u said u understand, after asking, and didnt tell me what u understand, i could guess what u were thinking of, but I didn’t bother clarifying, if understanding that way would be better? idk.a new year, a new start, yea just forget abt those stuff, i didn’t exist? idk. If to say that u aren’t important at all, that is so not true. libra libra. it’s rly true what’s abt the horoscope thing? or is it simply me thinking too much, u could hv said it in a nicer way? or just like bluff me or sth? oh wells, as close friends technically shldnt be bluffing and stuff. it’s just kinda affecting bahs. well what doesnt suit doesnt suit i just have to accept that, and that the fact stays dif ppl hv dif taste to dif style and dif things suit dif ppl. a new year, a new start, a new kinda hairstyle which would definitely evoke many ppl’s dif kinda comments. but well. it’s just cox my hair curls that way and fluffs that way so it becomes that way. when it straightens it’d be dif? WELLs. now is schooling period so shldnt think too much abt image, whether that gd looking or not. oh wells. what’s done can’t be undone, it’s just to welcome the new year. i’m accepting that.

EMOTIONAL WAVE DAY.I somehow found myself back here to channel out some thoughts. Christmas celebration today was rather fun actually, yet it ended on an emotional note for me?
Today I went for church servicing with Joni and a couple of other ppl whom I now know as friends haha. Lol. Yeap. Xiao shi, Esther and Ailin. Being there then I felt peace in myself, though I personally ain’t a Christian, I still believed in it too? (at least having some respect for that faith) It is really amazing. I reflected upon the past, all my sins etc, there were just certain things I felt as sins and I really can’t get over it. When I was there however, during the ‘salvation for the soul’ time (I dk the procedure so ps abt the bad description) i really felt myself free from those sins. And well sins are sins. they still haunt me. i just cant bring myself to talk abt what else happened today le.

i think i’m moving! (permanently)

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RELINK BAHS. haha. there’s still link from that blog to this. when i  feel like it i guess i might post here~ haah ><

i think i’m getting used to blogger alr. haha alr starting it up was slow. cox i wasnt the one who did it of course, i wouldnt hv switched to blogger if not with someone’s help. haha ><

I just realised my style of blogging is like crap all e way haha.

Basically today is like study cum shopping day with twinnie, and splurging on ring, clip and a sock for my hp.:) (it’s mainly pink! Haha) yeap and today’s like my bro’s bdae i helped to buy cake and stuff. Haha.

I just felt this need to blog about last week which had been HECTIC! this post should have been posted earlier, i had just been delaying. all rights. craps aside. overview of the post as usual!

1.TUESDAY 1/12: choir exchange with SAJC followed by council alumni party at downtown east coasta sands 
2.WEDNESDAY 2/12: tuition (not gonna dwell too much on this) followed by council CAMP night bbq and stuff
3.THURSDAY 3/12: missed watching new moon but had fun time with lunching with seniors AFTER CHOIR
4.SATURDAY 5/12: date with twinnie (:
5.SUNDAY 6/12: date to twinnie’s brother’s bdae bbq! (:

TUESDAY 1/12: choir exchange with SAJC followed by council alumni party at downtown east coasta sands 

I enjoyed the choral exchange VERY VERY MUCH thanks to MR TAY AND MS THAM! their lesson on music theory and stuff were AWESOME! (: hearts hearts! haha esp cox it was the first time i saw mr tay the way he conducted the whole choir was simply (to me funny and cool and awesome) haha AND we’ve got REINDEER candy sticks! HAHA. it was just so so so FUN (:

2.WEDNESDAY 2/12: tuition (not gonna dwell too much on this) followed by council CAMP night bbq and stuff

i liked the tuition i had been going for because it’s really awesome, i’ve been helping there too. reckon i’d help after TA2 or A levels as like tutor or just genuinely helping out. it’s fun(: the tutors there are fun too! (:

about the camp! i reached sch while the people were having FUN ‘auctioning’ food, eventually they all were sharing food haha but it was for the fun of bidding haha! i joined the nightwalk. freda kamini and zul went walking with me. I was the scaredy cat among them so I SCREAMED LIKE MAD. yea SCREAMED like nobody’s business, just for the fact i wasnt walking with someone else. WELL. YES. i shouldnt be thinking about that. ATROCIOUS. retarded. what had not been possible wasnt possible already.  things were better this way, that i walked with other ppl cox it was a different experience. WELLS. drop that topic. just too bad i had choir the next day so i missed the camp performances. and yes. cox of the screaming i couldnt sing the next day.

