i always thought that life has reasons for being like that..

and i guess im right..life treats me like this because i look at it that way..

but what is it that keeps people motivated??i wonder what will keep me breathing for next few years to come..(just in case i dont die later..) i thought i wont have any reason at all..

i’ve been reading my old letters a few days ago..and man..i was so in loooove..but im not now..it just went away..

i remember testing myself if i still did..and it turned out that i just really wanted to be there to help..but my help is not, and will never ever be, needed..and i respect the decision..

im not lost..i know what im going to do tomorrow..i even have this to-do list with me every single day..its just too sad that im not entirely inspired about doing the things i do..

now im stuck with looking forward to tomorrow..

i just hope it’ll give me some inspiration..

i want some..