wheee~ i got my new phone!
samsung z370, ultra slim 8.4″
silver colour though, i would have loved the black one.

well at least its not a common phone (:
it looks like a toy phone totally.
at first i didnt really like it.
but now the more i use it, the more im falling in love with it.
functions are ok, actually similar to SE z610i.
but much cheaper than the SE one.
actually i didnt really like z610i too but the phones i like not within my desired budget..so i took the samsung.
needa start saving up!

peeps, will sms u guys about my new number soon.
but if u cant wait just drop me a msg in friendster or tag here yea (:
lovelove, gd night all.

oh, here’s some entertainment for y’all.
http://www.10mg.nl/
it makes no sense but its kinda cute in a weird way haha.

getting my hdd on Saturday i guess. with help from VR peeps hopefully.
Ave darling, tag along? (:
im aiming for 120gb.
long time no see also, hugs.

PS: hey dearest pie, get well soon!

monday night- after supper at Bak Kut Teh, Alvin sent us home in his mega truck lol.
went to Gene’s place to watch movie.
then slpt there with Vivi and Wanyew.
Gene’s the sushi master! haha (private joke)

went back home late afternoon.
showered then came out again for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner at Batok Pizzahut with Vivi.
then went home while Vivi went CCK for interview with Gene and the guys.
met up again with Vivi after her interview.
she came over for the 9pm show and after that, off we trooped to Shop N Save.
bought instant noodles and eggs.
went to Gene’s place and he cooked for us.
haha thanks bro, u’re the best (:

basically tuesday revolved around Eugene’s cosy place.
more like my 2nd home than my sch!

today’s sch again.
got off 2 hours early cause lecturer cancelled tutorial.
yes i had tutorial on Monday though supposedly we shldnt have any tutorials in the 1st week.
sad case huh.

went home after sch.
watched 1 episode of Inukami, talked to my mum and went out to Causeway Point.
met Lendl for dinner. Pastamania!
thanks for the treat (:
he’s enlisting 15th June. ahh, fast!
accompanied him to buy a birthday present for his 3 yr old nephew.

tomorrow’s cca discussion with Stella, the temporary President of my cca club now.
i feel so slack. >.<
will i survive my last year?

slept only 1 hour before work on Friday, the last day of my attachment.
cause during the last week i was rushing my reports, i didnt have time to go shopping.
i wanna buy them a lil something then make small cards for them. (:
will go back during one of the saturdays then leave it on their desks!

lack of slp, yet still went to Zouk with Eugene.
Martin didnt come along in the end.
emo night for the both of us.
whisky dry, 1 flaming lambo, 2 tequila shots, 1 lychee martini and martell green tea.

after Zouk, we met Martin up for bak kut teh at Balastier.
before going back Eugene dropped a tube of the strawberry umbrella chocs into my bag (:
thanks! i thought he was buying it for himself when we were in 7/11.

reached home at 5am+.
i think it was the 2nd time i cabbed home myself after clubbing.
i always have people to accompany. lol
but Eugene stays Bedok which is completely different direction so..impossible to share cab.

woke up at 12pm+ on Saturday.
blood donation wasnt possible in the end cause Hong Sheng and Lendl got food poisoning. yes at the same time lol.
and i was having rather heavy menstrual flow. so i cant donate also.
wanted to meet Brillo by going Yishun and asking Lendl to bring Brillo down for walk.
but while on the way there it rained and we couldnt walk the cutie so ended up going to his place.
his mum is a nice host. thanks for the apple juice! (:
played with Brillo and Joon Hong’s hamster haha.
Brillo likes to sniff at my feet which is super ticklish lahhh.
Bribri smells of baby powder after bathing. me love!
and he’s hyper after his bath. run around the house non-stop haha.

watched Naruto and “So You Think You Can Dance?” episodes at his place.
lol nothing else to do also.
Lendl has interesting collections!
money collection and stuffed toys collection from young.
the cupboard for storing the stuffed toys is big enough to store Vivi in it haha!