3.THURSDAY 3/12: missed watching new moon but had fun time with lunching with seniors AFTER CHOIR

having choir practice while some people who supposedly invited me to watch new moon with them watched new moon. it’s just bad luck the timing clashed and stuff. SIGH. yes. i was damn sad about that, not because i couldnt watch the show but because i couldnt have the time spent with those people. :/ well. i almost thought i was gonna HAVE LUNCH ALONE, GO HOME and EMO with myself, but eventually i turned back and went back to school (i walked all the way to the bus stop, but STONED, watching 2 buses which could bring me home by pass and go) I joined the excos and the dsa people for lunch. i didnt eat much, practically just a yong tau foo soup cox i wasnt particularly hungry. it was fun talking to them, then going back with them on MRT. (those ppl just liked to talk abt funny and wrong topics. HAHA i would say SOME OF THE GUYS. haha LOL)

4.SATURDAY 5/12: date with twinnie (:

going to the library to do work with twinnie! (:

5.SUNDAY 6/12: date to twinnie’s brother’s bdae bbq! (:

that night was AWESOME. had loadsa fun with joni and her siblings, haha went with junshen and winston and another friend.

It has been long since i last went to genting~ This time round it was a rather relaxing and easy going ones. Some highlights of the trip though:1st day-
1.Getting a new pair of sports shoe (:
2 artist portrait of me and my sis!2nd day- many funnny things (:
1. kiddy rides (awesome bumper car time!)
2. watching movie - the christmas carol!
3. karaoke-ing cum dinner!3rd (last day)-
1. LAST min shopping - a skirt bought (:
2. watch 2012 on coach (it’s pirated )It’s always good to have summaries haha so those crappy part ppl can just skip…
rides on coaches are long~ i managed to finish a novel, next year LA text Brave New World by aldous huxley. haha. quite a creepy book! LOL! One thing that never left me was pooh. lol. so random~ i’m still a childish person, need some soft toy for security… get back to point! because we reached there at about 3pm / later, we had an early dinner then walked around shopping. In the shopping list was a new sports shoe for me (cox my current sports shoes is 3 years old alr!) and the new sports shoes i have is NIKE (: it’s like sports shoes with air so cool (: nice to wear and walk with! There was one shop that attracted the four of us which was artist’s drawing of famous people, mediacorp artistes etc~ i thought i would like to have one of my own so i had mine drawn, but with my sister. (: haha i guess it’s really hard to draw me cox i would say the final drawing didnt exactly look like me? but consider the speed and it is hand drawn, the artist is really skilled. (i would upload the photo soon, when i get it on my com!)
That’s much about first day, 2nd day started off late but was generally fun (:The rides we went for were in the indoor theme park, just my dad, my sis and me, It was the same old thing, but just quite different because now i’m 15 so i felt differently and stuff. HAHA. More focus was on taking photos though (zi lian as I am. that is just SO ME.! haha!) even my dad had been infected by my zilianness and he also took one when he was on the reindeer ride! HAHA!!!! XP promise pictures would be uploaded so that less talking needed, it’s boring isnt it? LOL! About the movie we watched, the christmas carol, it was generally ok, the storyline reminds me of GHOST OF GIRLFRIEND’S PAST though, go catch it! (: I like to commend about the 3D animation, the effect it had even without us wearing the 3D specs thing. Yup. it was  cool~ fastforward to dinner time! we went kbox! haha not exactly kbox but those karaoke place. it;s like my first time there! (i’m such a noob aye haha) i had much fun SINGING til my heart’s content. (but my vocal chords were giving way though :/ i gotta have it rest for a long time or sth, but choir practice is just in a few hours time! technically quite a couple of hours)i dont feel like crapping too much for that haha good thing. off with day 3~




Last day! still have things to talk about! morning was time for last min shopping, and i managed to buy a nice purplish/ brownish skirt (: yay more skirts to wear haha! (and there was this barbie show on telly in the hotel room in the morning, wanted to watch it but missed a whole lot of it cox we went out of the room LOL. realised i’m still quite obsessed with barbie. i think barbie on telly is nice, especially those fairy tale stories. (wells i’m still childish as i can be…) Next on, the coach ride. It was a blessing in disguise, we actually wanted to watch 2012 on 2nd day, but cox there was a mix up about the timing we watched the christmas carol instead, 2012 on coach wasnt really nice. the environment wise it was very bumpy ride, and i was rather far from that telly which was showing it… the subtitles were so tiny and at certain point of time there were no subtitles too! :/ well pirated what to expect? >< overall the show was rather amazing. its just hard to be convinced why the main characters were so lucky to be alive against all odds (wells, that is so movie~) haha! waiting time to reach s’pore was exceptionally long~ because there were accidents along the expressway, thanks to the smart driver, we overtook quite a couple of coaches. so here i am back in singapore (:

for the photos! i think uploading on fb would be easier! could go check it out!


