Since my last entry was a long time ago, I thought I’d write something. My summer’s been great. The sunday right after school ended, I had a concert. It wasn’t that big, and when it was my turn I felt like I wasn’t playing it right, but it was okay.The day after we went to Egypt. On the 15th of June, my brother had his marriage contract thingy, and I had my birthday. After my brother’s contract, my dad took us to a hotel for dinner. We took pictures, but they don’t look that good, because I was very sleepy. But I’m fourteen now, and that good :DMy brother’s wedding was on the 18th. The hotel was amazing. The wedding was so much fun, but I’m not into huge parties and dancing and loud music and stuff. But everyone was very happy, and we enjoyed it a lot.The week after that, we went to another city in Egypt. The hotel we stayed in had a beach and pool. That was my favorite part of our stay in Egypt.Nothing exciting hapenned when we came back. We went swimming once a week, and we had tennis.Now it’s Ramadan, and we’ve stopped everything. My sleeping schedule’s messed up, and I have nothing to do all day. I spend most of my time online, reading, or practicing. I usually write at night.Summer’s almost over. I’m going to school to pick up my books this month. I’m also taking my braces off :)I can’t believe that I’m going to be in High School! I feel so grown up! I’ve decided not to do IGCSE, though I’ve already given in the form. I wonder if they’ll accept to switch me. I figured IG will be a waste of time for me. they concentrate on the Sciences, and I’m definitely not going to do anything scientific in the future. Oh well.

I guess I’m so happy that school’s almost over, I’ve been experiencing a few stupid situations. Two of them happened last week:

1) My mom asked me to get brown buns from the bakery. I went in and I didn’t know how they looked like, The guy had to show me, and Every one was looking at me!

2) I was on the ground floor of a building and called the elevator. Two people were inside, and when one of them told me to come in, I asked him if they were going up!

Happy birthday Aliaa! You’ve been an AMAZING friend, especially when I thought I had no best friend. You’ve stood up for me many times, and you’ve never failed to make me feel better. You understand how I feel, and you never criticize me or make me feel weird or embarassing. I’m not afraid of being myself when I’m with you, because I know you’ll never make fun of me. You know everything I can’t tell anyone, and you always help.
Have a great day, and happy fifteenth!
Love you!!
xoxoxox Khulood:)

…you know you’ve done well on a test that could change a lot on your final math average!
When i stated studying for this test, I knew how important it was. Math is not the easiest subject, but it’s also the most important subject, alongside English. I stressed about not doing well, but I also made up my mind to study harder than I’ve ever studied for any Math test before.
And, oh, it took a lot of forcing myself to do it! Usually, I’ll just give up hope on Math, but I pushed myself this time.
The difference was amazing! I was so confident just doing the exam. I only stopped in confusion once, and I have this great feeling that I’ve done really well!
I;m so proud of myself right now! *Hugs self*

I don’t know why, but I always seem to embarrass myself, then keep hating myself for it, even if it’s just a tiny thing.

So, today, in bus, a few friends and I were helping my friend with her Special Arabic homework. She was supposed to find a name, plant, thing, and food for every letter of the Arabic alphabet. While I was thinking of something for her, I remembered green nuts. I said a different name for them. The what I said was actually a dessert.

So, now I can’t even remember the name of a nut, not even in Arabic. Nice. And, everyone knows that now. I know they’ve probably forgotten, though. Sometimes, I hate myself for thinking too much. Oh well, I’ll get over it while studying for my Chemistry quiz. Ughhh, stupid nuts!!!!

Before school started, I wrote a post about what I wanted to change this year, how I didn’t want to be mean to people, and how I wanted better grades. Sure, there haven’t been many embarrassments, but I don’t think everything else worked out.

I wasn’t mean to everyone, just to a few people who I wasn’t even that close to, but I still feel very bad.
My grades haven’t been amazing, either, and what hurts is that I KNOW that I’m not working hard enough, but I’m not doing anything about it. For example, I have a math progressive exam next Tuesday, and instead of studying, I’m writing this.

I will study, though. I’ve made up my mind to study really well this week for Tuesday’s exam. If I do well on the progressive, I’ll get extra grades on my math final average, so if I study for the progressive and for the final, I’ll get a really good final average, and that’s what I want.

I’m going to go study now…

Yesterday, my family and I went to the Fairmont hotel for lunch. The buffet was AMAZING! My brother and I couldn’t stay away from the desserts area. There was a huge chocolate fountain, every single type of cookie, marshmallows, fresh donuts, jelly beans, chocolate, cake, and so much more. The other food was great, too. We ate lots of sausages, grilled fish, sweet n sour chicken, noodles, and salad.
What’s your favorite restaurant?

Today was the last day of school before Spring Break. We had sports day today. It was fun at the beginning. Only eight people came from my class. We played football first, which we totally sucked at. Then, we played basketball. Turns out I can dribble and shoot! We won twice. I’ve always thought of myself as hopeless in all sports except for tennis.
My friends and I didn’t really join any of the other activities. We spent the whole afternoon just sitting there and walking around. That’s when it got boring.
I was very tired when I came home, but I still went to tennis class, and I actually felt better there, doing something I’m actually good at.
I hope the vacation won’t be boring. I’m planning to meet a few friends, and I promised a friend to do something with her, so that should be fun.
What are you doing during Spring Break?

I have a lot to do that I’m not getting done. I have a project that was due a long time ago that I still haven’t done, and now I’m trying to come up with something to write, but I have no ideas.
I’m trying to write a story to send to a magazine, but now that I’m trying to study math for two hours everyday + my homework, I don’t have much time to work on it. (I will be posting the story here when I’m done.)
I signed up for a poetry competition at school, but then I found out that I’;m supposed to write the poem in school. They’re going to give us the theme, and we get 45 minutes to write. What if I don’t get enough inspiration?
Turns out I can recite every single one of my faults a thousand times, but I don’t have any solutions for them.
I feel so unorganized!!
I’m so unsocial!!
I’m too hard on myself!!
I judge myself!!
I care too much about what people think of me!!

I complain a lot

Last night, my sister sent my dad a message telling him that she was bored and that she was coming back for a few days. I’m so glad! Last time I asked her when she was coming back, she said mid-April. I know that we won’t do everything we planned in four days, especially since she’s going to need a day to rest, but I’ll at least see her.
Living in England on her own must be pretty tough. Also, she works all day, as she is almost done with her PhD. I love how she’s so brave and determined.
I’ve missed her so much, I really can’t wait to see her, and for mid-April, when we’re going to do lots of things together.