so about a year ago i started to clean out my closet of friends… i realized i was spending alot of time and energy on people who didnt truly care abotu me….. and then the grudges and bottled up emotions started…. suddenly yu burst you tell your friends how you feel hoping the will understand and appreciate your honesty but instead you wind up never speaking…… lately i realized that i i couldnt let it leave like that … realized that maybe there are friends out there who arent the the best person to talk to but they are still a friend and i just shouldnt have expected more out of the friendship……. so i typed them a letter… on myspace of all places… we’ll see what i get back… i refuse to apologize — i mean i was being honest abtou my feelings and was tasteful about it —-but i simply said that it was just bad timing and i wouldnt have been upset if it were  under different circumstances………

to be honest i dont care how it turns out but i am just happy that i gave the last ditch effort that i left it with my hand out there, reachign otu for something… if i get nothing in return at least i tried…. sometimes its all abotu the karma