It’s my sister’s birthday this friday, and i don’t know what to get her. she said she wants her ears pierced. guess i have to pay for it ==

o, and it’s also nearly my birthday. gosh, so quick. i cant believe i am only turning sixteen and i have eating disorders. but i have been to the doctors, they are stuffing me up. == sounds offencing but i trust that they know what they’re doing. actually, i hope they know what they’re doing ><

And i don’t think that i will be working around these weeks. it’s because i just found out about the rosters. guess how i know this? because i went shopping today and saw david. *dreams* lolz i was going to the boost juice bar and as i was lining up to get my boost, he stood there waiting for his. as i saw him, he winked at me. so, trying not to blush i tired to smile without quickly looking away.  i wanted to quickly get off the line and run to say hi to him. So after i got my boost, which i had to wait for it and he waited for his and now gone, i ran into the store he works in…and now i work as well.. and just try my best to talk to him a lil more. i ran to the back of him and tried to scare him… “boo!” i whispered. “how’s life??” i just blurted out. felt like kicking mself again after i said that. and i don’t know why.  he smiled at me and was like “yea, hows life… are you working anytime soon? how about today??” he asked me, still with a smile on his face.  crap, he reminded me of work just then. “uhm.. im not really sure when…” =P i said to him. and then he taught me about the roster and how to read and stuff. so, i went into the staff room and checked the rosster. lol, i didnt really know how to read it. it was really confusing with all the dates and stuff. as i walked out, i started worrying about my working schedule. because i didnt know how to read it, if i don’t know, theyll be angry by me. as i walked out, he asked me “so when are you working again?” he smiled at me.
“uhm.. not anytime soon” i wish i could ask him to help me, but then, he’s busy and cant enter the staff room ><  as i walked out, i forgot to tell him my name again. lol, how rude of me. darn it ><

ugh, havent seen him over a week! what happened to him? and i didnt work because they didnt call me. in a month, i am turning 16. gosh im getting old…

anway, so im wondering where can he be, and im trying not to panick. come to think of it, its pretty stupid that i am panicking. i know i really truly like him, but if i dont want to panic then i should have just confessed or something. i mean, why aren’t i confessing? is it because im scared? or am i waiting for something??

the weathers lovely these days. i love the sun shining evry morning. unlike the winter days. and soon, its going to be summer. o, and my friends boyfriends friend asked me if i wana go to the show wit him. as a date. but then im not going. i told him ill be going to queensland with my family. i feel awful lieing to him. but i just..well, a date… please, not yet. and on top of that i am trying to chase someone i like myself. *sigh* he even told me he bought a gift for me. urgh! what can i say to him? “sorry, but i never liked you??” ok, im going to really explode in 5, 4..,3….

so uhm… about the social, i decided to not go. But luckily, because the guy i liked truly turned up at the workplace! so earlier yesterday, i dont know whether i should go to the social or just go and work. Everyone asked me if i am going or not and i just said “i really dont know…” the guy who stalks me in ballroom class, he did turn up at the social after all. so i guess it was a relief that i didnt go. (phew!) otherwise, i would have to dance wit him bc everyone suspects it. and he’s shorter than me ><

So then, after school i rushed home and changed to my work outfit and went to work. i was hoping that the guy i like works at my shift, and he did! yay! but he was working homewares, i was working clothing. before work starts, i decided to grab something to eat first, and he walked out to eat as well. i saw him walking across the foodcourt and i gasped. i dont know why i hid my face for, but he wasnt alone, he was walking wit someone else. and so after that, i walked into the workplace and they placed me doing the fitting rooms ==

After that, i was back on the floor and was tidying clothing. When it was nine, it was time to do some last tidying; that was when i start to see him a little more bc he moved over to the place i was working at. when it was time to go, i walking up the hall way and he walked up to me and was like “goodnight” in the most sweetest voice. lol, it frightened me bc i didnt expect he’ll even say one word to me since i annoy hiim almost 24/7. and i smiled at him. “hey, wat was going on before?” i asked him, bc there was this raging customer and was sooo racist against us asians and stuff full-on chuck a spazz at us. == “o no, it was just some idiot trying to make a fuss and sstuff, yea its nothing” he replied. and i smiled “o, ok then” i smiled. “see ya”

“see ya…”

he was the first to leave, i have to stay for a lil while and then the manager let me off, i expect him to left already. and that i wont see him. but as i walked out, i usually go behind the mall so i can meet my parents and sister, and there he stood. lol, i hate seeing him unexpected, coz i shocks me so much!! i smiled again at him. “so… who are you waiting for?”

“my dad”

and this is the part where im quite pissed at: he asked me “you drive?” =.=

in my brain, i was like : ugh… ==.  “no, im 15, i cant drive…”

“sorry, i thought you do” he laughed. =.= “coz i look old yea?” i asked him.

i swear, whats with ppl thinking im old? coz i look like im 17 instead of 15.

but yea, so lucky to see him again. so i guess i didnt miss my social for nothing.

what the hell is going on?? i thought my manager is going to call me to let me know about my roster!! she didnt! so… do i turn up to work on friday or what? i better able to turn up this friday, because i cancelled my social for it.

today marked the final pay day for my social, and i did not pay for it. guess that means that i am not going at all. i have not picked out a dress or anything. you know why? its because i want to work and see him. yet my boss is not answering about my roster for this week. ugh. kill me.

so i guess i will just turn up on friday then, they might just be like “what on earth are you doing here?” but oh well…

ok, im relatively calmer today… but thats because i saw him. todays sunday and yep, went shopping again. except this time, i was thinking of getting a dress for my social. yesterday, i thought about it. if david (guy i like) wont turn up in the workplace then, i should just go to my social next friday and skip a day of work. but then, this afternoon when i walked into the store i work at and where he worked at, i actually saw him. without even a chance of thinking about how nervous i am i just walked up to him and was like “hi” with a big smile, waving as well. and he was like to me “hi, so do  you still work here?” and i was like to “yea, havent seen you around much these days…” and then he said something that i totally missed because i was actually so excited to see he’s actually here. and then i replied to his question “yea, uhm… on fridays” my sister and my mum were behind me when we were talking. and then hes like “o good, same night as me..” and then i just smiled at him. we were talking about a few other stuff, but then i just got so jigged to remember it. and then after that we went up to the cash registers and i stupidly didnt go on his que… because then i might be scared that he thinks im stalking him or something.. since i always push myself to his face these days. there wasnt much people on his que. he actually looked at me when he finished serving the last customer. the girl who was serving me called him over and asked something that i totally cant remember what. and then he replied something like “yea, i work on fridays” and then the girl thanked and he walked away… i walked outta the store.. and yea, guess it ends there.

and about the social… to come and think again… i dont want to go nno more. since he told me that this friday he’s working, i am going to work then. but the problem is, i already told the manager i have a social this friday. darn, why did i tell her so early for? i hope i can change her mind and let me work this friday…