Happy new years everyone! its been a while since I’ve posted a blog on this site and I’m starting to miss looking at this pink screen and all this pink and purple and colory stuff. Life is happy Hopefully things will be getting better and hopefully CLOSER for me and a special someone out there! I don’t think he reads this but he might. Haha. Oke babies are growing up good Bella is starting to walk better shes getting a little bratty though and Kayson is good.. well hes good healthy but bad. Like he hits people and stuff. Hes just a little boy is all. Thats all on the update! i’m bummed i couldnt go with my friends yesterday cause Bella was here its oke I had a little bonding with that little monster. Shes real cute! Well i love my cookie and bye!

one will prove sooner or later.

~then there it goesssss falling

Wtf.. The most annoying things a person could possibly do. The most dumbest reasons someone would do something. Full of crap. But I’m the dumb ass who lets it go. I done with this bull shit. Give you some comfort when I had none I think not. Only does things when I bitch about it.. *shakes head. Well thats no good. Neither is this thing. ~to become inspired

I wonder if you’re listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don’t really know what’s going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

~last train home

I haven’t exactly figured out how someone mentally hurts.. Or how exactly they seem to feel it.. Is the main source of it in your chest? Cause thats where I’m feeling it and my stomach feels sick. As for the rest of my body.. its numb. Walking around like a zombie. Thinking is making me sick. Having to get up is useless. Lying there makes me think. Music is my savior. This probably really isnt the place to write this all out. But I’ve thrown away my dairy cause all of it really seems to hurt.. all of the memories in there I honestly don’t really want to remember. Its weird how I finally decided to be good and faithful then this happens.. maybe I shouldn’t have.. This always happens, when I decide to give it all to one person they just go and have to screw it up… like it isnt nothing but a thing. I dont think I can ever look at him the same anymore.. ever.

In a month from tomorrow it will be a year since she passed away.

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I have trouble accepting the fact that your gone. So I won’t. It’ll be like we’re away for a while without seeing each other. And I can understand why god would’ve wanted you close him, you’re truly the best on earth. in your own special way. I love you ateh gel and I think about you everyday..

I know I know.. I haven’t wrote a blog for a while. Let’s see.. yesterday was my sisters graduation. My feet hurt really bad cause I had to walk around in heels and then they made us wait standing before we could lei them cause they let them go out first. We then ate at Tony Romas in Pearl City. I ordered baby back ribs hehe. Only half slab with baked potato and fries.

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Me and my bf are doing good so far.. O.o we’ll have to see. He’s being a little girl and making a Sanrio Town acct so he can comment on my blogs cause I told him how lonely they get cause no one comments me Now he’s making an excuse as to “Its not letting me log in” [what a liar] Trying to keep some dignity as to being a man.. And he seems to be some what fustrated as to it not working.. [faking] Probably just to make it seem solid. Anywho, we’ve been watching movies together these past few days and its been awesome. Hopefully its bringing us closer together. I care about him so much. Maybe I should make a list of what we watched.

1. National Treasure 2

2. The Golden Compass

3. 50 First Dates

4. Over My Dead Body

5. Enchanted

*will update with more later!

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I guess I’ll be watching movies a lone from now on.. To think that I actually wrote this exact same blog today.. *shakes head..

Last day of school! I went to the beach today with May rose, Margo, and Zac. School ended so early today. It didnt even feel like it was the last day. The only person I ever hugged was Deana then Amanda. Haha.. I didn’t even take any pictures during school. But at the beach we took a bunch of pictures. So tired! I had so much fun though! Its like so awesome to have four ppl. If its just three then its not that fun! Also got to know May out of school. Rofl so sad on the last day too. Haha. But I was watching youtube (as always) fights. I watched Bum fights which is so messed up. I think the most crazy fights is soccer fights. They like totally kick and stuff.. Looks painful. I’ll post up one picture I took when I upload one.

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Other news.. me and the boyfriend are slowly getting back on track…

<3!

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Pictures from the beach!

School ended at 12:45 pm.. I feel sad because I dont get to see some.. “persons”. Mr.D and Mr.Briel are like amazing. Whenever I see them its like.. crazy! But me and Zac like walked past Mr.Briels class just to see him, then as we were walking to the library.. GUESS WHO. YES, MR.D oh my. *fans herself. I’ll write in here later going to do some homework!

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Great. We broke up again. Honestly, this is becoming so repetitve. Why can’t we just have problems and NOT break up. We were doing so great for a while and then this happens.. I’m just so confused about everything.. I kept trying to speak to him but he wouldn’t talk back to me.. This makes me really sad.. I was telling him that I love him and that I wouldn’t do that behind his back.. I just hope he somehow believes me.. Because its not even like how that guy said it was.. I hope somehow god gives us another chance..

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Oh and does anyone know if we could add music here? Please get back at me on how to if we need to do the embem code or what.. K thanks !

Hello Well I’m at school right now. Zac is on the good computer, which means that I can’t play the games I wanted to play because it didnt have the flash or whatever it needed in order for it to operate. But thats oke because I found you! I didnt know how to do this blog thing until I investigated it heh. Zac is my bestfriend. I dont know why but I just dont get along very well with girls. I’m a sophmore right now. My sophmore year ends in two days. I have so much work to catch up on. I’m barely passing as in I have mostly D’s and C’s >__<

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Thank you Erin for the comment, I wouldnt think anyone would be reading this. I dont know how I feel about my life right now. Oke WTF, does hello kitty online work or not? This is making me really angry because I want to play. I dont know how to Download it or sign up or whatever. Grrr.