a day always starts out with a disguise.

its the disguise of possible happiness..and its always sad to know that there is a possibility of sleeping with a bad feeling..

anger is number 1 on my list.

i’m angry at anger. .it takes the good life away..if it affects you right up front, you lose control. you’re not yourself anymore. you make bad decisions thats definitely gonna come scratching your conscience. and we dont want that. no one wants that. anger makes you the worst person you can ever be. aside from the cracked poise, you also destroy the relationship. may it be with your friends, parents even relatives or/and your partners..you lose everything you worked for and everything you care for. it takes away lives, lives that you cant live without..(kind of redundant..^_^) and the annoying, real result of it is that even if you fixed the problem and even if you know you forgave each other already, there’s this part of you that doubts the sincerity and it doesn’t help at all..in our language its ‘may lamat na ang relasyon’..some people may forgive fully, but for the most of us, we cannot forget. and that is also the  price we pay for being carried away by our feelings..

i know we all know how to handle it but we cant just do it when its actually happening, i guess there’s really no touchable solution for this..

lets just wish that no one or nothing makes us super angry so we wont regret it as we wake up each morning..

election is near! so near it scares the crap out of me.

there’s a lot of ways that candidates sell themselves..but who do you think is deserving of that ‘isa kong boto’?

runs in the blood

hmm..the hierarchy! we have lots of this in our country. the dad is a mayor and the son is a counselor, a few years later the son gets to be the mayor and the dad retires but is still active in the service. this might be a strategy for true service or corruption, well, you decide.

we also have families going against their own bloodline..now where is the peace in that. i believe this is a strategy for monopoly!difficult people!

celebrities

oh yes! we also have celebs running for positions..even for presidency!i dont think its a bad idea but the crappy part is that they dont even know anything about how the government works..i mean, at least have a background man! having the heart to help people is different from running a country, or be a portion of those who runs the country! this is a serious matter people, if you want to help, you can always do it without being a politician.

aspiring

the aspiring politicians..these are the almost worse people that i have been informed of..maybe they do have a good purpose of running for the position but please, please have funds!this is not discrimination, this is a fact. if you’re running for a senate position you’ll have to have funds so you can travel around the country..and that’s not petty money, its big money we’re talking about.

from experience, these aspiring politicians turn out to be aspiring celebrities! goodness! why dont you just join STARSTRUCK instead! dont make the people hate you for your foolish ways..

public servers

oh and lastly, the true ones..those who really want to do public service through the use of law. i admire these people who are true to the citizens and true to our country. their goals are always for the good of the country without any kickbacks. but unfortunately, we cannot identify these people. haha. that’s the tricky part there..

and the famous strategy that they use might be..

motorcade

this is when they ride on a pick up and wave their hands and try to look as sweaty as ever but still smiles so that the people can see how tired they are but still want to serve the country.

commercial

just like celebrities, they make commercials because they think that this kind of media is a super great help. and yeah, i think it is too. helps those celeb candidates..^_^

flyers

i’m guessing this is one of the oldest strategy have that vote. they give out flyers with their big faces striking at you!

posters

and of course the posters..this is the other old strategy. posters are everywhere! even on restricted facades! oh my, why cant politicians follow rules?!

meeting de avanse

this is the first thing that should happen when the campaign period starts. and true enough, they lay their platforms up front. but the silly part about this is that they become instant comedians when stating their plans!(horrifying!)

i believe they do all these to please us citizens of the republic. but we should remember that each of our votes count and if we don’t use it wisely we distort the future of our children.

many has been criticized and many failed to stand up for dignity. let not the money be the basis of every good decision make. we deserve to live in a better place and we deserve a good life.

late last year i went through a crisis..and still is happening to me..

i have to work my way to college..though i know that its a normal thing, i still think that its hard to be working while studying..especially when i want to graduate with honors..

some say that i dont spend time with them any more..and i say, thats the price we pay for being independent.

i want so many things in this life that i dont think my lifetime will be enough.. but i still am hoping that all my dreams will come true..with the approval of my God of course.

i want to graduate and provide well for my family..i want to be a good servant of God and do all necessary things for myself as well..

i hope to get through this crisis..

i’ll do it with Christ!

oh..!

i cant believe it!

this day is the most boring day i ever lived in!

i had to kill time to have to..its that complicated..i hope it ends soon..and to top it up..its so so so super super super hot here in the Philippines!

i just want to rest.

its stupid how people try too look for happiness when its already there right up their noses..

i have waited and for some reason i know now that i have to stop it..

its over and done for me now..and i know that this is the best decision i’ll ever make in this lifetime..i have to straighten up things and focus on what’s on my hand..and hold on to it as much as possible..and as long as possible..

now i am sorry for the wasted emotions and wasted time crying for nothing..

to my lover..i am sorry i cheated myself..i love you and i will make you happy..i will please you in any way possible..i will be a good lover like you are to me..i will appreciate your concern and i will understand you..

i love you so much and i will love you more tomorrow..