“Vai, ve se me esquece, tira meu nome da lista de telefone, vai, se livra de mim, vai ver q eh msm assim vou seguir a luz dos farois q me lembram seus olhos, vai ver q eles podem me ajudar a ver q nao ha de ser nada nao ha de ser nada”

Since yesterday I keep with this song in my head…. I don’t remember the name I just know is from Ana Carolina. This song is so beautiful…

Well, for the 3rd time starting this paragraph… hope this time I can write what I want =P!!! I don’t know what to do about my sadness… maybe someone could say I’m overeacting… sadness is a strong word… but after all this time I realize that!!! I’m sad and I feel this way since a long time ago…

Actually this have a start date… end of 2003!!! Yeah, it’s true since then I’m not the same person… but the people change you can say, and I know this but this is not a good change!!! I used to feel always happy and without worryes and after ‘the date’ I can’t feel happyness anymore!!!! Just a few times of happyness… over and down!!! Sad and happy…

Three years ago I made a big change in my life, for what?! Trying change the way I felt and work for a while… but after this ‘while’ I continous feeling bad!!! Now I need another change… maybe this time I can do the right choise!!!

I know I’m the only who can decied what to do with my life… but I decied and then don’t happen, so I get more and more sad!!! I guess I’m a little tired of do plans and have expectations (?) ’cause if they don’t get like the way I thought then I get bad!!! So… no plans… just live and let live!!! If you don’t have a plan so you can’t feel bad when this gets different of your plan!!!

Lunch time…

I know I need stop live in the past… think about my future!!! Act like a grow up person who I’m… I know!!! But for live the past in the past, and think about the future, I need to make plans…  Why is so hard just live for now?!?!

Yeah… all this stuffs only exist inside of my hear… and I keep inventing reasons for complain, but I already try once change this… and doens’t work!!! I try make plans, some happens ok, but the most important for me won’t happen!!!! Yep, I realize this… won’t happen!!!!

Well, well… tomorrow I’ll see him!!! I hope so =P

Bye bye…