sigh…

so much for going to the big day out, my friend had my ticket and then he freakin sold it to someone else. so much of a friend. so i didnt attend.

anyway, school is in a few days and i havent started my holiday homework yet. i really couldnt

be stuffed. who gets holiday homework in summer? ? ? ? anyway, i am already busy enough continuing my own story. i doesnt have a title yet.

actually, i dont really know what to call it. but ill find a name for it.

soon i might post it up, but the stories quite everywhere at the moment.

just been to the doctor before and she said that i had gained a little bit of weight D:

no!!!!! stupid summer holidays makes me gain weight. but skls nearly here. blah blah…

a visit to the zoo!!! ::

poser, peacock :3, bear :3

watching the australian open right now. federer=DD

i think i found david’s facebook. if i didnt mistaken then he’s quite a good artist. he drew alot of different arts. ok, now i am just totally stalking. but he isnt working these days and i am getting sick of it!!

and school is starting again soon… year eleven…nice =.=

i need to go and work at my mum’s place tomorrow and then on saturday i am off to the zoo

(cant wait to see the meerkats again!! ))

i went to the mall today to see if i am able to find him. nope. once again i cannot. throughout the holiday, i have been working at my mum’s work place. it’s bloody boring. There are students there around my age working there as well, i remember about two years ago when i started working there sometimes there were these three boys and one of them had their eye on me. i just stared back and just shifted. and then the day later, they actually askeed my mum if i am her daughter and if he can ask me out one day. LOLL!! i mean, he’s cute and everything. but maybe not at that time. no dating for me back then because i think i was a little immature. He still works here, he looks a little shy. i know he wants to talk to me but is scared that i might find him annoying or something. because i played a trick on him once, he asked me for my email and i gave him a fake one. i feel so tight now.

I remember when i first talked to David, he actually touched my hands when he handed me the change and looked at me in the eye. stupid of me to take that like as if it was something VERY special. but i guess he just had to hand the change back to me and had to look at a customer in the eye. so i wasted a year and a few months trying to chase him around like a paparazzi to be with him but blinded by the fact that he’s already had someone. i feel so stupid.

o, and remember some of the boys who looked out for me last year? like the ballroom guy and James and stuff? well, one of these boys had won tickets to the BIG DAY OUT ‘10 and he wants to invite me.. i would love to go but… im really scared he’s going to be like “i want you to know that i really like you..” he’s been trying to tell me that but i just tried to cut it off because i dont know what to say if he says that to me.

it’s new years eve at where i live right now!! i cannot wait to see the fireworks  near the docks tonight. but the weather man predicted there might be a possible thundersorm.

just want to wiish everyone a happy season, merry christmas and of course:: HAPPY NEW YEAR! wish you guys all the success, hope and dreams that you would want to achieve and just have fun!! i didnt really decided what goals i want to achieve yet, but dw i still have.. 9 hrs to plan them!! ok, enjoy the new year’s eve!