And this is how I’ve been since the beginning of the month..

Day)    How I’ve been..
1)         Cried.
2)        Depressed.. Violent.
3)        Cried. And cried more.
4)        Might as well have cried…
5)        Ditto..
6)        [Don’t remember]
7)        [Don’t remember]
       Depressed.. nearly crying.. then violentish.. then nearly crying.
9)        Depressed… nearly crying… wishing someone would end it..
10)      Depressed… but not crying..
11) Down.. in slight physical pain (strange bite/sting..)
12) In pain, more than anything.
13) In some pain.. meds helping… Cried myself to sleep, just about.
14) Less pain.. less crying.. more emptiness… Swelling all but gone… He’s back though… maybe..

He’s back… I’m.. still almost surprised..

I’ve forgotten what the 15th and 16th were like… Other than just talking and agreeing with each other..

You can’t just throw away the amount of years we’ve been waiting… even if it’s just recently we’ve met..

I loved him then.. I love him now..
Best man I’ve ever known.
Best man I’ve ever loved.
Best man I do love.
Best man I do know.

My arm is better.. but I have fiberglass in my right hand. Oh the joy… -_-;