to compose myself.

i’ve been too happy and messed up all at the same time..

happy about how things are going and messed up because of how things are going..

*i cant even blog properly. arg.

this is how you’ll know i love you..(happening simultaneously..:P)

..when i hit you..
always happen with friends though..a painful form of lambing..:)

..when i enjoy the hand-holding..
rarely happens..i’ve had some terrible hand-holding moments..to this is the part where i kind of start liking you..(what a give away!!)

..when you make me smile with just a thought..
this one i keep to myself..so if you do have this list..im the one whose gonna check it for you..:)

..when i look forward to spending time with you again..
friends are the first to know about this..cant stop talking about you stuff and enjoying being with you but not really confessing that i miss you..which leads me to the next one..:)

..when im in denial..
in denial that i really want to see you again..:)

..when i doodle about you..
for some reason, i start writing when im super sad or extremely happy..so i end up doodling..

..when i willingly agree to spend time with for long hours..
i am such a busy person that even my mom reserves a date when she wants me to come home..(you must be an interesting person then..:P)

..when i wake up early just to be with you..
one thing i really really super hate is waking up early..going to church, school, important activities are some of the selected reasons why i TRY and wake up in the morning..if i whole heartedly wake up early for you and spend the morning with you, i definitely definitely love you..(dont go breaking my heart ok??:P)

..when my heart skips a beat..

**how many check marks have you got so far??:)

(under current affairs because im totally an issue..:P)