It have been a while since i last updated.

Well, life havent been very good for me. Went for my appointment check up on last wed. Its for my gastric problem. In fact, I have been suffering gastric problem for very long already.. hmm almost a year. Went to see my family doc for a few times and when the medication that I took no longer ease the pain, I decided to visit the polyclinic. Its during my visit to the polyclinic, the doctor refer me to the see specialist.

Went to KTPH for my appointment on wed morning. Its kinda scary especially when I dunno what kind of test they going to do and I’m alone. Seriously, I’m not that strong and brave. But, I din want mom to take leave and everyone needs to work, so i went there alone. Was lucky that the nurses there was very friendly and the service is good. lol.. The nurse gave me newspaper to read while waiting for the result. (: After a while, the nurse came to me with the result. Its a bad news. The test was positive. I had gastric bacteria infection. )): Seriously when the nurse told me that I was in a state of shock. The only question that I asked was… can I go home? =X and she told me to wait. )): And the reason why she ask me to wait was.. they wanted to give me breakfast. LOL.. Coz I was not suppose to eat before the test so after the test, they want me to eat something.

After I reached home, I was busy setting up my new lappy. Its very VERY heavy. )): saded. Went back to KTPH again in the afternoon to see my doctor. ): He gave me lots of medicine to eat. ))): and after 2 months i have to come back for checkup, hopefully by that I have recover, else I have to repeat the whole process again ):

Had tutorial in the evening tat day. What a busy wednesday I had! lol.. sadly, theres so much things I have to do. )): And I have to come back to school on thursday. ): There goes my flyer date with the astro ppls. Took my 1st round of medication on thursday morning. And the side effect is terrible. ): Had random sharp pain in my abdomen, vomiting and light diarrhea. ): the pain was on and off, making me totally no mood to work. ): have to bear with it for 1 week. )):

Called my manager on thurs, and told her I really need a break. ): I know she is very sad about it. But, seriously, I need a break. I told her this cant stay long. Before you know it, I might already collapsed. And fen was very supportive of my decision. At least I know I have a supporter. LOL. (:

Went to talk to my coo on friday. I want my freedom! but, after talking for 1 hour. There is no outcome. I guess I’m not firm enough. I need to be firm! Seriously, I need a break. Had lesson on friday, saturday and sunday. One word to describe it: TIRED! Theres so much things to do!! and I keep having a feeling that my team was lagging behind time. ): Must really motivate them.

Went to MBS after my lesson on saturday. (: Reach there just in time for the fireworks! (: Its beautiful. The city view from the room is very nice, a very good spot to see the fireworks with air con and no ashes! LOL.. It was suppose to be a birthday celebration for me. But, I have to finish my homework. ): So, I spent most of my time in the room doing my homework. When to school from there.. the journey wasnt that long. (:

Stay back in school after lesson to finish some of my homework before meeting the girls for dinner. (: We had our dinner at sushi tei (: too bad i cant eat sashimi ): Really wish my gastric will recover fast! I wanna eat alot of things! I really REALLY miss my daily milk tea. Its not that I need to drink it to stay awake or what. Its just.. I love the way it taste. (:

Had meeting with my coo, cat ma and fen on monday. Before, we went in. I told fen, we have to be FIRM. If I’m not firm step my feet. LOL.. Again, the meeting lasted more then an hour. We talk about our current task, our workload and the things that we all have that need ppl to cover. ): Whenever, we talk about this I always felt very sad. In the past, when we talk about it, cat ma will always say… this one my do, that one also u do… now.. when my coo ask who do, none of us speak a word. nobody to do… we need a contingency plan when I’m not around. ): and fen will be going PT soon! It will going to be very hard on her when i’m away.. but, I din want to change my mind. I wanna take this chance to have a good rest and focus on my studies. In the end, fen has to give in. ): her full PT will only start in oct and in sept, she will only be away for a day each week. really very sorry about that. I guess I wont be there to see my baby go live too. ): No matter what I dun want to turn back le. I’m tired.

I’m tired of being tied down.
I’m tired of 人在江湖身不由己.
I’m tired of being the pillar to keep everything up.

Even thou, I always tell my family that they have to be understanding. There are times, its not that I want to be so committed to my work, its not that i want to be a workaholic, its becoz of the responsibilities. I have my duty to fulfill them everyday. As day goes by, I get tired. I also need a rest. Hopefully laoye understands that too.. I guess the next meeting with him and dashi will be a long one. ):

Can I just have my way just for once?

