handphone line disconnected again.
didnt pay bill.

temporarily wont be able to get me on my cell.

i wish i can see you everyday.

i thought i woke up at 11+am today and my class is at 3pm
so i did things slowly and even played Audition as i thought i was very early.
in the end at 2.15pm i realised i should have left house already but i have not even eat my lunch or showered yet!
rushed through everything and ran down to get a cab.

i saw a yellow Citycab turning out from a carpark into my side of the road and i flagged for it.
and to my astonishment a red cab on the opposite lane dashed to make a u-turn and cut in just before the cab just to get me.
i was stunned but i boarded it anyway since im rushing for school.
the uncle was really “too fast too furious”.
i got to school in under 15mins.
and the cab driver was telling me if he used Caltex’s diesel, his cab would be even more powerful. LOL.

last night Vonnie asked me if i wanted to join them for dinner after their graduation ceremony.
i hestitated cause afterall i havent been going out with them for quite some time.

and alfred ong was out with his friends so he couldnt come and fetch me from school so i decided to go and meet them.
i guess my decision was right cause to my surprise, everyone still accepted me, and everything was like the past. (:
i have not laughed so much for a long time.
pics will be up once they send me (:

anyway i guess im a very boring person to talk on phone with?
if the person on the other line cannot call me and talk and has to do other stuffs while listening to me talk.

dont always make me :(

alfred ong suggested meeting up today and it was a pleasant surprise as he seldom initiates meetups.
but i wonder if its because i asked him last night whether we are meeting today. lol.

collected my surprise for hubby today before meeting him.
US imported graphic tee.
nice right! (:
hope he likes it.

hmm as promised earlier to Tiara babe,
here’s pics of alfred’s bike with the new black fairing.

firstly lets see the change in his bike over the months.

original~

then with yellow rim stickers and green cover over his lights.

then came the pink stickers on body and rim.

and now,
side ascent sticker added. plus GPR pipe and neon lights.
seat cover newly made too. Battlax Bridgestone tyres! no more burnout~ hahaha.

the bike on the right is his.
yes his lights are red. lol.
the one on the left with green lights is huiwei’s.
haha twin Spark! (:

this x1 looks particularly nice although i never liked x1.

read a colleague’s blog just now.
haha after reading her blog i feel like reading P.S. I Love You too!

and her relationship with her bf is to be envied! (:
4 years and still going strong.
and still very loving and sweet, with much pampering and surprises.

its really rare.
so hard to find a lasting relationship these days.
alfred ong we must work hard okay! lol. ;X

oh and my mummy is jealous that i met alfred’s mum for dinner! lol so cute.

i dont know if im just too naive..

maybe being simple aint good at all.
when i see all the schemings around me..
i have nothing to say.

i feel fear.

an uber big misunderstanding happened today and i cried so much in Bugis that i had to hide in the basement carpark so that its not so paiseh.

but all’s well now.. (:

cause of the misunderstand alfred and i flared up at each other for the very first time.
can you imagine? being together for 5 months plus, and this is the only “fight”.

i dont understand why after things cleared up he couldnt initiate to say sorry, not even after i said mine. and i had to verbally ask him “why you cannot say sorry one?”, before he told me a meek apology.
but i hope you do feel that what happened was really stupid on our part. =.=

communication is really really important, love.

i love you baby.
i really do.

PS: dinner with your mum was fun. more to come! (:

im just an idiot.
sometimes i think you’re selfish.. but i think im more.

why do i demand all of your attention.
why am i so needy.
effing dont wanna be like this anymore.

i’ve lost control over myself.

on a sidetrack,
people please help in the Sichuan earthquake relief as much as you can.

Just Education staff have been donating money to aid the Sichuan victims.
even though im damn broke and my hp line is gonna get disconnected again soon,
i dontated $20 to the care fund.

and not forgetting the Myammar cyclone disaster.
disaster after disaster.

and some people are still so imcompassionate.
what is the world coming to..

as much as i like to say that im a good gf,
even the slightest self reflection tells me im nowhere near being a good gf.

i disappoint even myself >.<

i can disregard everything and anything around me.
except that one person.
i dont know why and i dont understand why she affects me so much.
i hate this.
i hate the way im behaving..
i hate myself.

haha awww, Alfred Ong is so sweet.
he actually wore his old helmet together with me when i wore my old one. <3

i appreciate every small little thing you do (:

i wanna cry..
im having depressing mood swings..