konnichiwa ^^ the show tat i watched every sunday was finally ended today! ^^ today was the last episode of the show…a gd ending ^^ loved it much…great!every sunday can slp late le ^^ as on sat can’t slp late due to go out and do project =( so now finally have a day per week for me to slp well! ^^
ytd chatted with lin on my hp to discuss abt the day tat we are going to do for our EVT project ^^ on next mon…our sch has a holiday…so dun need to go sch…we decided to go out on tat day and do our project…besided tat,i asked her tat next sat is national day…we wan to take a leave on tat day a nt?mon then do…it is also at sat which is the day tat we need to do our project…as on every week of tat day we went out to do our project…
u know wat?lin told me tat on tat day also need to do our project =’( public holiday leix…still need to do work…lolx XD no choice la…who called our project have nt done…somemore left few weeks to complete it and hand in by 4 sep…haiz…so i have to suffer nt to watch the shows on tat day lo…even though have a lot of nice shows on tat day =’(
anyway…project is important than shows…so have to do it first!stop thinking abt the shows le…ying!hahax XD but happy is tat…fri we going out to buy our sketch bk,which means tat day can say as a off day ^^ i dun have ‘o’ lvl maths on tat day…so happy ^^ goes sch just for half day ^^ hope tat day can wear home clothes lo…but i dun think can lo…as only celebrate national day by watching performances…i think on tat day will bring my home clothes to change after tat then go out with my jie meis to buy the sketch bk ^^
hehex…tml can wear skirt to sch as no PO1 practical lesson… ^^ but tues goes home late…ends lesson at 5pm…haiz…btw nth much for today…just watched finished my favourite show at 11am to 1pm ^^ blog here…ltr at noon lyk tat will learn the chapter 1-3 in my PO1 testbook…as have test on tues…sian…next week have a lot of tests -_-|||
how i hope the day dun passes so fast =( as feeling tat i live till now lyk nv does a thing tat i wanted…i also dunno wat the thing…just feels tat missing something in my life while day passed and passed =( it was wat i noticed nowadays…the feeling tat i had in my sec sch timed till now was still the same…as a lonely girl which i described myself…
from the day i left our old hse which was at serangoon…i also left my pri sch and pri one and two best friends tat i even had…moved to new environments,knew new friends at my new pri sch…but nt as happy as the timed i had with my pri one and two best friends… =( missed them so much…they were the one to let me knew tat had them as my best friends were the happiest thing tat i even had… ^^
slowly started to know tat the ppls around me were so xian shi…if u nt gd in ur study…they will nt be ur friend or looked down on u…even teacher too!tat y i had to learn how to face the fact…from sec sch timed…the imagine started to be clearer and clearer…till the days of my sec two…tears will keep dropping down from my eyes,whenever i slept at night on my bed =’( a very childish broken friendship tat i ever had…
i told myself…its okay…i was the lucky one as i just knew her one yr…she letted me to see her true self and imagines…so i should nt becos of her made my life so difficult to go on…no matter how i wanted to forget abt the things she had done to me…the imagines more clearer…even though yrs had passed…i just hated myself tat y can’t i forget abt the day,i gt scolded by a teacher…a childish thing…needed to tell teacher?y dun face to face talk to me?destory the imagine in teacher mind towards me…all had to ‘thank’ to her!
i hated myself whenever i talked abt the matter…my tears just lyk a water tap,auto opened itself till my eyes are fill of water…i knew,it doesn’t worth it…but i just can’t stop myself…the day also letted me knew tat i am a soft hearted girl…i am a girl tat won’t cry so easily in front of my friends be4 the matter happened…how i wanted to be a guy…there will be no more friendship problems at all!i also thought of…i am so sick to be a girl since till this yr…everythings changed my mind…
hated my sec sch life…all the mates around me were just thinking of themselves…being so selfish…heartless…most important was tat they were so jia xin xin(act) lo!rmb when i was at sec 3,my mid-yr examintion i gt a gd result for my mother tongue and gt a award…then their attitude towards me,were totally change!started to nice to me,talked to me…i am so envy NT class…as they will help one another…do as a team…whenever my NT friend told me how her class was doing…i am so envy…i always thought of maybe this was the class tat i wanted to have…lots of laughter…care abt each other and so on so fore ^^
my sec sch life letted me learned a lot of things…cos of loneliness…i wish to have a shoulder to lend on…lin knew it very well…she knew how badly i needed love from others…hope she can know y i needed to have a bf so much,after reading my today post ^^ i lose trust to my surrounding friends…i am sry to say tat…cos the broken friendship,i fell till very deeply…without a help from my new friends,i dun think i will start to trust a person again…i nv regretted to go to where i was now ^^ even though can’t continue the way of wat i had dream to go to the place i wanted at first…but now where i was,i was happy to know tat i still have someone tat care abt me much…nt lyk my sec sch timed…
it was just a long path for me to walk through…i dun mind abt it ^^ as i learned a lot of things from my jie meis ^^ they letted me to have a teenage girl tat needed much…which is a previous friendship amongst us and was the thing tat i dun ever had since the time i left my pri one and two best friends…sad was tat my jie meis only same class with me this yr…as next yr…each of us will continue the path tat we wanted…
no matter wat path they choose…i will be always supporting them ^^ so lin…lets dun waste the times tat we had now till end of the yr…laughs as much as we can! ^^ hehex >< instead always putting a long face to sch XD all i wish was to have a memory amongst us…rmb lin…HAPPY ENDING!!!hahax XD a code tat we knew >< hehex XD she will think of someone whenever i said this ^^
everytime i wrote out my feeling in my blog…i will nt have a heavy heart as last few yrs ^^ thx to lin for telling how she blogs and blogging will help u much ^^ hahax :p stopping here le ^^ feeling better after typing out all the things tat i feeling nowadays in my heart >< hahax XD
counts down 6 more days is our country,Singapore birthday! ^^ Happy National Day! ^^ still have to look for nazih’s bd present…haiz…i really dunno wat to buy for guy lo!i told marvyn abt it ytd >< he only at there laughed by his own -_-||| lolx XD tml can go home early ^^ be4 ending…dunno this coming sat which is national day,can go back to malaysia,to visit my grandfather a nt as he was sick nowadays…my mum said he is very old le…next time u wan to see him a nt dunno still have chance a nt…she just saying the fact nt cursing or wat la…but i still have project on tat day…haiz…dewa,mata…sayonara ^^ miss the timed i had at my old hse there…a happy memory… ^^ hope tat i will forever be happy than be4…
P.S. : a long way to go…when fall down…must learn how to stand up by urself…this is the sentence tat everyone should know… ^^
Yin : tired to say abt it le…know it myself jiu hao le…
