Now then I realized I don’t understand you at all, even after I have tried to understand you. You are just getting further and further away from me. Whenever we were together, I felt that I actually had nothing to say to you. Is our friendship getting weaker and weaker, or is it just what I think? We are like so far apart from each other. Every time I would ask myself, am I growing sick and tired of you? Is this what you think also? How I wish I could turn back to the time where we often go out and had fun together.

Sabrina! I know it’s late to say this, but this is what I think. Friendships come and go easily. If this was the case, just let it go. You don’t have to worry so much, coz you will never know in the future if this friend is really your “true friend”. Even if she/he’s not, just let it go. Time will heal everything and maybe everything will come to a happy ending!

I shall stop here then =)
Cheer up! My friend…

School’s starting tomorrow…

Thinking back, i have done nothing much. Didn’t help out much in the project work, didn’t do my tutorials, didn’t meet my friends, etc…

Done lots of reflection and thinking during the holiday too, though its a quick one…

Why am i so lazy?
Why must i think so much, causing miserable to myself?
Why do i care so much about others opinion on me?
Why? Why? Why?

Sometimes i really hate myself for hiding my feelings for you. But it’s not easy to hide feelings from somebody and even telling them your feelings. You know, it’s rather embarrassing to tell people how you feel towards them.

At times when you are feeling down, friends will always be willing to lend you their ears. But in actual fact, who will really lend you their ears when you really need them? When i really need someone to talk to, you are always not here for me. Maybe it’s selfish for me to say this, but isn’t it what everyone thinks?

Maybe i am selfish that’s why i hate myself. There are just too many reasons why i hate myself and i really hope to change. I really wished that i can be a happy-go-lucky person who will not think so much and be happy always. I have tried to, but, couldn’t. Perhaps some day, i am able to break-free from this barrier.

 Anyway, Happy New Year to everyone including myself =)