last summer camp we had a game..it was a getting-to-know-each-other sort..

there was this particular question that got stuck in my mind..

what thing do you miss the most?

and i immediately know the answer to that..

I MISS TRAVELING.

i’ve been out of the country once and of course im looking forward to adding up numbers on that..but the cheaper traveling would be just going around the country..

when my grandmother was still in her lucid state, we would always go to places and be adventurous..

we’d climb mountains, invade caves, climb more mountans, go for a swim near the water falls, go to the beach, go site seeing..just do a lot of things and visit a lot of places..

and i miss that..

i miss the tiring trek, the skin burning tan, and the amazing view..

so i’ve decided to visit some places again..or for the first time.. which ever is applicable..

i want to see the sunrise on top of the mountain..

jump off a waterfall

be blind because of too much fog

get a tan

take pictures!!! hehe

i received the news this morning..or lunch..didnt notice the time.

its about me taking the board exams..

yes..you guessed it right!

i can go over at PRC on monday and file for May boards..

i remember blogging about how demotivated i am about the SLOW process our school has..

i guess im just lucky..

it was a good birthday gift..and i just simply love the blessings im getting..

i remember sounding really arrogant when i had a talk with one of my friends..

i told him that sometimes im kind of ashamed to pray because i am so blessed..like everything i pray for gets answered..

i feel like such a horrible person because i am definitely not a the good girl that i seem to be..(if i do seem to be like that..hehe) i mean i do stupid things sometimes..and bad..and evil..so i feel like i dont deserve the all the blessings im getting..

i do try to be a worthy one..but its uber hard..and im no super woman nor super blameless..

i am thankful..

if i only know different ways to telling and showing how thankful i am, i would have done it..but this is the only way i know..

i am thankful..

check on number 1..SOON!!!

hehe

i know i made one last time..but i think imma stick to this one..

1. license..

i still very much want it..i dont care if its this May or October..just as long as i get it this  year..

2. THAT job..

i really want that job..i hope i get hired and travel for training..hehe

3. a place of my own..

i want to practice independence..it doesnt mean that i dont like living with the poeple i live with now..i just want to know how it feels like to do things on my own..decide for myself..of course i wont ever ever forget my responsibilities to them..i love my tata and my lola and love..i’ll get us a better and bigger one..dont worry..hehe

4. cyber-shot DSC-T77..

the green one..i always wanted a camera..im no professional with pictures..but i love taking them..hehe so i want this one..it’ll look slightly professional if i use this..*hopeful..hehe*

5. PSP

i’ve been wanting one for quite some time now..and i still dont have the KACHING for it (got the kaching from mary..that she got from marj)..ugh! its very frustrating..*i know i know, childish..but what can i do..i love games..hehe shooting games to be exact.. *

6. serious clothes

i should have thought of this sooner..the only thing inside my closet are jeans, shirts and shorts..i dont have anything formal and smart..i know i need this if i want to stay in the corporate world..i have to look smart..(but im already smart..no worries..hehe)

7. serious shoes

of course i cant wear chucks with those now can i??i have to have heels..wedges (love them!)..flats with seriousness..like i said..i have to look smart..and business-y..hehe

8. make up

i need to invest on good make up..im not vain or anything like that..but its just the thing with girls..i guess..we NEED make up..hehe or it could be just my opinion..hehe whatever.

9. money!

and this would be the last one..i want to have like 200k on my bank account..hope that job that i want will pay me more than this amount in a year..*as if..hehe *

that’s it..

i hope to check more than one of these by the end of the year..

number 1 is definitely included..

i checked out the last time i blogged..

it was alomost a month ago..feb 10 to be exact..

a lot has happened actually..the first thing was the preboard..

oh my..it was super hard..it was really difficult to pretend that i knew what i was doing..because most of the time, i really didnt..my brain worked hard that day..*the prayers helped big time!*

a week after that, i got the results..

