i have decided yesterday to fast.

and yes, i do have a reason for doing so.

i want my family to live without worries..i want our life to be just happy. no big worries and no big problems.

in my whole lifetime of knowing how to blog, i have never received this much comment..i mean if i had just one comment would be great joy to me..but to have more than that is like almost perfect happiness..

i just haven’t or didn’t imagine that this day would come that there would actually be a person willing to spend 2 minutes or even just a minute to read and comment on my ideas..

i’m so thankful..^_^

how is that??

i usually cry when all is asleep..when no one’s watching or hearing my every sob..

i am not doing very well and i am not doing bad either..its just plain and normal..nothing exciting..just the thought of growing up and forgetting all that happened in the past..i have many dreams that sometimes i think my lifetime is not enough to accomplish every bit of it..but i am trying..trying very hard to be what i want to be..to be what i need to be..to be what they want me to be..

i am a daughter, a sister, a lover, a person..an ordinary person..but i do want to be somebody when i get older..i want to be everything someone will ever need..i want to take care of the homeless, heartless..loveless maybe??

i want so many things..i want to be happy–happier..

last week i was let down by a petty comment..i felt bad and kind of disappointed at myself..but of course i forgot about it over the weekend..^_^
but to my surprise, a sweet person sympathized with me..and im just extra happy that someone i dont know would say those comforting words..

thank you..
i cant think of another word to express how happy i am that you boosted my morale..^_^

oh,,how harsh,,that P person who made a comment,,and he/she/it is not even a hellokitty person,,
how i wonder why people do that,,why they can’t keep ‘the evil’ inside of them just stay inside,,and never ever come out even in words,,
maybe that P person is angry or worse, furious at me,, i wonder what i did wrong,,i dont even know the person,,
oh well, i have to take criticisms once in a while,,hehe i just hope its not too often or i’ll lose my love for writing pointless stuff,,at least its not pointless in my point of view,,harhar,,this blog is so corny,,and i’ll truly, truly appreciate those who agree,,

so to you P person,,i forgive you, just in case you want to say sorry or if not then at least i’ll give you the pleasure of not deleting your comment on my posts,,
i must say, i felt kind of insulted,,i didn’t even notice that my blogs were disgusting till you came,,in any case, i’ll keep on posting what and how i feel regardless of what you think about it,,we have different opinions and preferences,,its just too bad that your critique came across my blog and it suddenly became nonsense,
i’m hoping that your blogs are interesting,,do you do blogs??
that’s it for now,,i feel better,,^_^