Went to the flyer yesterday with the astro ppls. (: Had western food. When was the last time I have western food apart from subways? I dun remember le.. ): Seriously, its hard to enjoy the food when ur stomach is giving u trouble. ): Nevertheless, i really appreciate it.

Felt very sorry towards the girls and astro ppl as becoz of me, we have to change our dinner date. ): But, they are more lucky than my colleagues. Becoz we wanted to eat BBQ food tml for my birthday. But becoz of my gastric, we ended up decided to go Ding Tai Fung. Really sorry. Din have dinner with my family too.. ):

ha.. this year’s birthday celebration is really a simple one and not much of my fav food. But its okay. It will be over soon!

Sometimes I really wondered, will anyone understand what I have been thru? Will anyone really understand?
But then again, it doesn’t really matters. What really matters is I tried my very best till the end. I nv let myself down.

Up till now, i’m still trying to strike a balance between my school work and my work.

Lets hope for the BEST!

The road to recovery is LONG!!

JiaYou!

Life’s getting busy for this july and i will be busy until Oct! woot! i’m must be crazy. I guess i wont be going out much outings and traveling from now till Oct.. reason being… I took 2 modules for this term. OS and project.

Really good luck to me… No rest for me until the last week of july as I will be having lessons starting tml and for all of the weekend except the last week end.

(:

lastly, I’m glad that i was informed tat i managed to get project module today. Coz seriously i tot no hope le.. but… its a surprise i should say… ((:

I really hope i can cope!!!!!

MY Jiayou and good luck..

Was busy enjoying myself over the weekends, and busy with work and assignments on weekdays..

sadly, my hectic life is back. )):

shall update my wishlist over the weekends when i’m freee! ((:

ja ne~

Its tired trying to balance everything up, its even more tiring when everything that seems to be balanced was being knock off to one side and we have to do it again and again……

woot!

Saw this handsome battery charger cradle for htc desire in ebay: link

gonna consider should i buy it anot.. hehe… shall look for spare battery too!!! ((:

Finally my exam is over. phew! (:

Actually thought of canceling my monday leave to clear some of my work before my long leave, but i decided not! must learn to let go right? besides, i believe that without me, work can be done. (: but, they prove me wrong… )):

Went to the library on monday, the start of my library day camp. LOL was very surprised that there are sooo many people in the library despite the school holidays. Since when the youngsters are soo hardworking?

Actually wanted to stay till late, but I received an sms from my cousin saying that granny was admitted to the hospital. So, I rushed home to eat my medicine before going to ttsh. )):

met my parents, sis, aunt and cousins at ttsh. As only 4 people are allowed to enter each time, so we had our dinner 1st while waiting. ): Finally, I went up with sis to see granny. She looked so weak )): heard from my aunt that she vomitted whatever was given to her. )): saded. She has to stay in the hospital while waiting for the test results. ):

din go to the library on tue and wed. Was suppose to do code reading and do my assignment 3. *yawnz*

Went to visit granny on wed. She doesnt recognise me. )): saded she looked very blur and afraid. )): Went to my cousin’s house for dinner. Its the Dragon Boat festival. Had dumplings! (:

Went back to library on thurs and friday to finish my revision. But, somehow, i just couldn’t concentrate. ): my mind was in some where else. ):

my cousin called on thurs night. saying that granny’s oxygen level was low. )): We are afraid. The doc say she will not put granny on machine if the oxygen level gets lower as putting her on machine is painful for her )): That night, we prayed that she will be okay. Aunt stayed in hospital with her, until she gets better.

Went to the hospital on friday night after my revision. Was very glad that she looks better. (: at least she recognised me. (: put my mind at ease.

Woke up early today. Wanted to reach school early for some last min revision. Dunno why i felt sooo damn nervous. Perhaps, i din get enough revision. Perhaps, i worry too much. ): Din get to talk to him in the lounge before and after exam as i wasn’t in the mood to talk ): halfway thru the exam, i had gastric pain. )): I guess i too nervous le ba, plus i din eat my medicine this morning. )): Went to the admin office to accompany tun, he dropping the next module as he going back to Myanmar next term for a break. Den i also wish to change my next term module. Really hope to be able to change.

Granny was discharged today. (: As the longer she stays in hospital the more virus attack there will be! Good news! its good to be home!!! (:

Right now, I really have to rest well… must get well soon! my fav food is waiting for me!!!! (:

and…

I’m sick of eating medicine le…. )): for the past 1 month i have been eating them. )):

MY must recover fast!!!!!!