*drum rolls*

i passed.

i passed..

hehe i know its not yet the real thing but at least it made me feel like i am worthy of the title when i get it on May.. *Lord, claim ko na ha.. *

then, the second good thing would be the work-at-home thing..

after 3 months of needing/wanting it..

my boss finally agreed to let me work at home..

yeah, it has some disadvantages, like not being able to go out after work..well, simply put.. not going out at all..hehe but i discussed that with my tata already..she agreed to let me go out every once in a while.. *happy!*

and the advantage..a bunch of them..dont even know where to start..

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oh..i remember that blog i made about losing weight..

as expected. i still have the excess on me..

i am trully horizontally challenged..haha!

i even discovered this amazing snack in front of the school bldg. i didnt want to try it then because i dont usually eat those kind of stuff..

but when i was in a tight budget, and it was the cheapest big meal around..i was convinced that i should try it..and i do not regret it a bit..i looooove that snack!

i think imma eat it for lunch every weekend..hehe yummy!

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today, i realized that i am beyond blessed..

for most of the time, i think i’ve been complaining about how tired i am, how boring this life is..how plain my everyday activity is..

and yeah..its still the same..the activities were even reduced to a mere school-bahay routine..

but it really didnt matter..

not crying myself to sleep would be one reason..

i know i dont have a problem..and even if i do, the big Guy up there fixes it for me..for this family..and i dont think there’s more that i could ask for..

*oh yeah, the license..hehe *

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i have my music,

and that is the beat of my heart

i have the air i breathe,

and that is my family’s warmth

when the earth shakes,

my faith wont.

when the world mourns,

my joy definitely wont.

happiness!

this year has been exciting for me..

a lot of happy and sad things happened that i will surely never forget.

and towards the mid of the year, a challenge challenged me.. hehe

i have, rather, want to stay single for one whole year.

now im not saying that being in a relationship is everything for me. what im saying is, i’ve been in and out of relationships that most of the time, i dont know or forget how to be alone anymore. and i swear, it is difficult.

may 2008. i’ve decided to stay single. the only criteria that would extinguish my decision is if i say i love you back to a person.

somehow, i managed to stay happy and well. up until now, i am very much single but definitely not alone.. thats because i have my family with me. they keep me alive. they make me want to wake up and say -its gonna be a bright day ahead-

a friend asked me if i miss it. yeah..i miss it..but i dont miss it like hell..for some reason i am liking how the single thing is going..its freedom and love all at the same time..i am not losing all the love i have..i am gaining myself..i am under construction and im gonna come back with a bang!

im setting priorities. im studying harder than i thought i could. i am working to keep us fed and im loving it that my wallet is happy as well..

so i’ve stated my case..but i’d like to add more..

tips: to stay happy..

see the light!

its always nice to be optimistic. there is no downside at all. aside from the fact that you’ll get less of that stress from everyday activities, the smile on your face could make other people feel your happiness..

feel the air!

it could be a little warm sometimes but it will keep the coldness in your heart comforted..its a matter of dressing up your heart to whatever comes your way.. problems will always be there..and its gonna make you stronger..so deal with it head on..and of course the good times are always nice to entertain..remember: dont go with the flow..follow your heart..

hear the music!

some people may say bad things about you..but you know what is true.. its either you talk back or walk away..and from what i’ve heard..walking away is the bravest thing to do.. so the next time someone steps on your ego with their words..hear the melody and sing along..

smell the flowers!

suspicions are tricky..and when you smell something fishy, it is always the right thing to ask first..trust is always the best ingredient in every situation..if you learn how to trust you’ll learn how to understand..but i am not saying that you should be stupid all at the same time..asking is not enough..you should keep your eyes open and not lay your gaurds down..so dont dive into the smelly pool of stupidy..flowers definitely smell better..

taste the spice!

life isnt always sweet and not always bitter as well..have some adventure. do something new. its always nice to discover hidden talents and make them better.. sing out loud and dance like its the last dance..life shouldnt be a routine..its supposed to be exciting and fun..

enjoy every minute because life is short..and there’s no better way to spend it than to spend it for your God..