There in the bus, the long waiting time, I was thinking of random stuffs again. It was because of sth which someone told me just a couple of days ago, to be wary of ppl… why is it time after time it’s like there just are some sense of being cheated or something. why is it that we just cant trust people to be who they are. it’s really sad. ppl just wear masks and go around hurting others. those people are such jerks. as for me, i had been just too foolish to want to believe that things are good as they are, to have blind eye towards the bad stuff because i’m just losing almost everything if i were to acknowledge them and take actions to them? well. :/ why do ____ have to be like that, they are the ones who listen, yet with motive and stuff? :/ why must i be forced to acknowledge that fact and start thinking of all those hurtful stuffs :/ which cant be changed. and for some things which the more i try not to think of, i ended up thinking of them even more…

Long time since i’ve last updated this blog :/ Shan’t talk too much crappy stuff and get on to whatever i would want to say! haha mayb having a summary would be good, so those who find the bottom part too long (IT DEFINITELY WILL…) at least know the gist of it! haha

1. OVERALL RESULTS
2. BACK FOR GRAD NIGHT
3. TA orientation prep (WELCOMING THE 2010TA1 PRCS!)
4. ALUMNI MEETING + short shopping time AFTER (:  

PART 1
the much awaited… results! (well. if there are any who are waiting for my post… HAHA. >< GUESS mOST PPL HAS GIVEN UP ON COMING TO VIEW NEW POSTS ALR) I’ve got an E for lang arts :/ but As and Bs for all other subjects! (: my position in the cohort is 8/69! at least i’m in top 20% not too bad yea~ (i’m aiming to get better in Lang arts next year!) basically that’s much abt the result, talking too much would be a bit too over. haha. anything anyone wanna find out more they could ask! (: (can ask about some random subject my position i got quite gd for some! (: HAHA LOL!)

PART 2 I’m lazy to type much about this cox i’ve typed this before on fb le haha so go to this link to read the post abt it OH for people who has photos with me could you guys kindly send to me somehow or sth! thanks!

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PART 3 this is the most fun part so far i think! yup The 2010 TA1 PRCs were finally here on WED, late in the night… There are a total of 2 guys and 13 girls~ GIRLS OWN HAHA! interacting with them is awesome fun and just just NICE. I LOVE IT CAN. YEA MAKING NEW FRIENDS!!!(: they are friendly people (: I love them1 (: i think i just get along with prcs easily (: haha guess the reason would be because i’m able to converse well in chinese and so am able to strike conversation with them easily and to relate to them! to tell them a lot of things which i usually don’t talk about (mm as in which usually I won’t be that talkative, but to them i would (: cox i just love helping ppl ><) haha i’ve like crapped quite a bit already, nothing much to talk about though. OH. wewent to BEDOK interchange on fri for their bank account application and i helped with buying of their HP sim CARDS. I followed the teacher btw…and we bought like 14 sim cards! A LOT AYE… and it’s SINGTEL~… SINGTEL ROCKS! haha! XP LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING OUT WITH THEM ON MONDAY! (:

PART 4 ALUMNI MEETING I’m part of alumni le. haha i should have joined earlier. wells joining now is MORE FUN COX I HAVE AWESOME SENIORS LIKE JHIA HAO THE BOSS AROUND HAHA!!!!(not forgetting all the other fun fun ppl but too lazy to mention ><) Somehow working with senior is better than working with my batch people i realised? mayb it’s just some kind of weirdness. haha lOL, actually it depends on the situation… stop the crap abt that! haha we discussed about some alumni events and stuff and councillors are in charge of …*drumrolls~* HOMECOMING! XP yea! anw… we then talked abt council chalet stuff… it’s CAP (COUNCIL ALUMNI PARTY on the 1st dec haha (: ) and for that we went to IKEA to get CHRISTMAS TREE to give a christmas feel! haha. in the end we bought an awesome torch light bulb thing which is to be given to the current councillors to put up somewhere~ in the council room probably… ( I MISS COUNCIL, VERY MUCH. mm..random! ) JHIA HAO IS REALLY AWESOME. can look forward to getting christmas gift from HIM! haha!

back to randomness again! i’m going on a hols from 27th nov til 2th nov~ mm..but i do not particularly look forward to it actually. memories flashed through my mind today. quite a couple of different memories… bittersweet… all the emotions rush out…I miss some good old times. I WANT THEM ALL BACK. I WANT THE PHOTOS. I WANT THOSE PEOPLE. I WANT TO REVIVE THOSE mEmories. some things just are not possible already though. not logical… not________. available…