

It have been a while since i last updated.
Well, life havent been very good for me. Went for my appointment check up on last wed. Its for my gastric problem. In fact, I have been suffering gastric problem for very long already.. hmm almost a year. Went to see my family doc for a few times and when the medication that I took no longer ease the pain, I decided to visit the polyclinic. Its during my visit to the polyclinic, the doctor refer me to the see specialist.
Went to KTPH for my appointment on wed morning. Its kinda scary especially when I dunno what kind of test they going to do and I’m alone. Seriously, I’m not that strong and brave. But, I din want mom to take leave and everyone needs to work, so i went there alone. Was lucky that the nurses there was very friendly and the service is good. lol.. The nurse gave me newspaper to read while waiting for the result. (: After a while, the nurse came to me with the result. Its a bad news. The test was positive. I had gastric bacteria infection. )): Seriously when the nurse told me that I was in a state of shock. The only question that I asked was… can I go home? =X and she told me to wait. )): And the reason why she ask me to wait was.. they wanted to give me breakfast. LOL.. Coz I was not suppose to eat before the test so after the test, they want me to eat something.
After I reached home, I was busy setting up my new lappy. Its very VERY heavy. )): saded. Went back to KTPH again in the afternoon to see my doctor. ): He gave me lots of medicine to eat. ))): and after 2 months i have to come back for checkup, hopefully by that I have recover, else I have to repeat the whole process again ):
Had tutorial in the evening tat day. What a busy wednesday I had! lol.. sadly, theres so much things I have to do. )): And I have to come back to school on thursday. ): There goes my flyer date with the astro ppls. Took my 1st round of medication on thursday morning. And the side effect is terrible. ): Had random sharp pain in my abdomen, vomiting and light diarrhea. ): the pain was on and off, making me totally no mood to work. ): have to bear with it for 1 week. )):
Called my manager on thurs, and told her I really need a break. ): I know she is very sad about it. But, seriously, I need a break. I told her this cant stay long. Before you know it, I might already collapsed. And fen was very supportive of my decision. At least I know I have a supporter. LOL. (:
Went to talk to my coo on friday. I want my freedom! but, after talking for 1 hour. There is no outcome. I guess I’m not firm enough. I need to be firm! Seriously, I need a break. Had lesson on friday, saturday and sunday. One word to describe it: TIRED! Theres so much things to do!! and I keep having a feeling that my team was lagging behind time. ): Must really motivate them.
Went to MBS after my lesson on saturday. (: Reach there just in time for the fireworks! (: Its beautiful. The city view from the room is very nice, a very good spot to see the fireworks with air con and no ashes! LOL.. It was suppose to be a birthday celebration for me. But, I have to finish my homework. ): So, I spent most of my time in the room doing my homework. When to school from there.. the journey wasnt that long. (:
Stay back in school after lesson to finish some of my homework before meeting the girls for dinner. (: We had our dinner at sushi tei (: too bad i cant eat sashimi ): Really wish my gastric will recover fast! I wanna eat alot of things! I really REALLY miss my daily milk tea. Its not that I need to drink it to stay awake or what. Its just.. I love the way it taste. (:
Had meeting with my coo, cat ma and fen on monday. Before, we went in. I told fen, we have to be FIRM. If I’m not firm step my feet. LOL.. Again, the meeting lasted more then an hour. We talk about our current task, our workload and the things that we all have that need ppl to cover. ): Whenever, we talk about this I always felt very sad. In the past, when we talk about it, cat ma will always say… this one my do, that one also u do… now.. when my coo ask who do, none of us speak a word. nobody to do… we need a contingency plan when I’m not around. ): and fen will be going PT soon! It will going to be very hard on her when i’m away.. but, I din want to change my mind. I wanna take this chance to have a good rest and focus on my studies. In the end, fen has to give in. ): her full PT will only start in oct and in sept, she will only be away for a day each week. really very sorry about that. I guess I wont be there to see my baby go live too. ): No matter what I dun want to turn back le. I’m tired.
I’m tired of being tied down.
I’m tired of 人在江湖身不由己.
I’m tired of being the pillar to keep everything up.
Even thou, I always tell my family that they have to be understanding. There are times, its not that I want to be so committed to my work, its not that i want to be a workaholic, its becoz of the responsibilities. I have my duty to fulfill them everyday. As day goes by, I get tired. I also need a rest. Hopefully laoye understands that too.. I guess the next meeting with him and dashi will be a long one. ):
Can I just have my way just for once?
Went to the flyer yesterday with the astro ppls. (: Had western food. When was the last time I have western food apart from subways? I dun remember le.. ): Seriously, its hard to enjoy the food when ur stomach is giving u trouble. ): Nevertheless, i really appreciate it.
Felt very sorry towards the girls and astro ppl as becoz of me, we have to change our dinner date. ): But, they are more lucky than my colleagues. Becoz we wanted to eat BBQ food tml for my birthday. But becoz of my gastric, we ended up decided to go Ding Tai Fung. Really sorry. Din have dinner with my family too.. ):
ha.. this year’s birthday celebration is really a simple one and not much of my fav food. But its okay. It will be over soon!
Sometimes I really wondered, will anyone understand what I have been thru? Will anyone really understand?
But then again, it doesn’t really matters. What really matters is I tried my very best till the end. I nv let myself down.
Up till now, i’m still trying to strike a balance between my school work and my work.
Lets hope for the BEST!
The road to recovery is LONG!!
JiaYou!