then Swensens for dinner. with ice cream treat from him! cookie submit!
but damn sweet lah. lol i didnt finish mine.
and he was blur enough to sprinkle salt on his baked rice.
somehow he thought it was cheese LOL.
and i just watched him with a bewildered look. too shocked to stop him lol.

played the old sch memory game machine.
the one with the weighing machine attached to it. the big yellow machine.
but the buttons got jammed and he couldnt finish his game.
we took our weight.
and OMG i gained 3kgs after attachment. ):
im sad but i hate dieting. cant eat all the nice food. cause nice food are all fattening lol.
so no diets for me. maybe i shall start doing sit ups and crunches. yea maybe..soon. haha im a procrastinator.
lazy lah.

saturday night SF invited me for service!
we tried going New Creation twice but failed.
this time i thought finally it was gonna succeed but blur me forgot to tell him i changed number.
i totally forgot about it myself man.
so his morning call never came so we didnt get to go. =/
i sure hope he wasnt angry.
i apologised and he said he was fine but sounded kinda cold..
destined just cant go service together lol. sighhh i wanna visit that church!

sunday morning i got woke up by Lendl.
his sister invited me for Benny Hinns miracle healing service.
so i accepted and after lunch i rushed off to meet him.
service starts at four but we gotta reach early.
i think we reached Singapore Indoor Stadium at bout 3pm and the place was already packed.
the rest i updated in previous post yesterday already.

today- back to sch.
i didnt slp! lol its a start.
rained cats and dogs on the way home.

sigh im the temporarily vice president of my cca club now.
so much stuffs to do. recruitment. follow up of freshies night.
master budgeting. etc etc etc.
sorry guys i couldnt be a part of the Freshman Orientation Committee.
was away on attachment.

alright! no sch tomorrow. FYP teacher’s on leave.
just came back from supper at MS Bak Kut Teh hurhur.
going to Gene’s place! update again soon.

i need to shopppp

WARNING: long post ahead. be patient, continue reading!

emo for the past week.
thought through a lot of stuffs.

anyone ever wondered why God let us go through the pains and the sufferings of life?
the God whom loved and loves us so much.
if He really loved us, need He do this?

but THINK.
whats our pain and torment compared to being nailed on the cross.
dying in humiliation in front of your people.
who are we, and what is our pain, when compared to Him?
He who sacrifices His all, so we could live and be cleansed of our sins?
He who died for us so we could now enjoy salvation and eternal life?

God wants to mould us into the kind of people He created us to be.
He wants to transform us into better people.
thats why the pain and sufferings are in our life.
but look beyond and look far.
rely on not our strength but His.
He will bring us through if we have enough faith in Him.
He will give us better life.

i went for Benny Hinns miracle healing service today with Lendl in Singapore Indoor Stadium.
i wanted to see God at work.
we left before healing started due to growling stomaches and dinner date with Eugene, Vivi and Wanyew.
but before the healing started, there were praise and worship like normal services.
and little short sermons.
praise and worship part i hardly knew the lyrics.
but i didnt fall aslp. i closed my eyes and just silently felt the love and the atmosphere of Him and the love we have for him.

its simply amazing to see so many people gathered under our common love for Him.
people from all over the world.
countries u never imagined would worship Him, the almighty.
Saudi Arabia, Sri Lanka, Korea, Brunei, Myammar and even China!
China, a country so closed even up til this century.
people who are so far away from God. in the sense that God’s stuffs are so inaccessible for them.
but they love God too. even more than i love Him i gotta admit.
their overflowing love for God and faith in God touched me.
their tears, their beliefs that God will one day open up China and bless China with more.
i cried. twice.
i sincerely prayed for them from the bottom of my heart.
one girl even secretly installed a satellite dish at the top of her house so that she could watch Christian channels on her TV!

