walking on the isle she felt tears roll down her face. she was looking at the man she’s about to marry, she just simply saw happiness.

he held her hands and she held them back.
it was time to say her vow..
she was prepared. it was all printed out for her to read but she felt like saying something else..

and the words she blurted out,

…right now, i have here in front of me, everything i could ever need. this day, this dress, these hands im holding are perfect. and tomorrow when i wake up, i know i’ll be waking up in heaven because i’ll see you beside me. i’ll cook breakfast for us and spend time with you and serve you till you have nothing left to make me do..and by the end of the day i know you’ll still be there to smell my hair and tell me you’re happy and you love me. and that’s all i ever want to hear…

she came in weeping like there’s no tomorrow and saw them sitting on the bed on the floor..

“we need to talk” she said looking at him.
“what are you gonna talk about”, the girl on the floor said looking at her.

she turned to him and said, “why?”

he asked the girl with him to leave the room for a while so they could talk, but she refused. she insisted that she wanted to hear what she has to say..
so the crying girl agreed because she couldn’t do anything.

she started her speech.
“if you’re gonna ask me a reason why you should stay, well, i don’t have an answer for that..all i have here with me is myself. ready to do what it takes to make you stay. we didnt spend that much time together but i know for sure that i want to spend more years with you. make you smile and laugh. cook for you. i haven’t even cooked for you yet. i want to do all those things because it satisfies me to see you happy. but if she does it without even exerting effort, then please tell me you want me gone.” she paused waiting for his answer. but all she got was a face confused.

“he doesn’t want you. that i know for sure” the girl said sounding without doubt.

she wanted to hold him tight and tell him how much she wants him to say that he wants her to stay..

she held his hands instead and said, “if i could die now, i’d love to..so that last feeling would be knowing that you love me too. but i don’t want to die today and i know i’m gonna live long. but if i don’t have you in that life, i know im gonna have a hard time breathing..im gonna have a hard time coping..so i at least have to start at some point.”

the girl looked at her wanting to hear some more.

so she continued while crying..
“let me start today. tell me you don’t love me and tell me to go away..”

but he just stared at her, face confused.