“There are some things I wish to discuss with you,” Hiiragi began, “and I hope that you will be honest with me.”
I knew what was coming next, but still I asked him… “What is it you want to discuss?”
And my worst fears were realized when his next words came; “Kurumi Nui,” he said plainly.
I wanted to play dumb. I wanted to delay the pain. But there was no escaping it. I could hear his words as he stated the facts on how he suspected I could be Kurumi Nui, the girl who danced with him that night. I could hear them, but they meant nothing…
But I knew my time was up. I could no longer hide the truth. Doing so would only hurt him more. And so I led him to my room, to show him the girl he so longed to see once more. The truth was painful, but it had to be done. I did the magic that I was so familiar with by now and became Kurumi Nui before his eyes.
I couldn’t face him anymore after that. It didn’t feel right. I made him think I was someone else when I was human. Everything was spinning and I cried as hard as I could to ease the pain of my breaking heart. I apologized several times and when that was done, I apologized again… and again. Was he angry with me? Did he hate me? Would he not speak to me again?
After a long silence, I heard him turn for the door and say. “I need some time… to think.”
For some reason, I knew I would not see him again as soon as he left that door. I panicked, so I risked everything. I hurriedly stood up and caught hold of his shirt. We were both in pain, and I knew it was selfish, but this might be the last time I could be this close to him as a human. I had to say what was on my mind…
“Before I leave…”
This was the last moment I had. Say it.
“Will you let me… hug you?”
He didn’t say anything, but he didn’t leave either. I wasn’t sure how he would react if I actually did hug him. And so I decided to just be close to him. I moved closer to him and rested my head on his back. That was enough…
“Thank you.” That was all I could say at that moment. I wanted to say something more… But how could I? How could I hurt him more?
I explained what little knowledge I had of the spell I used to turn human. I smiled a fake smile and turned to break the spell and leave him alone. He deserved that much and more. Much, much more.
“I…”
His voice alone made me freeze. What was he going to say? Maybe he’s angry? Or maybe he doesn’t want to see me again?
…or worse, he hates me?
“I don’t hate you.. Kuromi.”
I could not explain it even if I tried. Relief, happiness… love? The emotions came to quickly and I began crying again. If I didn’t hear the pain in his voice, I probably would have turned around and hugged him… for real.
But all I could really do was thank him and give him the time and space he asked for. I said my last goodbye and left…
His last words… haunt my dreams…
“Sayonara, Kuromi.”
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Kuromi’s Blog author says: I’m sorry I’m redundant. D: But the scene was so cute and perfect, I couldn’t help myself. ;~; Why are they so cute?!? *shakes Hiiragi* The actual thing took place here, for those who want more drama. T___T
Heeee~
Yes… 