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So… I thought we were good… How freaking wrong I was, it feels like…
He popped on to say hi and.. I fucked it all up. At least, that’s how I feel… I keep thinking I ruined the fragile friendship we have between us.. He did make me feel a little better when he said, “I feel honoured that ya gave yourself to me, as much as ya could over the distance”. Honestly… that made me feel a little proud… He’s the only one I could give myself to like that.. Or in any way… He’s really the only one I trust like that.. To not make me do anything I don’t want to or anything like that.. Cos I give pretty much my entire BEING to him. I don’t use a past tense there because I still do…
I think I chose well with Shining Hope… I always have at least just a little bit.. And it burns always..
Wings of an eagle~ I soar for him..
Spirit of a butterfly~ Dust of hopes and dreams this one carries.. be cautious of the wings..
Soul of a rose~ A fragile little flower.. Easily grown or easily wilted..