konnichiwa ^^ woke up at 6.45am…actually today dun wanna to blog de…as thought teacher will release us late…but our cher nv come again…due to on course >< so another teacher of the subject,PEQ took over…ended lesson at around 3.45pm…first lesson was PEQ theory then PTQA practical lesson and PEQ teacher took over again… -_-||| somemore after PTQA practical lesson,was PEQ theory lesson again! -_-|||

so on fri morning,actually is PEQ theory lesson but change to PO1 theory lesson…but too bad…fri has celebrates national day ^^ so no lesson on tat day ^^ btw today was a totally worst day for me after the lunch with my jie meis at tampines mac =’( as after our PEQ theory lesson,we gt 2 an a half hrs to have our lunch…so went to tampines…

at lunch time was totally very happy lo…on the way…on bus 31,kept making lin laughed by saying funny things…the whole bus was fill up of our laughter till tampines interchange there >< hahax XD when we went back to sch,the next lesson was PTQA practical lesson…this was the worst part i had today! =’( wanna to cry lo!i did nt pass my practical phrase test!ARGH!!!Y LYK TAT???actually is 12 aug then take the test lo…but our PEQ teacher said today took the test…

all the steps i did were all correct ar…but y still can’t get the flash point!!! =’( i dun wan 50% gone lo!tat will really kill me sia…half of the marks gone leix!i dun wan lyk last term anymore lo!i wanted to have gd scores…so i can still continue my dream of going to the place i wanted =( y lyk tat treated me???totally disappointed on myself =’( y the same thing happened on me again???i dun wan to go back to the past le…

y so unfair to me???everytime the first test i took always nv pass =’( example lyk my PO1 first test of chapter 1,i did nt pass at all lo…all my friends passed with flying colours…how disappointed i was lo!no one will know abt it…only at there asking u gt how much…all these kinds of qns. lo!haiz…i really dunno y…no matter how hard i studied…i just can’t get wat i expected… =(

i nt talking crap lo…but it was real…all my examintions…all results were nt wat i expected…took the practical phrase test for twice u know?but still can’t get the flash point!first time i gt the flash point at 57 degree c…but the expected temperature should be at around 67 degree c to get the flash point…haiz…i just had to face the fact…all things had passed…no matter how sad i was…i will still can’t get back to the time when i did nt pass my phrase test…

i was lucky tat…two groups same as my group…gt the flash point at 57 degree c…just dun get it lo!other groups can do it,y our group just can’t get it?haiz…i was super ‘heng’ lo…tat wat i can say… =( may god bless me tat next week my cher can give my group a chance by nt failing us for today…prays hard…wish everything just goes fine…

after the phrase test…went for PEQ theory lesson…during the lesson i was totally emo…dun wanna to talk to anyone lo…so ps to lin…she asked me wat happened…but i just said nth and dun wanna to talk anymore…hope she can understand abt it…whenever i kept quiet,just leave me alone…as something sure had happened to me…so i will keep quiet and being emo…

i really wish tat i am a girl tat always being so cheerful…saying jokes to my friends and laughs till crazy…but there sure have something tat bother me…which is sch work…especially tests!i hated to have tests…how i hope tat in the world there will be no thing tat called,’test’!tml will be back to normal…no matter wat will happen to me by next week…

dun wanna to spolit my friends’ mood cos of me being emo…ying,u can do it de! ^^ i totally hated to write sad posts in my blog…but seem lyk all the sad things were happening on me become more and more…i wish there will be a full stop for it…sometimes…i totally wanna to give up!just now walked on the way to the PEQ classroom…my tears almost dropping down my cheeks from my eyes…i told myself,there no point for crying!cry can’t change anythings…should learn how to stand up on my own whenever i fell…

learned the lesson from my mistakes…be brave as wat i had said and also wrote in my blog be4…on the bus back home,i thought of a lot of things…took off my spect…in my mind,i kept thinking tat,”wat will happen if my life tat i walking till the future being blur?”besided tat,i also think of,”maybe being blur is the best thing…dun need to see the things tat i dun wanted to see by with a clear look…”how foolish thought i had right?

i really lost,just lyk a lost girl searching ways out of the forest…i was totally depressed…no one can help me by lending their hands…i knew wat i was typing now…whenever i failed for my tests,i just can’t stop myself of thinking foolish things…as i was totally scared of failing…i failed till i can’t take it anymore liao lo!i can keep thinking tat i am a girl tat being so lousy than others…i nt comparing of others…just as whenever heard the friends around me,saying out their wonderful results among each other…thinking back to myself,i was totally disappointed of the results tat i had…haiz…maybe too stress for myself…

went to see how my classmates took the PTQA practical phrase test again,after PEQ theory lesson…as they first test was failed and took for a second test…they also gt the result of wat my group had…flash point appeared at 57 degree c…but continued for further temperature,the temperatue at fire point,they gt a flame >< lolx XD haiz…dun wanna to talk abt it le…tml had PO1 class test due to today cher nv come…

hope tat tml gt cca to help me feels relax a bit by seeing my co friends ^^ they will make me laughs whether i was feeling down >< it is wat i thought la :p hahax XD lolx >< ending here…dewa,mata…sayonara ^^ be more cheerful…laughs as usual ^^ eveything will go fine de ying! ^^ as i believe in mircale in my life…instead of kept thinking in a sad way…cheerful!

P.S. : be strong ying!no matter how sad u r…u still have to face the fact!jia you!

Yin : whenever i feeling down…i just dunno y,i needed u so much…this kind of thought will just made me feeling more lost in the way tat i have to go on…