I can pretty much only write about this here. If I mention this on my facebook page, myspace page, or anywhere else, all the people I know in real life will read it. Then, after they read it, they will flip out.

First off, I’m just happy I had my son. He’s 6 months old now and amazing. My husband (our 4th anniversary is coming up soon) has a low sperm count. And, when I was 17 (almost 8 years ago), I had cervical cancer. Then, at the end of the pregnancy I go pre-eclamsia (BP of  160 over 99, when it’s normally 110 over 70) So, us having a wonderful boy, and the emergency c-section going fine and all, I’m just happy to have a baby.

I’m supposed to be at my most fertile within 6 months of having a baby.

I think I might be pregnant.

More back story, I was 2 months pregnant when I finally got a positive urine pregnancy test. That’s at pregnancy test number 6. I kept thinking I was pregnant. All I had to go off of was the nausea (within 2 weeks of conception) and growing belly. I even had 2 periods during the first 8 weeks.

So, now, out of no where, my belly has gotten bigger in the last few weeks. Also, about a month ago, I started getting nausea and vomiting that has been recurring. And, the final straw was last night, when I woke up in my sleep to the feeling of tiny movement in my belly.

Am I? Or is it all just in my head?

Also, number one reaction from people when I’ve told them this week that I think I might be pregnant: It’s too soon.

Is it? I’m 24. All the females on my Mom’s side of the family lost their reproductive organs in their mid-thirties. I’ve been with the same guy for 7 and a half years. It took me several years to get pregnant with my first (and currently only) son.

I saw Dr. Horrible last night, for the first time. It was amazing!!

All I can say is…   the hammer is my penis.

Oh! That movie was awesome!!

If you have Netflix, you have to watch it through streaming. It’s also only about 45 min long, so you have NO EXCUSE!

I’m not working today, but I’ve got an eye doctor appt. today. I’m also joining the Y. I have cleaning to do. I’m getting my van repaired. I also have grocery shopping to do.

Busy, busy, busy.

All while taking care of my 6-month old, super adorable son.

Off day? What off day?

I’ve been talking with my husband, and we’re trying to work out a system that makes my life a little easier.

I’m reasonable and don’t expect a 180. If he tries at all, or is at least less argumentative when I ask him to do something on occasion, that’ll make a huge difference.

Anyway, what we’ll try is giving him a few simple chores to do almost every day. I’ll remind him in the evening, when the baby is asleep, so he has fewer distractions. And, I get to join the Y, which we live next door to (literally), and I get to have at least 4 hours a week there to do whatever I please. So I can go swimming, exercise, use the sauna or jacuzzi, etc.  Even just going their and walking on a treadmill for an hour should be pleasant.

Anyway, I’m more excited about getting designated me time where Kirk watches our son than him doing a few chores every day. Even when he’s home, he gets to sit and relax more than I do. This way I get some GUARANTEED relaxation time every week. I can divvy it up however I want, but I get a non-negotiable minimum of 4 hours every week.

I’m just glad we were able to discuss things in a non-nagging manner.

I’m getting fairly mad at my hubby lately. I work 30 hours a week, and he works 40. Yet, somehow, when we’re both home, I still do ALL the housework and EVERYTHING involving taking care of the baby, including taking care of the baby in the middle of the night.

I’ve been married for 3 and a half years, and we’ve been together a total of 7 and a half years.

I’m starting to debate leaving him.

I’ve told him many times that it’s not fair for me to be doing all of the housework and childcare, on top of working, and he still doesn’t do anything.

I’ll ask him to take out the trash every day, and he won’t do it. After asking him for 5 days in a row this week, and now the trash is overflowing, I’ve taken out the trash myself today. …and that’s just one of the many, many examples I have.

If the baby starts crying in the middle of the night,and I ask him to take care of the baby, he’ll say things like, “I’m tired. Can’t you do it?” or “I don’t feel good. You take care of him.” Even if he’s had the previous day off and the day coming up off, when I have to work both days, it still happens.

I don’t know what to do. I’ve asked him many, many times to help and it doesn’t happen.

It’s sad the kind of stress having a baby can do to a relationship.