they grew from a small cell group of 20 people to now a huge group of 200 people.
praise the Lord!
i felt so guilty.
people who are so cut off from God cherishes and love Him so much.
but why here in Singapore, where churches are everywhere and Christian bookstores are everywhere, we are lazy in our ways in following Him and even forgets about Him sometimes.

thankyou Lord for speaking to me, for enlightening me today.
thankyou Lord for everything You’ve given me in my life.
i’ll try to manage my time properly from now cause i wanna have private time with You.
commitment to a church…we’ll see.

haha i even talked to the taxi driver about Jesus! *clap clap*
but well, i still dont like evangelism.

i’ve thought through a lot of things in this period of time.
and i just read someone’s blog. someone who was with me for over a year.
someone who was and is always there for me.
i finally realised how much i have hurt people around me..
i gotta admit i was still naive still immature still silly. even though i always thought im not.
now i know.
my world stopped moving cause of one person, my dearest love then.
Derrick Ng Ser Yew.
i’ve never forgotten our times together.
and i still can cry when u occasionally run through my mind.
half a year has passed. but im still lost.
i’ve hurt alot of people from that time til now.
friends im ever so grateful for everything u guys and girls have done for me.
without you all, i wont know what to do.
i know i was insensitive.
talking about things i shldnt talk about.
going on and on about myself and my screwed up life.
neglecting u guys.
im sorry. greatly sorry.

i’ll try to make up for lost time.
i’ll try to change.
obstacles in our life appear so that we can emerge stronger than before.
so that we can grow.
its all part and parcel of life.
cmon people we can do it.
BE STRONG.
im with you, your friends are with you, your family, and Him our Father above.
we’re never alone. remember that friends.

(not targetted at anyone in particular. just emo people, be it friends or strangers bloghopping.)

LOVELOVE all, im off to sleep. its now close to 4am and i have class at 9am in the morning! goodness me. and i just told myself i cant slp in class anymore.
will update about the past few days tomorrow. bye for now!

my face is dying. my hair is dying.
tell me what now.

grrr. i lost 2 of the reports i did yesterday.
i remember saving but i just cant find the file.
guess i must have deleted it accidentally when transferring files to and fro from thumbdrive.
sigh. time was wasted redoing the reports. now i gotta rush the rest of the reports.

tomorrow- last day of work.
and i can come home and slp whole day then watch my Death Note 1 and 2.
and also my Inukami episodes!

saturday- blood donation in the morning, then go meet Brillo the chihuahua. then service at CHC (:

sunday- maybe drinking session with Eugene. his beer treat!

monday- 1st day of school…SIAN.

during my attachment period, days are all duplicates of each other.
occasionally Uncle George sings funny songs or make funny comments to make my day.
i dont like my job, but i do love the working environment there.
its like one big family, with no internal disputes.
certain periods of the day there will be this buzz about the office- everyone’s suddenly all hyped up and chatting animatedly.
the people are nice (:

one nice surprise about today is meeting Yilong on the bus back home!
been agesss since we (Gene, Vivi and me) saw him.
he has become tanner now.
and even though he’s on attachment now, he still goes to dragonboat training.
wow dedicated guy.
gd to see u dude.
been so long since we chatted huh! i remember how we 4 always hung out together as a group at the end of 2004.
movies, job-hunting, Marche. (:
hope to meet u out as a group again alright!

i wanna ice skate. i wanna download all the animes and movies in the world!
i wanna read. i wanna have a pet. i wanna see Brillo. i wanna donate blood.
there’s so many wants. many more like going to NUS but hurrr. my results suck.
emo again.
menstrual cramps go away.
its so hard being a girl.

there’s a song inside of my soul.

i have a whole pile of reports waiting to be done now >.<
been slacking since the previous week and now i have so much to catch up on.
was rushing like a bullet train in office just now and finished up 3 reports.
i feel so out of breathe now but i still have so much more.

