Ok… I’m done!!! I can’t take this anymore… I can’t take me anymore… I’m out!!!

I feel like a ghost floating between happiness and sadness and I can’t take this anymore!! I can’t see how I can fix this… fix me, fix my life!!!

It won’t be like this… I’m tired of me… tired of I became and what the time did to me!! I shouldn’t be like this… I had a great education, a lot of oportunities (most than the brazilian have), always had what I want (praticaly)!!! And why… I ask why I’m like this???

Without a job, without certain about what I want ofr my future, fighting with the people who I love and care about (and I couldn’t live without), feeding dreams that I know won’t become true…

I used to be so full of ideas, dreams and certains… yeah, I used to be happy and funny and now I’m boring and annoying… I’m a old lady in a youth body!!!

I’m tired of treat the others bad!!! But I don’t feel good with myself either!! How I can care about the others if I hadn’t been taking care of me??

I’ve been trying so hard change this, I know I don’t show this but I’m really trying, but it’s so difficult!!!

I don’t know what to do and I don’t feel I have the energy to change!! I lose my happiness and a lot of my hope!!!

Isn’t cool realize I’ 21 and I shouldn’t be thinking like a 75 years old lady or like a 5 years old girl… I should enjoy my life and maybe make be more inconsequently… this is the age when I can (and should) make more mistakes… assume riskd… be a bit more crazy!!!

I know I still have time to change this, to make it better, to make me better, actually!!! And I really hope I can… and now we back to the basic question: how?? The answer looks so simples, but this could be everything unless simple… is hard to explain this for people who thinks this is freshness and I only do this for the others pau attention in me!!!

Well, now my mind is a hundred km from here so, is better I stop to write, before I write so much and a lot of nonsense things…

Bye-bye

“Sorry I can’t be perfect” - Perfect, Simple Plan

Oh my… I know I don’t give all the atention what my blog needs latelly… I feel the ‘need’ of write, but I don’t write!!! And I don’t know why…

Sometimes, I have all the post in my mind, then I don’t publish… actually I even write!!!

Like now… I have a lot of ideas… buuutttt… I’ll say good bye!!!!

So… bye bye!!!!

Hey… I’m here!!!

Well, since my last post several days past… and almost nothing change!!!

Yesterday I ‘celebrate’ 6 years with my boyfriend!!!! Yes, I know is toooo much time!!!! But I love him…

My dog is down depress… because he was atack by my aunt’s dog… a huge golden retriever!!! And he’s a poodle!!!! Poor Jhonny since Saturday he’s so sad…

I still don’t know what I wnat do in my life… I know what I want do now… for a short time… a year maybe!!! But after that… is a huge ??? again!!!!

Well, only to write a little…

Bye-bye!!!!

And, here I’m!!!! Backing from the future hehehehehehehehe!!!

 I know the last tima I wrote here was a long time ago… the problem is… I don’t have anything to write!!!

Actually, soemtimes, I have, but I don’t want some people know, especially now, that I know my blog is visited almost every day hehehehehehhe!!!

Nhe, my life still is the same… nothing to do!!! Only play with my aunt puppys!!!! They’re sooooooooooooo cute!!!

Byee…

Hi…

Only because I don’t write here anymore!!! I don’t want listen complains about thia anymore =P!!!

Hhehehehehehehe… I’m kidding!!

Bye-bye…

Hello…

Oh my… really long time I don’t write here!!!!

Well, my weekend was great… meetings with friends!!!

But… nothing new to tell!!! Still looking for a job…

Until someday… bye!!

Hi…

How long I don’t write here, don’t?!?!

Well, I don’t have any news… my life still is the same!!! Only some thoughts in my hear, nothing right!!!

I realized I need choose what I gonna do!!! I need to discovered by my own… I won’t listen the others…

Bye-bye…

=P

Only to say hi…

Hi!!!

Hi…

Yeah, I know I don’t write here since for too long… but these days I din’t had anything to write!!!

I found… the shirt what I wanted… maybe today I’ll buy!!! Uhuuuu… I want!!!

Yesterday… lunch with my friends… Oh, os so good when you realize that… another person feel like you… I’m not crazy!!! I’m normal uhuuu… hehehehehehe!!! I need to talk more with her =P!!!

Bye-bye…

=P

Happy Valentine’s day!!!!

Yeah, here in Brazil today is the Valentine’s day…

These days some crazy ideas is passing into my mind, about jobs and career and about I don’t have ideas about what I want to in my life…

Thinking about know new places… new people… I don’t know, run away from here!!!! Without think and with less planning as possible, only go… go to somewhere far from here!!! And go without a date to back!!!

Well, I know what I need to do this… so why I don’t do?!?! Yeah, I know what I need to do…

Bye-bye…