FOREVERR!

anyways. hi. whats new? here is what is new with meee!

i am starting school in a few weeks. my birthday is in 16 days from today. 16 =] yayyyy!!!11!!

i have officially began racing. lol. yayyyy =]

and i still have kick a$$ shoes. as i always have, i take great pride in what my little feet wear.

ah, i actually have to go now. ill right more

hey, i havent written anythign in here for a while haha.

 heres whats new

a new dance coming up, and no one to ask. how sad. lol… i could ask someone but im tooooo shy to do that.

i found out a good friend of mine is a drug addict. kinda creepy… haha

my best friend broke up with ehr boyfriend… that was kinda rough on both of them, lol.

i spent a week where 3 guys liked me, and 2 still do… but not the one i really wanted to like me. ill explain. one, i liked. i think. kinda. i never really met him, but he was my best friends boyfriends best friend. and i really wanted him to like me. but he stopped talking to me all together. which sucks. THEN… i was at a bowling alley and this guys mom pretty much set us up. and i mean, he is really nice, just not my thing… ya know? and then i was at the mall… and ya know what, this guy handed me a napkin with his phone number on it. and he was really nice to. but i liked that one guy. well. all these guys were after me. and wtf was i sposed to do??? so. i ended up not talking to any of them. only one of them, the one i liked, did it to me. which sucked haha.

hmmm. my sister is still kinda craaaazy

i got into a huge fight with my [[real]] dad. he called me a ton of bad names. A TON of bad names. and he called my mom a TON of bad names. so me and him arent really on speaking terms. at allllll. i dont really everr wanna talk to him again, as of right now.

and i know there is more. i just cant really think of it.haha.

so yea. thats all i guess haha!

this is like… mynew favorite song!lol 

im not the kinda girl who stops the rain

whatever it brings let it fall down on me

let it wash away

how i felt for you

but it wont change

what we went through

love love love

i wont stop loving you

i never thought i would hear it from you

i never thought id hurt this bad from hearing the truth

and i want you to do what you feel is right

but i know that feeling makes me cold as ice

but i wont feel down

no you sont see this girl frown

im not gonna try to change the future

bring what it may

bring what it may

hate when nothing new happens? i do. and thats what is happening now! nothing! woooo hooooo. im on msn and no one is there so yea. it kinda sucks. i guess im jsut gonna go to bed. at 9. lol. wow im really bored

 ttyl!

im at school bacuase my sister has conferences. and so im stuck here because teh weather is bad and my mom took too long to get here so she couldnt bring me home first. it is really really boring lol. i dont know. i just dont have anythign to do. and they blocked all of the big email things which is where all my good stuff is. such as hotmail and google and aim and whatever. it totally sucks. and so now im all bored nad i cant post on the forums here because they have everything all blocked off. it is kinda a bad idea. i dont know i just dont llike it very much.

did you know that i used to write a ton of stories? well i did! i jsut felt like telling you that, me and my brother used to stay up until like, 3 in the morning writing freaky stories.i dont know why we did it or why i felt like i had to tell you… i just did

ok. thats all! ttyl!

wow… have your friends ever been really mean to you and you didnt even know it? well that just happned to me, i found out a ‘good’ friend of mine has been talking aout me behind my back. i am not one of those people who will get down about things like this, because id ont care what people think about me.

but it hurts when you ‘best friend’ says it.

she called me desperate adn that i wasnt very pretty. it hurts a ton. she says i do a whole bunch of stuff that i dont do intentionally, and for all the wrong reasons. i dont know. it just kinda sucks… lol

heck yeaa!!!!!!!!! it is a snow day today! lol, we got like a foot of snow last night. we are in a blizzard warning. it is kinda scary kinda. lol. the power keeps going out. we are sposed to get over 2 feet by tomarrow night. lol. lol. im watching pimp my ride right now and this lady has a car called ‘The Thing’ lol. she is in germany. lol. i didnt know this but it turns out germany is littler than my own state Minnesota. lol. i have a friend from germany…lol

my sister is suicidal and in therepy all the time. my mom wont stop crying. my step dad temporarily moved outta the house. my dad and step mom hvae filed for custody of us BOTH and it is all because my sister has lied compulsively.

i need help and there is no where for me to get it. i dont want to go to my dads. and im very afraid ill end up there anyways.

where there is a heart, there is not always love.

An angel isnt always sent from above.

there is the blaring affect of posers and mistreaters,

there is the after math left from the liars and cheaters.

there is no use in avoiding what fate may bring tomarrow,

there is no use in feeling low, wallowing in sorrow.

where there is a friend, loyalty doesnt always follow.

you cant always eat your pain, its to much to swallow.

ive been around the world, and i find it everywhere,

all you get from hte world is nothing but a glare.

where there is a heart, there isnt always love.

and angels arent always sent from up above.

YESSSSS! it is a new semester and i have a goal… to do reeeeeally great in school. i really want to attend MIT for engineering when i “grow up” and ive screwed around the first half of the year that it makes a difference. a new semester and a new chance to get it right.

incase you didnt know, i want to be an engineer. MIT (mass. institute of tech.) and it is almost like an ivy league school, but it isnt. but it is the greatest. EVER. and you have to be like, really really really smart! and i think i can do it but i have to quit my party-ing! lol. but anyways. If i cant make it into MIT i would be able to handle going to ATI (automotive tech. institute) and engineer cool fun stuff along the lines  of high speed/performance stuffies. it is pretty sweet!!!

ok. im done boring you with my eduacational future

buhbye