Must start my assignment 3 soon!! JiaYou!!

lets hope i can change my module for next term..

***Granny get well soon!!!!!!! ((:

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I seriously need to concentrate. )): Tml exam le yet i’m not even 50% sure… )): So much things in mind.

 Get well soon. ):

Have been taking lots of mc lately due to my gastric problem. its getting better now. (: Has been taking the chance to rest and do my assignments on my mc days. (: no time to lose.

Spent some time doing some deep thinking as well..

hmm, while i was standing at the crossroad, my mind was always filled with ‘Do i have a choice?’ But, there are a few people that came to me and say, I do have a choice. Its just whether do i consider it as a choice. This really enlighten me. It brought me to another perspective. It made me realised how silly i am.

I guess i need time to settle some loose ends before i decide. I know time is running out, i dun have tat much time to take things slowly, i’ll try my best to get them done asap. (:

Received lots of well wishes from my clients and colleagues when i return to work on friday. (: felt so touched. lol.. I guess this is the 1st time i took so many days of mc in a month.

Its time i decide what i want in the future..

Will be on leave for the whole week again for my assignments and revision. exam is coming again. ): my day camp in library is going to start tml!! ((:

soon.. it will be july! ((:

Shall get my wishlist up soon!!!!!! hehe… ((:

The trip to tioman with the girls was fun! ((: This is the 1st time i’m travelling with the girls, was very excited about it ((: The night before our trip, i had gastric pain. )): sadded. But it doesn’t spoil my mood! ((:

I overslept that morning when we are suppose to catch the morning coach. ): sorry girls, but lucky we din miss the coach ((: thru out the whole journey there, i was quite worries that my gastric pain will come again. ): But. NOPE it doesn’t! ((: The journey was fun! ((:

We went snorketlling on sat. ((: was quite afraid to go down to the deep waters at 1st. But, my playful personality get hold of me.. ((: and yes i managed to go to the deep waters!!!!!! cool! its an achievement for me! and the fishes are soo beautiful!!!!! ((: Looking at the beaches, sun and the clear waters, i seems to forget everything in my mind!!!!! ((:

had a bad gastric pain in the late afternoon after snorketlling.. not sure whether is it becoz of the miss call from ly. ): but whatever it is, the gastric pain doesn’t spoil my dinner mood!!!! ((:

The journey back on sunday was full of wait, uncertain, adventurous and lots of 1st time. We waited for 3 hours for our ferry back, after boarding the ferry, the ferry sail slowly… and it took close to 4 hours to reach… and when we finally reach the terminal, our coach has left without us. ): was having a super bad headache. )): lucky we met 2 local guys, they helped us to look for cab to bring us back to the checkpoint. but, 500 RM for 2 cab back to checkpoint )): Damn exp!!! but we dun have a choice. )): we spilt up into 2 cabs. the journey was 2.5 hours long. and… along the way, we saw the beautiful night sky!!!!!!! ((: the stars!!! ((:

After we alight, i vomitted. )): my gastric not good le… vomitted gastric juice. )): sorry that i scare the girls. ry’s bf waited for us at the railway station with our super late supper. (: really thanks alot! we took the KTM train to woodlands checkpoint. This is our 1st time taking the train! ((: Finally, just before midnight, we reach woodlands!!!!! Home sweet home!! ((: The moment i reach SG, my SIM is being deactivated AGAIN! i fuming mad about it. Singtel ar Singtel… wats wrong with you… -sigh-

Was on leave on monday, to rest and to do my assignments. But i ended up playing with my desire. ((: Called singtel and ask what happen, end up they asked me to go to hello shop to get a new sim card. After waiting for the whole afternoon, my sim card is finally activated. I hope this is the last time!! Else, i’m gonna complaint again! =X

Was back to work on tue. But, my gastric dun feel good. end up, after work i went to see doc. the 1st thing my doc ask was… am i stress recently? he gave me 2 days mc to rest at home. ((: Which means, this week i only need to work for 2 days. the thought of my unfinish work… -sigh-

I guess i must make my decision soon. ):

Time for lunch!!!!! (:

Happy Birthday to you, my friend.

I’m sorry I’m not joining ur celebration today, as i promised peihua to visit you together with her when she is back from her exchange program.

I hope u enjoy the celebration that your mom plans for you.

Happy Birthday, peixian.

I will be strong. (:

Sometimes, I can’t help but keep smiling.

I wondered, how long will this heartbeat last?
Does age really matters?

You paint a smile in my heart.
Thanks for bringing this heartbeat back. ((: