: Gabriel.

I have never in my life been so hurt by someone as he hurt me,  I have never cry so much and so deep for anyone in my life. No one has ever make me feel the way he makes me feel and the way he made me feel when he left.

Yes, he destroyed my heart but… I am dumb enough to still be in love with him. I recently discovered it… what am I going to do? nothing, let it be. If he still likes me and wants o try it out again, I am not saying no, but if he is only searching for friendship, thats all I will give him.

I can’t help it, I like him a lot, and he can be cute and nice and adorable, fun, caring…. But if he is not the one, what can I do? Keep on with my life, walking forward and never back.

He has changed a lot, he is even more mature now, which brings my question: what if the mistake changed? Could he deserve a second chance if he asks for it? I am not waiting for it to happen, I am just wondering what if?

Not going to stop my life for a man, specially one who does not like me…

Although we might never be together again, I want to dedicate this song to you, my sweet little thing with deep beautiful green eyes…

Endlessly

Muse

there’s a part in me you’ll never know
the only thing I’ll never show

hopelessly I’ll love you endlessly
hopelessly I’ll give you everything
but I won’t give you up
I won’t let you down
and I won’t leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It’s plain to see it’s trying to speak
cherished dreams forever asleep
hopelessly I’ll love you endlessly
hopelessly I’ll give you everything
but I won’t give you up
I won’t let you down
and I won’t leave you falling
if the moment ever comes

hopelessly I’ll love you endlessly
hopelessly I’ll give you everything
but I won’t give you up
I won’t let you down
and I won’t leave you falling
but the moment never comes