its been a while since i last blogged.

its quite frustrating and bothering..

its not like me to not blog at all..so here i am letting out what’s on my mind..

blogging and putting to words what i’ve kept for days..

i miss lots of things..like watching tv and excessive sleeping..

dinner too..having dinner while watching the news is heaven..but then i wont be able to unless its a weekend.. so there you go..i might as well call it a diet..hehe

its seriously making me crave for something normal..

and normal is defined as acting the way an adult does..oh man..how difficult it is to work..i enjoy it though..but then still difficult..i wonder when i can have a real job..the one that requires me to be in the office for 9 hours (including breaks of course) and will let me be home by 7pm and watch prime time..

hehe so its all about the tv now..

goodness..

i feel like i dont know how to blog anymore..most of my ideas are jumbled and are not connected..or maybe they are but then they’re not arranged properly..

haay..

this is it for now..

maybe i’ll be back by the time i turn 30..haha

i’ll miss this..

it is painful how a happy start could end as the most excruciating thing you’d ever feel..

its difficult to even sort the feelings and figure out what’s right or what’s humane..

you really cant be with me then..

its so obvious..but i’ll stick around..just in case you change your mind..

i still want to wake up beside you..

it all started yesterday, October 31, 2007.

it was our salary day and our bonus day as well.

our company decided to give out our 13th month pay during May and October. all of us were expecting our bonus and even had plans on what to spend it on.  but to our surprise, there was no bonus yesterday. everybody suddenly burst out to dismay or even anger.

lots of us even suggested a boycott, signing off on our shifts and make our boss worry.

it did result to something. but it was not so good after all.

the owner told us, the employees, that he wants to legalize. so that would mean that i work for an unregistered tutorial company, since i’m a part timer, i didn’t mind at all. its his duty to register anyway.

legalization would mean that we are going to pay taxes.  a lot of my co-workers complained about it, because we are part timers and not registered. but he insisted that we really have to pay, and that our bonus would be affected because of this.

it is unfair for us. because he should have said it earlier and not on our bonus day. its the same with us asking permission to be absent. he should tell us about his decisions too because we are affected. big time!

i did some research and i found out that..

we really should pay taxes.

but before we do that, we should be registered. not only the company but also the employees.

since we are going to pay taxes, we should have a contract and a TIN number.

everything happened so fast and i dont think it can be helped.