School on monday. But I think it’s okay. I’ll be really tired, but so? It will work, please, say that it will work… someone?

And please someone say that it will be okay on wednesday. It’s all I can think of.

 By the way, Moa is really sick of reading in english. So Moa, for you I’ll write a little piece in swedish.

haha. det var som fan va. Svenska. det är roligare att skriva på engelska. Emma sov här inatt, värsta mys serru. sen vart jag på körkortsteorin, rätt okej faktiskt. Jag ser fram emot körkortet nu, så jag kan åka runt som ett och annat mongo!

Now I’m gonna stop writing for today. And fall back in my thoughts. Have a nice evening everyone.

I have been sleeping very bad tonight. And that isn’t to darn funny.

Well, soon it’s naturally Sadie, Hurray! lol.

Fuck I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I really long for school, But now I’ve been home for so long that it scares me to go with the train, go with the bus. Fuck, this ain’t good.

Well. I have some days to get used with the thought. and on monday mum drives me, and wednesday I’m not gonna go to school. Breathe, remember to breathe.

Never forget to breathe.

oh well, atleast we could hope so.

I forgot to tell that I got my kitty stickers saturday. wiho! Really nice, and I ordered more They weren’t so expensive, So it isn’t something anybody suffers from.

I sit here thinking today, There are so many thoughts in my head. I actually wanna go to school now, It feels weird but, It’s how it is. Next wednesday I get the results. I’m frightened, really frightened. But I hope it will be good results. I really hope, hope, hope.

and by the way. Why do you have to do this to me? Fuck you.

 (oh, and I miss my piercings)

my gosh. I love you so much it hurts.

anyhow, this one isn’t for you.

I haven’t wrote for some days, that’s because I haven’t had the time, and not the strength.

 But now  I write. I were in Sölvesborg saturday, visited sis+family. Really nice but I were really in pain.

Yesterday I only were tired, Wich I am today to, but my cousin has birthday so me, mum and dad are gonne visit her today. Happy Birthday little girl.

Yesterday I were at my grandma all day, I loved it. It’s nice to be with her.

Today I’ve been talking to my teacher about when I’m coming back to school. I really wanna go to school, hate being home. Matilda will come her later. Hurray!

oh so great, I have an infection. (doesn’t that suck?) Well, more medication I guess, funny. not.

 I am bored. lol. I’m gonna go to the hospital in 1 hour, so they can look on my stomache.

 and I’ve talked to Sandra 2 times today. that feels great.

Well, so I came to the hospital, and the doctor looked at me and said, oh yes, it’s an infection alright. and they injected antibiatoics in my stomache, uuh. and then gave me pills and then a new time to come, in 2 weeks. and they will also give the results on my cyst. If it were good or bad. oh gosh, I can admit that I’m worried.

But I will soon get my kitty stickers at least. That feels pretty good.

my stomach hurts really much today. I eat my pills but they don’t fucking work today. mum got me an appointment to the doctor, there comes fluid from the operation thing. lol, does anybody understand that? well, anyways. It’s really red around it and it really sux. yesterday it started bleeding 3 times. and I panic.

well. and today I read the newspaper… The hospital where I were operated, (at the infirmary i were actually) gets the most infections and so on in sweden. lol, happy me! but it were the 50+, so I’m not so worried.

Now I’m gonna play some sims2, I’ll write more later. so long.

Well I’m back. didn’t this suck? Now they think I have some infection so I have to come back on thursday. lol. well, it could be worse.

today my friend Sandra and her daughter were here, oh so nice it were. we had it really cousy, drinking coffee, eating food and talking. It felt really good to have someone to talk with in my loneliness. and I have played sims. lol. I’m such a nerd.

wao, I am really sleepy now, but I must stay up for some more time. It’s only 9 on the evening here. and I can’t go to sleep yet! such problems in a little world.

Now I’m gonna watch csi. love it!

 peace!

ain’t this just amazing? I finally found a sweet blog page. I’m ohah happy family today. Bought myself a new kitty phone yesterday

 Maybe should say something about myself. well, not so much to say. 17 years old, turn 18 in december. that’s what funny I have to say atm.

oh, It’s so boring. I’m sick-listed. lol. I had an operation last monday (the 3rd) and I can’t do a lousy thing. I had a cyst on my fallopian tube. (lol, that’s a funny word), with the size of an handball. and it hurts in my stomach now. I can’t lift or any other things. and are just gonna sit at home for 2 more weeks. then I finally can go to school again. But can’t lift anything for 3 more weeks. lol. doesen’t that sux?

This weekend my sis and her husband+kid where here. Malte is so damn cute, he’s only 5 months old. and I can’t lift the little hooligan. well, that’s the way it is.

So now I just feel sorry for myself and wait for better times. And I wait for my phone. It’s gonna be send from Thailand so I don’t know when it come but about maybe 21 days.