had a long chat with Hong Sheng yesterday.
we’re gonna donate blood together with Lendl next time! (:
though im afraid of the fat needle i wanna donate!
im glad everybody understands. thankyou. (:

lol i bought whitening mask and whitening body lotion.
lets hope i turn fairer soon!

oh, thank you Shangze for treating Susu and me to xian yu chao fan today. (:

i need a pet in my house…to cuddle and to love.

still hasnt gotten over my emo-ness.
but saturday indeed took away alot of the sadness.
SPCA then easter service.
animals and God. what more could i ask for?
woke up too late and Lendl ended waiting for me again.
he’s my SPCA companion! i havent seen any guy love dogs more than he does.
he practically got raped by the doggies there.
big dogs stood upright to lick his neck haha.
our arms are marked with red with the bites from the dogs, esp the big ones.
when they play they bite.
one particular dog didnt know its limit. it bit and tried to fling my arm away.
hey boy its attached to my body u know. lol.

some poor dogs have been there for over 6 months.
6months..can u imagine? its more than half a year.
i wish i could take all of u guys in.
its a pity i cant. :(

cats mostly changed already.
the cats in the cattery are so affectionate!
one kept rubbing itself against my bag which i left lying around.
another jumped onto my lap to let me cuddle (:

after SPCA when i knew Lendl was going for Easter service i immediately requested to tag along.
it has been months since i went to church.
but i know God has never forsaken me.
the Easter drama was interesting and Sun Ho’s voice could really reach super high pitch.
God’s annoiting i guess (:
i liked Pastor Kong’s sermon ‘cept for a line he said which i didnt really like.
ended at bout 9.30pm and we stayed on at the carnival with his mum and sister til 10+pm to eat.

i rededicated. (:
he did too.
and his mum accepted Christ! praise the Lord!
but still i might not commit to a church.
parents dont like it.

on the way home we saw a collection of weird people.
and we chatted animatedly all the way til we miss our stop lol.
though he lives in Yishun, he took the green line with me from Expo after service, alllll the way til pasir ris and change red line with me.
but the thing is we didnt have a chance to change.
we missed Jurong East and went all the way to Boon Lay, and there’s NO MORE TRAIN SERVICES then. gosh.
we then cabbed home together rofl.
again the cab driver is weird.
kept on chatting non stop even though all we do is giggle and say ya. -.-

been catching up on my Naruto all day.
yew sent Venezia to my doorstop just now, thanks (:
gonna catch up on reports then go slp already.

next week i need to plan outing with LYME, with Janjan and with Jessie if possible, clubbing with my pie, dinner with ben sista if possible, and of course one last SPCA trip before sch reopens. this time i shant wake up late!
girls i want my girls night outtttttt

emo from sunday til now.
been thinking about alot of stuffs.
apple pie, we needa spice up our life.
the ohsocheery us aint actually very happy though we look as though we are on the surface.

DBL O on thurs did cheer me up.
and so did comfy sleepover with heart to heart talk.
thanks alot girl. (:

booze fags dance falls and blisters.
aching feet and wasted day after.
it was a crazy night.
we got mistook for drunkards, the both of us.
but we aint. its just a front. a facade.
even without drinking much we got so high.
yes when one’s emo, its easy to get high.
but sorry guys, kindly refrain from touching us.
we may be emo and high but we only dance male friends we know.
all girls welcome.
send in application through tagboard.
lol zzzz.
blur speech and things i say got no link at all today.

i feel empty.
PS: a million hugs from wee&ling to eugene bro. lovelove.

i now know why i seldom blog.
im a no lifer. i have nothing to blog about!
attachment makes me tired and everyday after work i head home.
zzzzz.

but once school starts i gotta start working rrreally hard. sigh.

dunno why i feel so sian today. >.<
never mind.
i know thurs will make my day. DBL O!
im gonna drink drink and drink.
and tomorrow! dinner with wee, my apple pie. (: